- Dazai's POV -
February 8
"Yay! I can finally somewhat get up without pain." I said to myself.
I was overjoyed. I haven't been outside in what feels like forever. Now I could finally leave.
"Better go surprise Chuu Chuu train." I said to myself.
I get myself ready and head excitedly to the flower shop. I can finally give him the bouquet.
Once I arrive, I find the bouquet I want. I purchase it and head to Chuuya's apartment.
I place the bouquet of red camellias in the front. I bought it mostly to give a little hint to who was giving him flowers.
As I walk away from the apartment I realize something.
Red camellias mean love.
Oh god. What if he think I love him? He doesn't know it's me but still...
I think the card said something about love to. Crap.
What do I do?
I guess I'll just leave it. I don't have the time or money to be buying more flowers. Hopefully he doesn't figure out the hint.
I walk to the coffee shop. I look inside through the window.
Chuuya's talking with some brunette girl that looks to be about his height.
I walk in. "Hello Chuuya." I say waving.
"So are you better now?"
"Somewhat. Who's this?" I say.
"Oh uh."
"I'm his new girlfriend!" She said, smiling.
I look to him. He has his hand behind his neck. "Really?"
"Well... uh yeah." He replies.
I think they was explaining how they met or whatever, but I couldn't really hear them. I was tuning them out, focusing on my heart beating fast.
"I gotta go." I said as I swiftly head to the exit.
I run as fast as I can away from the shop. Every step I take hurts my wound, but it can't compare to the pain in my heart.
What? What is this dreadful feeling? This feeling of sorrow and heartbreak.
I reach my apartment. I open the door and fall on the ground.
I feel like I can barely breathe, my eyes are watering.
Why? Why do I feel this way? I thought to myself.
Why am I not happy for him? He's finally found someone.
Even so, was he completely oblivious to everything I did? I was trying to show him I cared for him.
Why do I have this selfish desire for him? We're just friends. He'll never see me that way. I don't even think he sees me as a friend.
He was giving me these mixed signals and I thought maybe, just maybe he cared for me.
Looks like it's far from that.
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a/n: THANK YOU FOR 3K READS OMFFF
as a thank you, i give you this adorable picture
i also give you this picture of chuuya that killed me
you're welcome