Ashley’s POV:
Empty.
It was all empty.
And white and clean, begging me to take away the emptiness. Frustration building inside of me I stared at the white, fresh paper and with my pencil poised I made a mark, then another, and one more.
Scrap that.
I listened to the ripping sound of the paper freeing itself from the spiral binder and then the crunching as I screwed it up in my hand and launched it across the room yet again missing the bin and landing with the rest of them situated around the bin near the door.
Glancing over at the paper littered at the other side of the room I rested my head in my hands running them through my hair as I clenched my teeth in pure frustration that nothing would go right.
I flipped through my notebook studying my previous design and materiel prints thinking how much easier and smoothly I done them, sure I had to start again a few times and picking a colour scheme was like pulling teeth but they came to me a lot easier than this one. Why was this one so particularly hard? Because this style is not one of mine at all. All blacks and deep rich purples with studs of metal dipping in and out between folds of materiel, I might as well be designing for Dracula.
A knock came at the door and before I had a chance to reply they entered. I had always wondered what the point was of knocking and coming in straight away, you might as well just come straight in, since the warning you give is not even enough of one to be considered a warning neither one that leaves enough time to be acted upon.
I lifted my head from the desk running my fingers through my hair and exhaling loudly as I dragged my gaze to the door.
“How’s it going?”
Niall asked carefully taking a seat on the bed and resting his arms on his knees as he looked at me sensing that I was stressed.
“I don’t want to talk about it”
I snapped speaking through my gritted teeth, he didn’t reply instantly as if waiting before he spoke again would give the sheer anger and harshness of my last sentence time to disappear and be forgotten before a new one took its place.
“Alright. So we were thinking about going out to get a bite to eat and then go for a walk or something? We’ve only just got here and you’ve been in here for hours, give yourself a break for a few hours?”
The question mixed with facts hung in the air for a bit before I began to think about it. This didn’t bother Niall, not in a way he showed anyway, he waited, just sat there as I gathered my thoughts before I began to form my reply.
“Just a few hours?”
I said looking back at my now again empty and blank page and remembering how soon it needed to be filled, not a scratch of emptiness remaining.
“Just a few hours”
He concluded and I bit my lower lip then sighed loudly, he again just remained silent as he waited for my verdict.
“Okay”
I said pushing my stall backwards and closing the notebook and pushing it to the back of the desk along with my pencils.
“Okay”
I repeated calmer this time bending down on one knee to the floor and lacing up my brogues. I took a hairband and roughly tied my hair into a high messy bun. I slung my bag over my shoulder and looked to Niall who had just sat there watching me do all of this waiting for me to back out and sink back into my work again, but not this time.
“Let’s go then”
I said flatly nodding towards the door then looking back to him.
“You sure?”
He said standing up and running a hand through his hair then smoothing it back out.
“Yes, of course I’m sure”
I said in a slightly more enthusiastic tone and he raised his eye-brows at me then relaxed them as a smile curled at his lips and he pushed his phone deeper into his pocket and walked over to me taking my hand.
“It’s nice to have my girlfriend back Ash”
He said quietly and I felt a pang of regret as he said this sliding an arm around his waist. I hadn’t really left and we hadn’t really been through any dramatic trauma or argument. I’d just been so wrapped up in my work lately it had started to take a toll on our relationship, me locking myself away in my room night and day to finish designs meaning that I saw a lot less of Niall and when I did have time I was too tired to spend time with him properly however much I wanted to.
“And she emerges from her cave!”
Harry laughed announcing my presence since I hadn’t really spoke or seen to any of them at all in the past few days, only on the journey here and even then I was sleeping.
“Shut up Harold”
Niall said bluntly securing his arm around my waist guiding me down the corridor behind everyone else.
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“You have cream on your nose”
Niall chuckled leaning forward over the table and wiping away the white foamy food with his finger and popping it into his mouth. I smiled taking another sip of the milkshake we were sharing in this really cute little café.
“P-lease”
Ellie scoffed rolling her eyes as she sipped her coke and placed it back onto the table before continuing to tap away on her phone. Me and Niall just looked at each other and laughed earning another eye-roll from Ellie. It felt good for things to be like this again, not that they’d been gone for very long but it was long enough.
“You all ready to go to our next place then?”
Liam asked pushing his glass to the middle of the table and looking at us all. I shot Niall a look but he avoided my eyes getting up with everyone else and holding out his hand for me.
