Aren't we all?
SHADOWS OF MY DREAMS:
I’m as timid as a mouse,
Because sometimes, I fear too much.
I fear the future, I fear my mind,
I fear my feelings, I fear my lunch.
I fear the truth the weighing scales tell,
Of my weight increasing and adding.
I fear the nutrition so much,
I would rather starve to start subtracting.
I fear the wrath of others;
They explode more in my mind than in reality.
Their power causes me to shrink,
Into my little shell; softly, quietly.
I fear being weak and vulnerable,
And this makes me sob even harder.
All my thoughts, pilling onto each other;
The weight of it crushes me faster.
I want to learn to be stronger;
To be impervious to the insults others throw.
I don’t want to be scared of their power,
To stop them from snatching my soul.
I want to be able to tell my mind,
“You’re wrong about everything.”
No, I want to prove it wrong myself,
To stop living in the shadows of my dreams.
I want to be able to tell my heart,
That I’m so much smarter than it.
So it should stop controlling me,
Stop making me grovel and plead.
When I’m stronger, I can finally live
My life as I should be living it properly.
Then, I would have the right to say,
I have stopped being a coward, finally.