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Please enjoy this playlist I put together for this story! Love you a million!!!
0. End Credits ~Munich Soundtrack #18*
This is an amazingly moving instrumental that captures the whole story perfectly. Yes I'm a classical music nerd, just enjoy!
1. Liability ~Lorde*
This song is a great visual representation of how Wendy felt in London. She didn't fit it, she didn't belong...Liability perfectly embodies Wendy Darling in the beginning of Pan's Redemption as the hopeless, insecure girl that her father, Daniel, and many others took for granted.
2. Somebody To Die For ~Hurts*
This song accurately captures Pan's conflicted emotions on his strange attachment to his first Lost Girl Wendy. He saves her time and time again to the boys beating her up in London, Mermaids, and the flames as she burns down the camp. Pan feels the funny churn is his stomach when he lays her down on a park bench to see her what bruising she has on her stomach from the alley boys. This scene proves he loved Wendy before he could see the fire inside her on Neverland. He loved her for her.
3. You Ruin Me ~The Veronicas*
This song beautifully captures Wendy's hostile attitude toward Pan. He's the boy who had always caused her unimaginable pain. He stole her from her family, played her, teased her. He only saw her as a possession. But why couldn't she get him out of her head...or her dreams?
4. Silhouette ~Aquillo*
This song describes the build up in Pan as he tried to determine what his feeling about Wendy really means. It hadn't occurred to him that love was a possibility as a villain, but as he swoops in to save her from her own destruction, he feels an intimate feeling of responsibility in her safety. By the end of the song and the scene where Pan holds Wendy in the cave to protect her from frostbite, he realizes he has impossible feelings for an extraordinary girl.
5. Between the Bars ~Elliot Smith*
This song provides a quiet sadness to the fact that it is believed Felix's love is dead. He is not allowed to lash out at Pan in fear of what he would do to the rest of the Lost Boys for his betrayal. This song represents Felix's sensitively and just how in love he was with Tinkerbell before she died.
6. Gravity (Sara Bareilles cover) ~Sydney Prall*
This song describes the feelings leading up to Pan and Wendy's first kiss. Things are confusing for oblivious Wendy. She can't get him out of her head, no matter all the horrible things he has done to her. It's all because she sees a good in him no one else pays attention to. This song is a surrender and a giving in to Wendy's feelings for Peter Pan.
7. It's You (Zayn Malik cover) ~BORNS*
This song gives off a desperate yet helpless feel that Wendy feels as she sinks to the bottom of the ocean with a large gaping mermaid bite on her neck. She wishes for death, but Hook denies her to which she temporarily resents him. She knows she will never be the same, and on top of all the lifestyle changes she has to make in transitioning to the repulsive creature she has become, the Shadow in Skulk Rock gives her a sort of "kick me while I'm down" feeling as he spills the Heart of the Truest Believer secret.
8. Devil Side (Acoustic) ~Foxes*
This song perfectly describes Wendy's new fear of her and Pan's relationship being well...Gone. Discovering the truth about the Heart of the Truest Believer and that their love has a time limit, it creeps up into the darkest parts of Wendy. She listens as Pan makes the decision to track down the boy with a heart identical to hers and finds herself wishing for it too. This obstacle seems to big to come over. Wendy feels the loss already tugging at her heart even though the boy she loved was sitting right beside her.
9. Goner ~Twenty One Pilots*
The lyric "don't let me be gone" is the primary reason for my selection in a crucial turning point for Pan's Redemption. Through a few chapters, Wendy is in mute agony unable to verbally scream her pleas for help. When not hallucinating, she has to use all her strength to send mental dreams to Hook and Tinkerbell. In the story, I let the audience determine how Wendy felt after the fact Pan had been fooled by Ursula. This song exemplifies her helplessness.
