--Louis xx Pov—
It has been three weeks since I woke up as a vampire, I’ve been sleeping in Harry’s house because I’m still his mate, I’m really trying my best to keep positive that maybe he’ll remember me, unfortunately he’s now more distant towards me and everything i do he hates it, he gets irritated by it, he even shouted at me once when i made him food.
I feel like a martyr in this relationship, I know for the fact it isn’t his fault but it still hurts, since that day he shouted at me for at least being nice to him, i know that he isn’t Harry anymore, he’s not the Harry who loves me, he isn’t the Harry i love.
But i can’t leave him, he’ll get sick again, Pathetic right? I’m getting abused emotionally, but I’m still holding on to him, because I deep inside I still care for him and that deep inside the Harry who is doesn’t love me is the Harry who does.
My friends are worried about me to say the least, they say i shouldn’t be thinking about this, it might trigger me on having depression, they say it’s bad because I’m a vampire and vampires who have depression or any kind of mental illness is deadly, they’ll go hungry more and what’s worse is they won’t even know that they already ate too many people, that’s how bad depression on vampires is.
But unfortunately i do have depression, I feel numb, I feel empty, I really do not want anything happening right now, I just want to sleep and never wake up ever again. But i always shrug those thoughts off when i suddenly get a headache every time i think about it, maybe that’s what they were trying to say, I really don’t think I can kill many people, but i do think I’m going to have to force myself to kill today because It’s hunting season
Hunting season is where mythical creatures hunt for prey, it’s the only day that it is legal, humans on this day have no defence whatsoever, Harry wanted to train me ... you might think that’s great because he is being nice to me, You’re wrong he said “I’m going to train you so that you won’t get killed, if you get killed, I’ll definitely get sick again”
Shallow reason for a shallow heart, typical Harry, might as well get used to it. “Louis you’ve been in the shower for an hour now ... you better not have killed yourself” Harry said laughing afterwards, I sighed for like the hundredth time, why did Harry turn into one big asshole.
I stood up from the shower floor I’ve been sitting down on for an hour now I didn’t even notice it to be honest. I dried myself up with the towel and dressed for the hunt, black was the required colour for hunting, they say it’s for camouflage, I say it’s stupid because who needs camouflage when you look exactly like a human being anyways?
I open the bathroom door revealing Harry packing his back pack and strapping it on his back, He smirked when he saw me “I thought you were dead” He said chuckling at his own joke I rolled my eyes at him “If i was would you even care?” I ask him i thought he was going to say something else but i thought wrong “Nope” he said walking away
I grabbed my bag and strap it in my back, it only consists of water and a sketchpad and some pencils maybe I’ll get bored, you’ll never know. I walk downstairs and into the backyard, Harry was standing there looking at the moon I coughed interrupting him from his thoughts He smiled and held my wrist.
“Let’s go” He said as we ran into the path, I saw vampires running in different directions Harry and I were the only ones running in this direction, it was going straight into a village full of houses, I never got to see the name of the village because the next thing i know Harry was dragging me on a park.
I feel dizzy the smell was intoxicating “Louis are you okay?” Harry asked, for once i saw him looking concerned “I feel dizzy” I said my voice was slurring, it was raspy and my throat suddenly hurts He smiles “You’re definitely hungry ... too hungry, so probably you won’t get to think before you pounce on anyone, don’t blame me or yourself if that happens Louis, it’s just your first time”
Too hungry, Depression i guess, maybe they’re right, it’s cliché that being too hungry in vampires are a side effect of depression, but if i was human, it would be the complete opposite, maybe that’s the logic of it, vampires are the opposite of humans.
He lets go of my wrist and slowly makes his way over a house, i run vampire speed towards him “Louis, control your running and try to act human ... please” He pleaded I nod Harry placed a scarf around my neck and mouth, my fangs were probably visible, i know i wouldn’t get to act human once the door opens.
And it did, the door opens and the smell hits me, my eyes were blurry and all i could see was figures, and red marks indicating where the blood is, i feel like a snake who can detect human blood “Can i help you?” a woman asked i can’t see her clearly which pissed me off, I felt hands on my wrists stopping me from what i am about to do
“Hi, we just need a phone that we can use, we’re kind of lost and we couldn’t find the house we were supposed to be staying at, can we call our friend to ask where we are supposed to go?” Harry drabbled I nod trying to act less suspicious
“I guess but I’m calling my husband first” the woman said we both nod, she calls her husband and the next thing i know i was shivering “Is he okay?” a man said probably her husband “Yeah I’m alright, just a little cold” I said my voice slurring with every word, I was hungry really hungry
“You take the woman I’ll take the man” Harry whispered in my ear I nod at him the woman offers me the phone and i take it dialling a random number “Nice place you have here, are you guys big football fans?” Harry asks, the phone beeps and i dial another random number again “Yeah well i have this amazing set of football gear at the other room want to see it?” The man asked
Harry nods I smirk “Are you sure about that?” The woman asked, the man nods and him and Harry walks to another room I sighed “I can’t reach him” I said my voice was muffled under the scarf “You look strangely familiar” The woman suddenly says he reached for my scarf and it hit me, her blood was intoxicating.
I jump at her my legs on each side of her body, my scarf was removed and she gasped, she must’ve seen my fangs, I smirk at her “I-i” She tried to say something but it was too late, I sank my teeth into her neck right at the pulse, sucking in the blood feeing satisfied yet guilty, i knew this was wrong, but i never thought i would feel THIS guilty.
Her body felt limp and her heart slowed to a stop, I stopped and tried to focus on her face but it was no use it was still blurry, i can only see her figure; I stood up hearing the man scream from the other room; I ran towards it seeing Harry draining the man just like what i did.
Harry and I stared at the now dead body on the floor, when we hear gasps behind us, I turn around quickly feeling Harry right behind me, i smirked it was 3 girls “No” the tallest one said, Harry and I looked at each other back and forth and looked at the girls right in front of us they were about to run when i caught hold of the two of them
Snapping both of their necks and draining them of their blood, Harry did the same, we tied the whole family together and left them there my sight began to turn back to normal once we were out of there and i held onto Harry’s hand on the rest of the walk home, i felt guilty and happy at the same time, guilty that this will be my life now and that i need to be used to it, happy that Harry is holding my hand.
He stopped in the middle of the road and faced me, I stare at him confused, and then he did something I never thought i would see him do again.
He kissed me, we were standing at the middle of the road under the moon and he was kissing me, He pulled away and hugged me tightly “Harry are you ok?” I asked he shrugged “Honestly I don’t know, but that felt right somehow” He said pulling away and smiling at me.
I look up at him and stare at his eyes, we stood there staring at each other, he looked at me for the last time and shook his head “I’m sorry Louis but I really don’t think my memories will go back soon, I’m sorry if I hurt you this past few days, I just realized that maybe sometime ago i was nice to you, I’m willing to get it back Louis, I want the memories back unfortunately I don’t know how to, I’m really sorry Louis”
He said a tear rolled down his cheek I swiped it with my thumb and i pulled him in for a kiss I pulled away smiling “It’s not your fault Harry, I’m just glad you’re willing to get it back, if you don’t get it back maybe we can just create our own memories again maybe better than before” I said he nodded but i can still see the guilt in his eyes, somehow i feel like he’s not telling me something but I don’t want to ruin the moment
I held his hand feeling slightly off, but i was happy, happy that Harry possibly can love me again I’m just hoping that nothing can go wrong this time
But i know I’m always proven wrong
A/N
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