Jared's P.O.V
It just felt so unreal. My girlfriend was no longer here. Physically.
"Sweetheart. It's time for your speech." My mom said quietly squeezing my hand lightly. I gave her a sad smile and walked to the podium. All eyes on me and somehow I felt nervous. I kept my focus on the casket for a few seconds then looked down at the papers. I shoveled them a little then spoke up.
"Y/N was one of the best things to ever happen to me." My voice was shaky but I had to make it through.
"It's unfair that she got taken away from me from all of us so soon. This is hard for me to do but I know she would want me to." I bit my lip and looked up at the blue sky then back.
"I can talk forever on the reasons I love her but if I did I would just be remembering more of what I'll be missing. She was my soulmate and I don't know if I'll ever find someone who understood me like she did. She didn't know this but I was planning on asking for her hand in marriage. Asking her to be my wife. Now that's not going to happen and.." The tears started coming faster. The next thing I know my mom is next to me rubbing my back. As I thought of the memories that were and what could have been. I said one last thing before going to sit down.
"She will always be my first love. I know she's not here physically but she will always be in my heart. I love you Y/N." My mom took my hand and we sat back down in our seats. More people spoke of her and after I got lots of hugs and everyone telling me everything was going to be okay. When I got home I laid in bed and held one of my shirts she wore often. It had a hint of her perfume on it. Soon falling asleep.