(Jay's POV)
4:56 a.m
I was standing in the mirror brushing my hair into a bun and singing along to "Mine" by Drake and Beyoncé. Drake be in all the good songs. By the way, I mostly got over my fear of flying. The crew helped me through it on the way back from Aruba. So, I should be fine today.
"I been watching for the signs, took a trip to clear my mind up." I heard her sing along to the beat beautifully. Beyoncé's vocals are like no other.
"All I can think of is... We should get married.. We should get married. Let's stop holding back on this and let's get carried away." I sang in my zone. This was such a sweet song to me.
"All I'm really asking for is you...." I sang as I stood at the sink with my eyes closed.
"As long as you know who you belong to." I heard Chris sing as he wrapped his hands around me. We held each other close as he pulled out his phone to take a picture.
On snapchat, he captioned it as "I'm gonna miss my baby😔"
"Aw don't be sad... It's Friday and I'll be back Monday night." I said turning around to look up at him. His eyes were unreadable.
"Chris talk to me..." I said grabbing his hand to bring him into the room.
He followed me and he sat down. I stood in front of him and he buried his forehead in my stomach.
"What's wrong? Can you speak please?"
"It's a lot going on. I need you here with me."
He said with his forehead still imbedded in my stomach.
"Chris what you mean it's a lot going on?"
"This album stuff is stressful. Then, I gotta put the finishing touches and make sure the charity game is together. Then, I'm not doing you right at all. You've been waiting on this wedding for so long and I've been putting you down. You don't deserve that. Now that you're leaving for a couple of days, I guess it's really hitting me." He said looking up at me.
Why the heck is he so in his feelings? I mean... He has all this weight on his shoulders... Maybe I shouldn't talk about the wedding until after X drops. To make him feel a little more comfortable?
"Chris... Don't worry about the wedding." I said sitting down next to him.
"Wait what? You calling it off?!" He semi-yelled as my eyes went buck.
"No no no!! I'm saying that I see that you're stressed right now and you got a lot on your plate. So, we don't have to talk about the wedding planning until after X drops." I said shaking my head at myself on the inside.
I really didn't want those words to flee my mouth because everybody knows I been waiting on this wedding. But, because I love Chris, I'll do it for him.
"Wait baby you ain't gotta do all that."
"Yes I do... I don't need you to be stressed. It's okay. I'll be fine. Now, come on we gotta go pick up everybody so we won't miss the flight." I said walking away from him.
My mind tells me something isn't right and my heart won't let me investigate. It doesn't want me to.
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(Chris' POV)
"Ughhhhh can y'all come on!? Me and Q don't wanna see allat." Red said whining talking to me and Trey. He was here to see A.J leave.
We all laughed together and I looked down at my fiancé. The way she smiled just did something to me. I grazed my thumb upon her pretty brown skin and her brown orbs looked up to me. I stood there and I admired her appearance and I realized how blessed I was to have her.
Yet, I'm doing the wrong thing. I love this girl so much words can't explain. She's the only one that has my heart. The thing that Robyn and I got going is only lust. It's not the same.
"Chris?"
"Yeah baby?"
"Why you always staring at me like a weirdo?" She asked as a smile appeared on her face.
"I can't look at my beautiful fiancé? Dang that's messed up." I said smiling and engulfing her in a hug.
"Of course you can... Want me to give you a full show?" She asked while letting go and turning around for me to look at her.
"Jay lets go! We got a flight to catch!" A.J yelled aloud as her and I chuckled.
"Ugh I'm gonna miss you so much." She said with her bottom lip poked out.
"You think I'm not gone miss you?"
"You wouldn't have to miss me if you would've just came." She said looking away. She just pulled a card on me.
"Baby look now you know that I got work---"
"Yeah I know... The album this.. Music that.. Studio with Rihanna here... Studio with her there.. I get it. I'll call you when we land. Bye Chris." She said patting my back and walking towards the crew.
Right before she leaves, she shoves the fact of me working all the time in my face. It's nothing I can do about it.
"I love you..." I said loud enough for her to hear it.
"Yeah yeah... Call you later." She said walking in the airport.
"Dang man.... She ain't even say I love you back. How y'all just switch up from laughing and hugging to like quick shots being fired that quick?" Trey asked as I glared at him and I stepped in the car.
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"Red will you moveeeee..." I said trying to fight him to get a window seat.
"No no no, I want the window seat!" I semi-yelled as people were laughing at me.
"Will y'all stop being childish? Jay you sit with me and you can have the window seat. Then, A.J, you and Red sit across from us and you can have that window seat." Q said aloud trying to be the peacemaker.
"Okay okay we can do dat." Red said smiling like a happy little child.
"Look... Don't get on my nerves on this trip. By the way, weed is illegal in Chicago unless it's medicinal. If you plan on smoking, then you gone be on ya own. I'm broke." I said laughing and talking to Red from across the aisle.
"Shoot... We gone have to make something work. I know you got my back." He said smiling at me.
I sat down at my window seat and I put my stuff on the floor.
"Jay.... Is Chicago fun?" A.J asked me from across the aisle.
"Girl I can show you a good time." I said smiling and buckling my seatbelt.
"Ma'am... Aren't you Chris Brown's fiancé?" A guy asked on the way to his seat.
"Yes sir." I said as the guys looked at him intensely. I found it funny.
"Hi, my name is Kevin... I'm a photographer for Ebony magazine and we would love to do a pre-wedding photoshoot with you two. It would be amazing. If you are interested, here's my card." The guy said smiling and handing me a card with his contact information.
"Thank you so much sir. I'll let him know." I said smiling and putting the card in my purse.
I sent Chris a text because I wasn't so nice before I left.
Me: I'm sorry about earlier... I love you Chris no matter what. You know that. You just get on my nerves sometimes. But, anyways a photographer from Ebony wants to do an issue on our wedding. Let me know if you're interested. I'll call you when we land. You're all that matters to me. ❤️
I smiled to myself after I sent it. I want him to know I still do love him.
"That sounds nice. You guys in a magazine? That's crazy." Q said smiling and typing on his phone.
"Yeah that would be nice... Why you ain't tell me that y'all are hosting a celebrity football game? You bogus.... Chris said he has a lot to take care of while we're gone." I said scrunching my face up at Q.
"Yeah we are... But what you mean? There's nothing else to be done."
"What you mean?"
"Like....."
"Cause it was said that Chris gotta get his jerseys and stuff made and he has to lockdown the location and make the final payments to rent the field out and stuff."
"Me and Chris locked all that down about a week ago... There's nothing else to be done but to show up." Q said chuckling in a nervous manner.
So, Chris lied to me?
"Uh oh.... I sense something wrong.... What's going on?"
"My man is hiding something from me. You've been his alibi. I'll figure out what's going on sooner or later." I said as I felt the plane start to move.
I closed my eyes and I thought about Chris. Has he been keeping it 100 with me?
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