Mateo should be gone now, so I think my best bet at a warm and private spot should be my very own room. I quickly make my way over to the dorm, glad that I did bring my keys this time to unlock the closed door, allowing me access to the empty and spacious room. Flopping down onto my bed, I some what try to pull my jacket off of my body, not wanting to get up again after not only the morning run but also the speedwalking across the entire campus. I'm quite exhausted actually, maybe I should look into this whole Finn thing tomorrow or after class.
As on command my phone rings and a message from Logan pops up with two links and a short little message.
Still can't believe you've never heard of this guy, here's his blog and an article about his suicide. He was really one of a kind, too bad I was never able to speak to him. Talk to you later, Adrian Lauden.
I guess I'll check it out right now, thanks man. Quickly typing up a small thank you, I proceed with opening the link to the article first, get a nice little summary before jumping into the madness. My eyes widen at the header alone and the picture of the most stunning person I've ever seen. His two different colored eyes staring right at me through the screen with a sense of captivity, insane. Dark brown hair falls into his forehead slightly but not covering those enchanting eyes in any way. How did I never see this person during my time in the closet? I basically checked out every guy that crossed my path.
Deserved or not, the Ruler of Rumors has fallen by his own hands
We all know Finn Stoyer, spreader of lies and rumors that might have crushed and destroyed many innocent lives. He made it his hobby, his obsession, to obliterate people he has never even met or talked to before, simply for his own enjoyment and humor. Crude humor if you ask me.
On the night of Saturday May 12th, his roommate Jack Taris found him in their dorm room, dead and hanging from the ceiling. He committed suicide which many aren't surprised of since people were giving him as much of a hard time he was giving them.
"The pressure and hate must have gotten to him, it's never easy for someone to be bullied and have no one to talk to, something like that should never happen.", Logan Kenneth, a psychology student here at our college said, quite sad that he never had a chance to talk to him.
But Finn didn't really have many friends to begin with, students almost feared talking and starting conversations with him, they didn't want to be next on his "Little list" of lives he was planning to ruin next.
There won't be a memorial for him, even our respected principle was target of his hobby, back in 2015 when the rumor was spread that Mr McWalten was sharing an affair with a student, whose name won't be mentioned. Of course that wasn't true as family and friends of the poor girl confirmed.
A similar incident has happened with our beloved vice-principle, the horrible tragedy of a students suicide was used to frame Mr Cullen, though we all know that he could never harm a fly, let a alone one of his treasured students.
Some of his rumors might have been true but that does not make it okay to force lies onto innocent people and students. Finn Stoyer payed for it with his life, committing suicide as a last straw of hope.
Finn Stoyer. Ruler of Rumors. This whole article is an utter mess! And what do they mean with some of it might be true? Then there's still a slight chance that everything he said was true and people were just trying to sweet talk their way out of this.
Deserved or not? No one deserves to die! Death is something terrible, not only for the victim but also friends and relatives. And suicide is even worse!
My heart stings and I can't help but to scroll back up to look at his picture again, my thumb slowly rubbing over his face. A person pushed into a corner, thinking that their own death is the only way out of it, away from the pain.
I don't even realize that tears have formed in my eyes before one of them drops onto the screen of my phone, right on his nose. Finn. You seemed to be a strong enough person to stand up for your own believes, why let yourself get dragged down by comments others make?
I want to know how much of it is true, with how much he just tried to either help or raise awareness to something. I have to know!
The article's pretty shitty if you ask me, no one deserves to be punished like this, also, funny that you're in it.
Sending the message to Logan, I click onto the other link while rolling onto my back and holding my phone above my head, impatiently waiting for the page to load. To my surprise it's actually a tumblr blog, the same picture of his flawless face as the little profile pic, a grassy landscape functioning as a header.
I scroll through his blog, without getting too much into detail as it mostly consisted of pictures he must have taken from different objects or himself, every selfie squeezing my heart closer together. He's got quite a sharp jawline, I didn't realize that until I closely examine his profile with a black and white filter slapped over it.
I continue through his feed but not really discovering any of the "rumors" everyone's so mad about. Did he post them somewhere else? Maybe I should ask Logan but he hasn't even replied to my other text yet.
So for now, I spend almost one and a half hours with just looking at pictures of him, and being absolutely mesmerized by his eyes. The left one a bright, almost unnatural blue and the right one a light hazel brown. There's a name for this but I'm not quite sure what it is, I need to check later.
I flinch when my phone suddenly vibrates again, almost causing me to drop it right onto my face, which would have been the worst pain imaginable. Scrolling down, I stare at the new text in my notification bar, reading over Logans name a few time before actually clicking on it to open the still fairly empty chat.
Yeah, but it's the nicest one I read so far, I think the girl who wrote it was never really attacked by him but I'm surprised she quoted me. Anyway, his family must have deleted all the things he had posted and just left pictures and stuff on there, thought you might be wondering where all the rumors are haha. He used to have a YouTube channel as well but of course it got shut down so there's not much of his "hobby" left, maybe on other peoples devices, like downloaded videos. I'll be looking into all of this later on today so feel free to ask if you want to know more about him as well. People like him fascinate me and are probably the reason why I even started studying psychology, the human mind is such a complex thing, we could never understand others or their actions without looking into their heads which either doesn't work is illegal.
Ahh got to go, Logan is trying to take my phone, apparently I'm supposed to listen to this nonsense, it's like I need math in my future life. Jeez. But I'll talk to you later, have fun with Marty hope heiAHOIFodjf
I stare at the mess of letters, wondering what the hell must have happened to him, although I'm not that unhappy about him not being able to finish what he was going to say. I can pretty much guess though.
Placing my phone next to me, I take a moment to just blankly gaze at the ceiling, counting the small black dots of dead bugs on it. Mateo always smashes them with his books, leaving those disgusting spots on the previously white wall. I sit up, not being able to stop projection his face on every surface around me. Why are his eyes so haunting?
Is there anybody who might have more information on him? Maybe some of the videos or post in general? I mean, my sister is always quite into this whole gossip thing, always knowing what the hell is going on at this huge ass college. I could always head over to the girls dorm and ask her, she should also have enough connections to other parts of this student body. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I have an older sister who also studies her, although I am not completely sure what exactly, never really understood this whole social slash politics thing everyone seems so into these days.
My phone vibrates again, right as I wanted to reach for it to contact my dear sister, what a coincidence.
Sorry, Logan did take my phone! Anyway, as I was trying to say: Make sure he's not too rough, you still have a lot of sitting to do lol! Don't tell Logan I wrote you this, he would kill and unfriend me haha!
Why exactly did I decide to befriend him and even give him my phone number?
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Aaaaaand we're offically allowed to enter the Wattys, jejjjii!!!