typical people. it is being common when we die people will be starting to notice our depression and problems. people keep on regretting to not take a good care of us.
after the issues, people keep on saying about being a friend for you. asking us to tell about our problematic life like hey dude, we've been struggling before and you never noticed that so why should you notice us now.
i have enough with this fake world. you never want us mental illness person to be happy but you fake the concern and makes you look good. if you do care about us, you should've have notice our problems before it become worser.
anxiety, depressed and insecure. well that is what im having right now and yes, i think i am catagorized as a 'psycho' person right now.
except that i still got my rationality and not harming myself or whatsoever.
when we unhealthy mind person takes our courage to hurt ourself (just to get attention) people tends to look at us as we did that because lack of love. well you're true. and by looking at people who is mindly sick like dat doesnt help at all.
praises, attention and love. dats all that we need right now to be able to continue our live.
religion of course.
well i tend to hurt my self before but every single day after that incidents, i have prayed to god (mine is Allah).
i begged him to give me a strong heart, a strong iman and a strong mind. so dat, i will not dissapoint my family with this situation ever again. i know my future is coming, and i know it will be a lot better if i keep on trying living in this world.
as a lyrics in my new fav song says ;
Champion(remix) - Fall out boy & RM of BTS
If I can live through this
I can do anything. - patrick (fall out boy)
Have you ever felt how hard it is to be an anybody
To be living, to be breathing, not choosing a dead body
Remember, the man told me that this life is a party
Yeah, all the glory's so short you should put away the garbages
Normal ain't normal, ordinary is a luxury
People say "Woo, pessimism" what the other mean?
If you wanna understand, you stand under
This shit is vital, respect to the mothers and fathers
What's wrong with the life of a passenger
If somebody gotta lead, then I'mma be the messenger
I'm just too young, don't know what to believe in
But too young, you know, not to be living
I will stay, I will wait and I'll fall like a king
Even though I can forever ever be a king
I will marry this goddamn world, by my own
And put myself a goddamn ring. - RM (BTS)
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well guys, i wrote this by my own and what i am saying is what i am having right now.
if you do feel burden with your problems i am here to listen it all.
i might be a stranger but atleast, i am a stranger who had through this all.
if i'm ok , i want everybody else to be in the same situation.
i want this world to be change.
i want people to change.