Addisons pov.
My chest hurt, it felt as something was tugging on my heart. A fire started in my heart and tears streamed down my face harder as I ran through the pack house trying my best to get far far away from Asher and his girlfriend.
I sniffled and choked on the air a little just thinking about him with someone else. How could he not tell me? Maybe he broke things off and she didn't get the message? My wolf scoffed and the more I thought about it the stupider that sounded.
"Addison, babygirl please. Just hear me out please" Asher was chasing me and I finally made it out of the doors of the pack house into the fresh air. The moon was still up and it was dark outside. I didn't want to talk to him right now, I didn't want him to touch me. I didn't know what to think or believe.
My thoughts made me slow down just alittle enough for Asher to catch up with me. He grabbed my elbow and I yelled "No don't touch me" I tried to get my arm back but he grabbed onto my other arm to keep me to him.
"Addy please" he pleaded, it made my heart brake the way he sounded. I was probably over reacting but I don't care I need time to think away from him. "Don't touch me!" I seethed out And his eyes watered slightly and he looked way beyond hurt.
"No please hear me out" he pleaded again. I can't give in I just want to be alone right now why can't he see that? My breathing started to get heavy and I started to thrash around imagining being back with my old pack. The hit was coming I could feel the air shift and my breathing got worse, I could hear someone talking but it was zoned out I couldn't exactly hear them.
I know what's happening it used to happen all the time when I was young, I thought I grew out of it.
My panic attack started to hit a high and sobbed even harder and started screaming.
Asher's pov.
My mate thrashed in my hold screaming and a few tears escaped my eyes. What's happening? I can't help her, she hates me. what's happening? I tried and bring her to my body but she thrashed away from my touch like I was made of fire.
In a sudden hands we wrapped around mine peeling off my hands from around my mate. I growled and looked up, Edward was there looking at me in a challenging way. My wolf was starting to get angry, he didn't like someone challenging him. I growled louder and he glared and his guards around him took a step closer, Edward held up his hand to stop them.
I looked around slightly seeing myself and a shaking Addison surrounded with guards. They were the same guards that were there when addy shifted. They think she's in trouble, I growled again my eyes turning a darker shade. My attention was back on Edward her main guard. I looked at what Addison was wearing too and I snarled at all them. "MINE" I growled and reached for her but Edward took a step back.
"Look at her alpha, she's having a panic attack. Let me help her, she needs time away from you. She's upset with you just let her have her time to think." My attention was turned back onto my mate when he said that.
Her breathing was out of whack, he was right. She's hurting being near me, how could I be so stupid I hurt her. I couldn't even help my mate get through a panic attack, I caused it. My snarling immediately stopped, right now is not the time to get jealous.
I gently let her arms go and her thrashing body collided with Edwards as she hugged him seeking comfort. I took a step back angry with myself and that I couldn't even comfort my own mate. I ran my hands up into my hair and tugged hard trying to pull myself together.
I backed away slowly seeing mates breathing go back to normal slowly but she was still crying with Edwards arms wrapped around her. That should be me, another tear betrayed me and fell down my face.
"I'll give her a day, I need to explain everything. I can't lose her, she's my everything, just keep her safe Edward" he nodded and slowly I walked forward and gently pressed a kiss too her forehead.
"I love you Addison and I want you to know that I would Never even think about cheating on you"
I watched as Edward picked up Addison and they walked towards the guest houses without another word.
Addisons pov.
My chest slowly started to relax and my eyes closed as Edward carried me to who knows where. I have a sense of safety when I'm with him, it's almost as if my mate was here but not that strong. My wolf was at ease and she had her guard completely down meaning she completely trusted him with her life.
I yawned and a few more stupid tears fell down my face thinking about what happening in the past 30 minutes. Finally Edward started walking up a few wooden steps and knocked on the door. A groan was heard from behind the door, without my intense hearing I would've never heard it.
I looked over just in time to see my grandma fully awake when she saw us.
"What happened Scarlett?" I frowned and I wiggled alittle making Edward put me down.
I whispered a thank you to the guards and Edward and they all bowed to me and I told them I'd stay here for the night and I'd be fine. I walked into my grandmas house and she wrapped me in a tight frail hug. "What happened?"
"A girl showed up in Asher's room when I was sleeping and yelled at me for being in her boyfriends bed and I left. I had a panic attack and I got so scared I felt like I was still where I was a few weeks ago." Tears rolled down my face and she took me to the couch.
Before she could respond my eyes started to drop and I yawned "do you mind if I stay here for the night I just want to deal with this in the morning" she nodded
"Of course Scarlett" I smiled at her "I like when you call me Scarlett, it makes me feel like something lost in me has been found alittle. I felt it when I shifted for the second time and I was in that gown it was the most amazing feeling." I closed my eyes remembering the feeling.
