dear self | soukoku

By oyaasvmi

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after dazai sees chuuya at their old spot, things change between the former partners More

prologue | glimpse
1 | gloomy
2 | frustration
3 | coffee shop
4 | wish me luck
5 | gone?
6 | no sign
7 | found
8 | welcome back
9 | "sh-shutup bakazai!"
10 | mackerel and slug
11 | disneyland
12 | suicidal heart
13 | conflicting feelings
14 | unbearable waiting
15 | "please...just...just wake up"
16 | a friendly reunion
17 | mixed signals
18 | why?
19 | two hypocrites
20 | the truth
21 | a little crisis
22 | confrontation
23 | concerned
24 | mysterious roses
25 | "just get in my bed"
26 | a day with dazai
27 | predators and prey
28 | the precipice vs for the tainted sorrow
29 | unbearable pain
31 | a sense of uneasiness
32 | searching
33 | corruption
34 | rescued
35 | cowardice
36 | forgiveness
37 | tranquility
38 | white chrysanthemums - end

30 | an interesting conversation

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By oyaasvmi

- Chuuya's POV -

"...so what's the plan?" I woke up to hear muffled voices.

"...you haven't been informed?"

"Nope." I pretended to be asleep so I could listen in on their conversation.

"Well my dear friend, the young fellow we have caught has a special ability up his sleeve. A dangerous one." Could they be talking about.....? I thought to myself.

"What do you mean?"

"Fyodor wants power. All the power he can get. That young man over there has the ability to give Fyodor absolute power. Tainted Sorrow." They know about Tainted Sorrow? How? What the hell is going on?! My inner thoughts were screaming.

"Tainted Sorrow? How powerful is it really?"

"Powerful enough to destroy the entire country of Japan. Maybe even more powerful." How the hell does he know all of this?! Jeez, what a stalker!

"If his ability is so great, why didn't he use it on us? Wouldn't it have helped him?"

"That's because if he uses it, he loses control. He goes on a rampage until he dies. Seems like it could only be used once." Is it possible they don't know about Dazai's nullification?

That reminds me, what happened to him? He's not with us so that must mean... No, he can't die that easily. Bastard. Leaving me alone like this. What is he thinking?

Suddenly I felt a sense of dread. Oh god. He can't really be dead, can he? Please. Let him be alive.

"We have arrived." One of the men said, interrupting my thoughts.

I opened my eyes slightly, trying my best to avoid them noticing. I couldn't really make out where we were. It's pitch black outside so I can't see a thing.

"Let's go." We head inside the mysterious place. I continue to slightly open my eyes to get a look at where the hell I am. Unfortunately, I still can't see a damn thing. Do these people not have lights?!

"Hello Fyodor. We're home!" The enthusiastic man with a bandaged head said.

"Welcome back. I see you brought what I asked for."

The bandaged man bowed slightly. "It was a pleasure to fulfill your request." The other man bowed as well.

"No need to bow. Also, didn't I ask you to bring him unconscious?"

"Yes. As you can see he's fast asleep." The bandaged man spoke.

"Ivan, that young man over there is not asleep. In fact, he's listening to our conversation right now." Fyodor said.

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a/n:
short chapter ik
i'm working on chapter 31 right now so hopefully i'll have it out soon
also thank you guys for 19k reads i'm deceased like how
it's almost been a year since i started writing this fanfic, thank you guys for sticking with me for so long
appreciate ya

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