10. Heart of Stone ~IKO*
This song is the song I envision Wendy Darling dancing to at the recital in her hallucination of returning to London under Dreamshade. The song's lyrics hint at the words Wendy would want to say to Pan in that part of the story. "And I just can't forget you, and your heart of stone." The words describe how much Pan forgetting her through Ursula's facade really hurt her, for she believed she would have never fallen for the same trap.
11. Chandelier (Piano Version) ~Sia*
This song to describes the hardships both Pan and Wendy had to face as they fought till the bitter heartbreaking end of an attempt to keep their love alive. I particularly see this song playing in the background of the kiss Wendy and Pan shared in Felix's home in London. The song describes how Wendy wanted their relationship to start. In a world where she only had to worry about perfecting her passion for dance. A world where no one was desperate to break them apart.
12. Sledgehammer ~Rihanna*
This song accurately captures how devastating of a time for Wendy Pan's capture was for her. She throws dangerous plans together in a rescue attempt, all the while not realizing how much pressure is on Tinkerbell's shoulders. By the end of the song, there is the feel of finality of how far Wendy was able to go for Pan. We see just how far when Tink and Wendy's beloved friendship comes to a bitter end.
13. Shadow Preachers ~Zella Day*
This song represents the love between Pan and Wendy by the end of the story. This is the moment Wendy and Pan see each other in the clearing for the first time since Ursula had captured and tortured Wendy. The flood of emotions between the two of them push them to work together to defeat their common enemy. This is the song that plays when Wendy makes the decision that it is not just Pan and Ursula's fight. Wendy was going to fight just as hard by Pan's side.
14. So Cold ~Ben Cocks*
This song takes place in the heart wrenching scene of when Ursula forces Wendy to stab Pan in the snowy clearing. This song promotes a disoriented feel and a sad atmosphere that matches the numb and raw emotion felt between the pair of two lovers before they believe the clock has stopped ticking on their relationship.
15. Game of Survival ~Ruelle*
This song is deep, dark, and deadly sounding with electric beats and loud low voices that make this scream out to me as a battle song. The song is right in saying that Ursula vs. Wendy was all about a game of survival. Wendy murdered for the first time to save Neverland islanders from a terrible fate.
16. Rooting For You ~London Grammar*
This emotional song seems perfect for the moment Wendy decides she has to let Pan go. She takes Rumple's offer and leaves Neverland behind with a hope Pan will find the love he deserves and the love she cannot give him. This song really resonates towards the story in the middle of the song so please listen to the whole song.
17. How Could I Have Known ~Keaton Henson*
This is an extremely sad song for a devastating end to Pan's Redemption. The funeral Pan is hardly aware of is happening before him. This song illustrates the regrets and sorrow Pan had for Wendy. It explains why he hides his grief in hostility. I picture this song deeply in the background of when Pan visits Wendy's coffin alone and saying his horrible happy birthday.
18. Helium ~Sia*
I think this song perfectly binds Hook and Pan's grief over Wendy together. They are both missing her in a different way than Felix and Tinkerbell. They both loved her in different ways. While this song plays, Pan realizes their connection and spares Hook from his terrible plans as an unspoken peace offering. They are both the only bond Wendy set before she died that Pan did not break.
19. Where's My Love ~SYML*
This song is a a change in volume of Pan's loud emotional grief to Angela's new forgetful bliss. She is on a mission to uncover Henry Mills and his storybrooke and she makes deals along the way to keep her unknown identity a secret. She is unable to remember her life on Neverland and it is question thrown up in the air of whether or not Angela would change her decisions if she could remember her life as Wendy Darling.
20. Once Upon A Dream ~Lana Del Rey*
This song has the total creepy feel I picture throughout the whole last chapter. Pan mysteriously hides away for months and no one suspects he has an evil plan in the making? He delivers the final blow by betraying all his new friends and what Wendy would have wanted in retaliation for his love for letting herself die before he could try and rescue her. This song depicts a love song in a twisted sounding way and that's how Pan translated his love for Wendy by the end of Pan's Redemption: he turned their love into a weapon of mass destruction.