Have I ever told you guys that sometimes I wish I didn't exist? That I wish I was like Canada and could be quiet and suddenly disappear and no one would notice. Well I do...I wish no one cared about me and I wish I was gone. I don't physically harm myself, if anyone was wondering, but I doubt anyone would, since no one cares.
Here's my life's story.
•My brother complains about/does something stupid.
•I argue my side, which ends up being correct.
•he complains more.
•I tell him that he's the older brother (he's 2 years older) and should act like it.
•my dad says I'm being a brat and makes my cry (I'm more fragile than you all might think).
•I leave and dash up to my room (not stomping, not angrily, just quickly)
•I lock the door and sit there for a long time and cry my eyes out. (Notice: I hardly EVER cry)
•someone (normally my mom, the only family member who cares) comes up and either (depending on the time) tells me good night, brings me something to eat, or convinces me to come back down.
What brought this up is the fact that I'm sitting in my locked up room, crying right now, and hating my life. The only thing that's keeping me from self-harming myself is the fact that I couldn't do that to my friends. Both on Wattpad and in real life. I can't hurt you guys like that. You guys are my real family <3