She smiled and nodded "your finding yourself. Every ruler has to find themselves before then can fully meet their full potential" I smiled.
"Why don't you get some sleep? You can go into the guest room and sleep in there, the beds made." I smiled and hugged her whispering a thank you.
I walked through the tiny comfortable house to the bedroom that seemed less used. I laid down on the soft covers and realized I still only had on Asher's giant shirt and underwear. I blushed thinking about all the guards that saw me like this.
I crawled under the covers and seemed the heat and comfort Asher usually provides but only ending up with a cold empty bed. I wonder if he's with her right now, no stop that just sleep. No thoughts, just darkness.
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I opened my eyes stretching out my body. I looked around And got confused I was in what looked like my old bedroom from my old pack. My arm hairs raised and I started to shake. It was All just a dream, Asher, me being Royal, everything.
"ADDISON" I heard someone yell and I shook. Oh god what time is it? I looked at the little clock by my bed to see it red, 10:36. Oh god, no no no. I overslept, I'm going to die. I ran out the door knowing if I stall anymore it'll be worse. I flew down the stairs and into the kitchen.
"What the fuck you whore!? Where is our fucking breakfast? Your late!" My alpha screams inches from my face. I look down cowering away know if I look up into his eyes I'll see my death.
"Answer ME!" He screams and I jump starting to shake and I was to caught up in my thoughts I couldn't say anything just open mouthed. He was really extremely mad today.
"YOU FUCKING BITCH!" He screamed and turned around and I whimpered silently knowing what coming. He turned around abruptly and slapped me crashing me with force into the wall and made me slowly slide down the wall.
I could hear the little clash of the metal of the blade clashing against the draw he got it out of. It was meant to cook and shred but it was his favorite thing to use. It shredded.
His boots stomped of the floor as he came over to me slowly. I shook as he leaned down pulling up my shirt.
"No please" I whimpered and he glared at me. "Daniel and Richard come here and hold her down" I looked over as a brunette and blonde boy come over to me hold me down. I looked up at them pleading them "please please no" I whispered and that earned a slap across the face.
"Shut the fuck up" the brunette grabbed my arms and the blonde grabbed my feet. Alpha hovered the blade above my skin teasingly, waiting for me. I cried silently, and clenched my eyes shut and the painful blade was shoved into my side painfully sliding back and fourth.
He tortured me slowly as I scream, I tried not to but I couldn't stop myself as I screamed pleads. I opened my eyes for a millisecond to see the guy holding my arms look down in sorrow and guilt. My tears burned my cheeks feeling as if someone put drops of lava on my face.
Alpha suddenly jerked his hand so the knife went into my skin deeper making me gasp in pain.
"Look at you, your a worthless piece of shit. Your own mate doesn't even want you! He chose that girl over you like you were nothing" he laughed in my face in a evil way.
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I sat up violently up from the bed, I was hot and sticky with sweat. The sun was high and lit up the room almost blinding me. I was gasping for air and I curled up in a ball, my knees were pressed to my chest as I tried to convince myself it was just a dream.
In reality it wasn't a dream, he was right. I'm worthless even my own mate doesn't want me, he want that girl. I cried for what seemed like hours, finally I heard a shuffle from inside the house. There was a knock on the door and I heard my grandmas fragile voice answer. I tuned her and whoever was at the door out and just tried to calm myself down.
I jumped slightly and coward away from the door as I saw it was wide open with Asher standing there in it. His eyes softened when he saw me. I looked way worse but this wasn't a good day for him, dark bags were under his eyes and his eyes were red. The kind of red from keeping your eyes open when your tired, it didn't look as if he was crying. I looked down and covered myself with the blankets.
"Addy" he whispered to me. I cringed and thanked the lord that I was turned around because a few tears made their way down my face. He sounded like he cared about me, but why? I'm Worthless.
I felt the bed shift as he sat down, I felt hands on my hips that pulled me to him. I didn't resist just let it happen, he turned me towards him. He saw my tear stained cheeks and he frown, he reached up slowly and whipped them away. The tingles that he gave me were amazing, my favorite feeling.
"Addisons you have to listen to me. I promise I would Never Ever think about cheating on you. That, last night was Kinley, me and her went out for about a month and a half. She went on a trip to visit family in a pack in Brazil. She dropped her phone in the airport on her way to the plane and completely broke it. The phones over there are weird, they didn't get cell service or something like that. I couldn't contact her because of that and I didn't even meet you yet and I wanted to break things off. I had no clue she was coming and I honestly completely forgot about her when I met you. I love you Addison your my mate and forever mine"
He brought me to his chest and I cried no resisting it. I listened to his excuse and it made me cry even harder.
