28 ; realisations
After the little hangout with the subclass, Mao fell into a relapse.
2nd June, 12.34am
Tsubaki,
Oh god I can't sleep anymore. I visited the doctor two days ago, and he subscribed me sleeping pills. But every time I use them, I fall into a state of unconsciousness that can hardly be called sleep- I'm horribly plagued by nightmares of you leaving. When I wake up, I realise that it isn't a nightmare- merely a real life experience that changes every night.
I deleted the playlist we created. Everything that reminds me of you pains me too much. I should be letting go of you now- you're obviously never returning. I wish I could forget you, Tsubaki, but every time I almost fully convince myself I have forgotten you, I realise that I'm just lying to myself.
Tsubaki, just let me press the delete button and erase you from my memory.
Mao quickly figured out that getting over Tsubaki was no simple task.
As soon as she relaxed, she relapsed.
Once again.