“Niall you said just a few hours? It’s been over a few hours and now we’re going somewhere else?”
I said quietly taking his hand as we walked out of the café and into the streets.
“Just…just relax, okay? We’ll be another hour tops. I promise it’ll be worth it. Besides, all you’ve done is work lately, just take break and have some fun, alright?”
I considered this for a moment. Of course he was right, I did need a break, and he and I both knew that but whether I could afford one was something different altogether. Something which neither of us really did know the answer to because unfortunately you can’t always plan the future to a point because you don’t have all the facts yet and you won’t do until you get there, we’ve learnt this many times but yet it doesn’t register in the way my head works.
“I am”
I replied looking at him as I waited for his reply to that.
“Good” He said. “I’m glad”
Forgetting the fact that we hadn’t really had a proper conversation in days we talked aimlessly as we trailed along behind everyone else and I finally loosened up allowing myself to joke around and just have a laugh with him like I had only a few days ago but had forgotten how to so quickly.
“Oh my god I should’ve known”
I rolled my eyes but smiled suppressing a giggle as we approached the centre of the city of love itself, the Eiffel tower.
“You’ll be surprised to know, this actually wasn’t my idea”
He said beaming at me as we both looked up at the great landmark before us.
“I’m not surprised”
I said letting out a small giggled as I rested my head on his shoulder.
“Shut up”
He said teasingly as he wrapped his arms around me.
“Come on; let’s just stay here for a while, yeah?”
He suggested gesturing to the mass of grass spread out in front of us filling the space between the landmark and us. Our shadows now cast out across the grass overstretched and long as they mimicked us as a couple.
“Yeah” I said. “I’d like that”
He pulled me down to the ground with him about 20 meters into the stretch of lawn from where we had been previously stood. He put his around me and I rested my head on his shoulder my body leaning into his as we sat there whispering to each other as we looked at the tower before us underneath the stars.
“You know”
I began and he looked at me saying nothing as he waited for me to continue kissing my temple in encouragement then looking back to the sky.
“I do love you even if we haven’t really had a chance to spend time together lately and I haven’t had the time or rather made the time to tell you”
I let it out snuggling further into him.
“I know”
He said nodding.
“I love you too”
At this moment as if on cue an array of fireworks shot into the sky behind the tower lighting up the sky and amercing it in bright colours. The bullets of light exploding noisily with a satisfying popping sound as they drained all the darkness from the sky and lit up both the night sky and the ground that lay underneath it as well.
I smiled and I could tell that he was too as the fireworks continued shooting in all different directions in the sky and lighting up everything that crossed their path of light including us.
“You knew this was going to happen”
I whispered in his ear and he dragged his gaze from the sky to meet my eyes a smile curling at his lips.
“Shhh, just kiss me”
He replied already leaning in as he said this as he captured my lips with his own in a soft but passionate kiss the colours still exploding around us erasing almost everything that night-time was about.
“I told you it’d be worth it”
He whispered against my lips his still brushing mine as we had only just broke the kiss.
“So now, we can tick kissing by the Eiffel tower, at night, in the city of love, while fireworks are going off, off the list, right?”
He said and I giggled looking to the ground then back up to him.
“I guess we can”
I replied.
“So I bet you’re glad you took a break from your gruelling designing stuff for now, right?”
“Yeah, I am. Defiantly”
I concluded and he smiled.
“Good because I was a bit afraid that we’d waste this summer with you getting too caught up in your work…”
I just looked at him. Ashamed that I had been that wrapped up in work and not with him that he resorted to thoughts such as this one, thoughts that suggested our whole summer we had planned was going to go to waste.
“No, it’s not going to. I’m all yours, from now on, okay?”
“Defiantly”
He breathed pulling me closer to him so our stomachs were now pressed together as he covered my lips with his.
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So, it's kinda short. So I'm considering uploading again tongiht because I don't like short:3 if I get a considerble amount of feedback on this one then I will upload the next chapter;)
I had the medical situation re-dressed this morning:L with all the blood over night it had dried and it was rock hard and it took like half of a pain staking hour to take the bandages off and then I had to have it all re-done and she wouldn't clean it up in case it started bleeding again so I have to go back tomorrow and then back to the hospital to get it checked out on saturday and sunday and possibly monday fml.
I want to go to school:( It's all sunny and I don't mind school when it's sunny omg I wanna goD:
I had a really good writing day today so yeha I wrote quite a lot here and there(y)
I LOVE YOU.
-Emily.