"Addy please talk to me" he whispered looking at me but all I could look at was the wall to the right of us. I couldn't look at him.
"You should be with her" I whispered my voice cracked and my thought had a giant lump in it. His forehead crinkled and his nose slightly rose in confusion, He looked so cute.
"No I don't want to be with her, I want to be with you"
"You don't want me, I'm worthless" I chanted out loud and I kept chanting it in my mind. I knew it was true and if not now then he'd realize it one day. I don't want to just wait around for that and fall even more in love with him just to get hurt.
He growled lowly and pulled me closer "who told you that? Your not worthless your freaking priceless, and I want you more then anything in the whole world"
I shook my head and tried to block out the words he said "he told me so, he's right" I shook slightly. Asher's eyes widened alittle but then he growled and his eyes hardened.
"Who? Addison tell me who." He told me desperately looking into my eyes. I closed then to try and stop the tears.
"Him" I whispered, before Asher could say anything I spoke again "my old alpha."
Asher growled and hugged me forcing me to hug back not in a bad way but I could tell he was seeking comfort just like I was.
"I will try my hardest to protect you and never let them hurt you. I will die trying Addison I won't let him hurt you again" he took his hands on either side of my face and put our faces close so I was looking into his breathless eyes.
"It was just a dream okay baby? Don't believe what he says, I love you you know that right?" I looked at him for a second and tears started to come into his eyes but they didn't spill. He looked so helpless and sad.
"Please" he whispered closing his eyes letting two tears fall. With his eyes closed he continued to talk "I love you and you'll noble mine Forever I'm never letting you go. Ever baby. Your stuck with me for the rest of your life. I want you to carry our pups and hold my ring on your finger"
I nodded he loves me he does. I convinced myself, I can't let the dreams take over my life. I'm out of that pack and a away from the abuse with my mate that loves me. I love him more then anything I've ever loved before.
"I know, I'm sorry I just the dream and-" I cried "-shhh baby it's okay just let me hold you" I nodded and shoved my head into his chest pulling myself impossibly closer.
I closed my eyes just being comforted by his heart beat. "I love you" I whispered and before I know it I fell asleep.
Asher's pov.
"I love you" she whispered and then soon after fell asleep. I kissed her forehead and then whispered "I love you addy so so much"
I picked her up and she snuggled into my chest even more as I started walk out of her grandmothers house. Her grandma was sitting on the couch watching me carry her out. I nodded to her and she smiled, I walked out of the house and let the door cringe shut as I closed it.
Addys guards that were guard outside the house stood up and looked at me with suspicion. They didn't know if they could trust me with their queen, I loved how they would always stand by her and protect her even if she doesn't need protection, she has me. It was still a comforting thought that there is always someone besides me watching over her.
Of course the pack will always look over her, even if they haven't met her yet, or they don't know how special she is being queen. They saw Addys mark on my neck and they nodded to me in respect but it wasn't how they bowed to Addison.
They alway have a special respect for Addison that they would never have for someone else's in the exact same way. Edward must have put guards on watch every few hours shifting because when I came to talk to her I had to convince two different guards to let me talk to her.
I walked past the two and kept walking to the pack house. I could hear them coming behind walking with caution, probably seeing where I was taking her and if it was safe. As they saw I was walking up the back steps to the pack house they sort of dispersed.
I carried her up all the stairs to the alphas level and into our room. I could still smell the faint smell of Kinley, I honestly don't know what I ever saw in her. Yeah, she's a nice girl and all but she's just not my type. After I left addy with Edward last night I came back up to my room to attempt at getting sleep and found Kinley in my bed waiting up for me.
I ordered her out of my room and she told me that she was sorry and she had no clue that was my mate and she had no clue. I was kind of angry but I told her it'd forgive her when my mate forgives me fully.
Kinsey's not the problem one though, Samantha's the one that's the problem. We never really dated like at all, I got drunk one night with like a buzz. It's really hard to get a alpha really drunk, anyway I was think of my mate and kissing her and all of a sudden I was kissing Samantha and I don't exactly remember how it happened. Now all she talks about is being Luna and that's she meant to the leader of this lack and that she'll carry my baby's.
Samantha's is fucking crazy. My thoughts died down as my gaze turned on my sleeping mate, I laid next to her on our bed. I was tired last night I couldn't sleep I was to worried about addy. I caressed her cheek with my hand and she moved her head towards my hand more.
I loved the tingles I get from her, I love her. I kissed her gently on the lips for just a millisecond and then I drifted off.
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