Steph
Nagising ako sa sinag ng araw na nag mula sa glass sliding door na nakabukas ang curtain, Sino kayang nagbukas nun?
I was scratching my eyes to see things clearly ng makita ko si Kim na lumalabas sa Banyo. I looked at my phone. Sunday ngayon ah at 6:30 palang san kaya siya pupunta?
When she noticed na gising na ako at nakaupo. Nahuli ko siyang sinusulyapan ako. She was fixing her things parang may lakad siya ang aga aga pa naman.. There was an awkwatd silence between us.
After a few moments. I totally break the Silence that surrounds us.
"Hey" Darn it Steph! yung lang ba ang kaya mong sabihin?!
"Hey" sagot niya pero busy parin sa pagliligpit.
"Uhm..Kim, About yesterday.. Sorry, I really didn't mean everything I said, you were too pushy kase" nahihiyang sabe ko.
"It's ok, there's no need for you to say sorry. it was my mistake. I was being rude to your Boyfriend"
Did she just say my Boyfriend?binigyang diin pa niya ha. base on the tone of her voice there's a little hint of jealous, o baka naman nagkamali lang ako ng dinig..
"And besides I'm just your Roommate."
Those words left me Speechless, I can't even move a single muscle on my face. C'mon Steph, Say someting..
Tapos na siyang mag ayos ng gamit niya at ready to go na, paalis na siya ng pipigilan ko siya..
"Uhmm..K-kim san ka pupunta?"
Kim wag ka munang umalis please.. pag mamakaawa ko sa isipan ko.
"To Trish's place.. Mag aaral kame para sa Finals, dun narin ako matutulog. sige mauna na ako."
I was just like a statue, Wala na naman akong masabe. Akala ko ba nakalimutan ko na ito? bakit parang may stingy feeling akong nararamdaman sa kaloob looban ko?
Nung marinig kong mag sara ang pinto doon palang ako nakabalik sa katinuan ko.
I texted her..
Ingat ka Kim, I'm sorry ulit.
after few moments narinig kong nagstart ang kotse niya.
Yeah you too.
Yun lang ang reply niya? I want to make the conversation long pero she's driving baka kung mapano siya kaya hindi na ako nagreply sa message niya
Ok ako na naman ang naiwan dito sa kwarto na to, maybe I should call Danny to meet me. I really need someone to talk to right now.
Calling Danny..
Hello Gorgeous!
Danny, meet up by 9 same place.
tuloy tuloy kong usal. alam niya na ang ibig sabihin nito..
Whoa whoa, wait Steph? after a month na halos hindi ka magpaparamdam, tapos uutusan mo ako ng ganyan? That's unfair you know..
Danny! It's an emergency! stop acting like a Drama King! sige na Danny please?
Ok ok! basta ikaw manlilibre!
I can hear him chuckling, Haynako! hindi parin nagbabago napaka immature parin ng loko.
Ok, but please wag kang malilate ok?
Hmm. Ok Princess! bye!
ibinaba ko ang phone, nakita ko ang name ni Kim sa Call Log.. Should I call her and tell her I miss her? baka sa ganoong paraan magkakabati na kame? but what if she won't pick it up? maybe I'll give her some space.
Inilagay ko ang phone ko sa Night table at tumakbo papuntang bathroom, I have to hurry I really need to talk to Danny..
Kim
I really need to get away para makalimutan ko na tong nararamdaman ko para kay Steph.
She's straight Kim! for Pete's sake!
Uggh! I really hate this... this one sided love!
Flashback
I really can't sleep. I let out a very Deep Sigh for a hundredth time. I can feel Alice's not comfortable on what I'm doing, Nang bigla siyang humarap sa akin.
"Can't sleep huh?"
Tinignan ko lang siya then balik ulit sa ceiling..
"Oh C'mon Kim! sabihin mo na kase!"
"ano naman sasabihin ko?" derecho parin ang tingin ko sa kisame baka sakaling sumagot siya sa akin.
"Hindi ka sasagutin ng Kisame na yan, so you better tell me now!"
WTH? is she reading my mind? Tumingin ako saknya na parang gulat na gulat.
Maybe we're fraternal twins? like All my life Alice's always at my side, it creeps me out kapag ganito siya alam niya kung anong iniisip at nararamdaman ko, ganun din naman ako sakanya..maybe we're twins tapos pinag hiwalay lang. am I being ridiculous? *Sigh*
"Kim, were not twins kaya stop being so ridiculous"
did i said it too loud? wait sa isip ko lang naman yun ah!
"Teka nga Alice! bat mo ba binabasa ang nasa isip ko?"
She just shrugs..
"Maybe were twins in our past life?" then she burst out an irritating laugh
"Alam mo ganyan karin naman sa akin lagi, maybe we really do know each other that well.." dugtong niya.
dahil sa hindi na ako mapakali, umupo na ako nakakainis! siya naman naka side view then naka rest ang ulo sa kamay niya na para bang nagpoposing.
"Alice, Anong gagawin ko?"
"Why don't you tell her?"
"I can't."
"Why not? I mean anybody is lucky to have you. wala namang mawawala kung sasabihin mo."
"I can't, she's straight, she has a boyfriend & I'm just her Plain Roommate and merong mawawala!"
"What?" iritableng sagot niya
"Our friendship" nalungkot ako bigla ng maisip ko iyon.
"Diba sabe mo when she looks at you her eyes tells you something that you can't explain? maybe she likes you. akala ko ba ikaw ang Kimmy na kilala kong walang inuurungan?"
"But.. hindi ko naman alam kung anong meron sa tingin niya its just..*Sigh*" Frustrated na ako..
"You know what? If you really love her, tell her, iparamdam mo kung hindi niya tatanggapin well kawalan niya yun dahil kahit sino magiging maswerte kung Minahal sila ng isang Kimberly Alcantara" ngumiti siya sa akin bilang pag suporta..
"But I'm still mad. what ever! hindi ko na sasabihin. bahala na!"
ibinagsak kong muli ang sarili ko sa bed gayun din si Alice.. it's been a long night We need to rest.
Back to Reality
Andito na ako sa labas ng gate ni Trish. Her house is just WOW. may sumalunong sa akin sa may gate pinapapasok ako..
"Hinihintay na po kayo ni ma'am Trisha sa Sala."
"Ok po manang"
Ng makarating ako sa Sala sinalubong niya ako ng yakap at pinaupo sa sofa..
Nagpahanda siya ng mirienda at ipinababa ang notes niya.. wow wala na ba siyang ibang alam na gawin kundi iutos ng iutos lahat ng kailangan niya? unlike Steph..
Ughh! Steph na naman!
"So Kim, napag isipan mo na ba na sagutin ako?" pabiro ngunit seryosong tanong narin
"Ate Trish naman eh, Mag aral muna tayo" tumawa lang siya at nagsimula na kameng mag aral..
This could be boring but it's the only way to get away with my feelings for Steph, why not give it a shot with Trish, She's Nice, Sweet and Pretty.. Malayong malayo parin siya kay Steph!
Nakakainis tong konsensya ko! bwiset. I should give Trisha a chance, Tama! bibigyan ko siya ng Chance..
"Trish?"
"Hmm?" abala sa pagbabasa..
"About your offer?" naghehesitate pa ako..
"Ano sasagutin mo na ba ako?" nakangiti at halatang excited sa isasagot ko..
Should I give her a chance or tell her to stop? Hay...
She was looking right into my eyes, sincere but a little bit afraid.. siguro kinakabahan siya kung Yes or No ang isasagot ko..
I let out a Sight and gather all my strength to tell her..
"Trish.."
To be continued..