Its been awhile, I know. But I just needed to figure out where to go with the story before continuing it. I think it would've been worse if I just aimlessly posted chapters that had no real plot until I figured out what to do. Theres good and bad news though. The bad new is that this chapter is on the shorter side. The good part is that I now know what I'm doing, and I already have the next two chapters already written out in my journal. I wont be posting them too soon together, maybe like one every couple days since you've waited so long for this post.
Anyways, theres something important you gotta read at the end of the chapter. If you read Always, then you'll already know what I'm talking about, but I encourage you to vote again (If you dont know what I mean, you'll know at the end).
Alright, I'll stop rambling now. READ ON!
Logans POV:
Its been about a week since we left Ocean City and after the reunion Devin had with his Aunt May.
There was a lot of questions about what would happen to Devin next. Would he leave and stay with his Aunt now that they've found each other? After all, she's a blood relative, and has some major leverage, even though we've brought him into our family already. But she said she had decided what she was going to do that same night we had talked.
I thought that had meant she would be taking him away from us. From me. I didnt want him to leave now that I've grown attatched to him so much.
In the end, she told us that she wanted Devin to stay with me and my family. She said it would be better for him to know what a real family feels like and that she couldn't provide that for him. I wasnt sure exactly what she meant about that, but its Devins business, not mine.
Before we left to go home, his Aunt told him that she would remain in touch- there was no way she would leave him a second time. We made arrangements for her to come visit over this weekend, and since then, Devins been nothing but happy. He was constantly beaming. He would sit with my mother and talk to her about Aunt May and how much he couldnt wait for her to meet his new family.
When he said that, my mother teared up. Since we took Devin in, shes wanted nothing more than for him to feel like we were his family- and that we love him.
But while she cried tears of joy, I felt a stab of pain through my heart.
Jenn and Michael also noticed a change in Devin since we came back. They were constantly asking what had changed; What was the reason behind the sudden transformation? But instead of answering their pleading questions, he would simply smile, shake his head, then simply state that I was the best friend- and brother- he could ever have.
I remember how when he called me his brother or his best friend before, I would feel warmth spread throughout me. Now, its like a sudden sting.
I'm not in denial, I know why it almost hurts for him to call me that now. I know why I look at him a little longer than normal. I know why I cant help but worry constantly over him. I understand completely.
I like him. Its really that simple. I'm not one of those cliche guys who are 'confused' about their sexuality when they start looking at guys instead of girls. I'm not an idiot.
But I refuse to make a move on Devin. I'll never ask him out, I wont even tell him about my feelings.
My reasoning isnt something superficial.
Its not that he isnt good enough. Because he is. In fact, he's too good for me. He's probably the most gorgeous human being around. He literally glows in my eyes. I get lost in his eyes, and I cant help want to stare at him forever.
Its not that I'm scared to come out either. Its really not that big of a deal to me. Sure, there are homophobes, but thats nothing. If someone asked me if I was gay, I wouldnt say no. Well, technically I would consider myself bisexual. But either way, it doesnt matter to me what people think either way. They need to stay in their own business and out of mine.
Oh no, its none of those. Its much more complex than that.
He isnt ready for that type of relationship, and definitely not with me either. He's already fragile enough as it is, I couldnt handle accidently doing something wrong and hurting him. And if we did date, he would get so much hate for it. People are already treating him like shit, I dont need to add fuel to the fire. I can handle the hate, he cant. I wouldnt want him to feel pressured into anything either. Its just too much for him too soon. I dont know why, how, or when, but Devin is undeniably broken.
So I have a plan. I need to do something to distract myself from my feelings for him.
I cant be the reason to shatter him completely right when he's so close to being put back together.
Devins POV:
Jenn, Michael and I were sitting in the living room, eating some snacks Logans mom made while watching some TV, talking every once in awhile about nothing in particular.
Logan had come to me earlier this afternoon saying that he had something to take care of, so he asked if I could get a ride home with Michael and Jenn, and that he would join us later at the house. I mean, I was kinda confused, but I really didnt mind.
So here we were, basically doing nothing. Jenn was throwing some crackers at Michael, who was slowly getting more and more pissed off as time went on. She was about to throw another when he growled at her and she jumped, then pulled me over to her, using me as a human shield.
I giggled as Jenn continued to try and block herself using me, while Michael was throwing crackers above my head in order to hit her and not me.
Eventually, Michael just gave up, flopping back down on the couch next to me with a glare fixed on Jenn. She simply crossed her eyes and stuck her tongue out at him, causing me to go into a fit of laughter. Jenn soon joined in, laughing hard as she clutched her stomach. Within seconds we even had Michael almost rolling on the floor laughing.
We were leaning against each other, still laughing hysterically over something that wasnt even that funny to begin with. I distantly heard the sound of the front door opening and someone calling out my name, but I was too preoccupied with giggles to care.
When our laughter died down to mere chuckling, we finally noticed Logan standing in front of us, watching with an amused ecpression. I let out another small giggle, but quickly covered my mouth to stop another laughing fit. He smiled at me faintly and I grinned back, wanting to get up and launch into his arms; He gives the best hugs. But I dont want to invade his personal space and start bothering him.
"So what did I miss that was so funny?" He asked as he put his back pack in the closet and came over to sit on the arm chair adjacent to us.
"The same as usual. Michael was being a killjoy so Devin and I decided to make things more fun," Jenn said, making me roll my eyes and Michael sneer at her.
He chuckled at their antics, causing warmth to spread through my chest. I dont really understand why, but whenever Logan laughs or smiles, it just makes me so happy, because that means he's happy.
Logan suddenly clapped his hands together, gathering our attention. He smiled big, making me grin along with him. "Alright, I got some good news to tell you guys." We all waited in anticipation for him to tell us. "You know that girl I dated for a little bit last year?"
"Yeah, Nicole. What about her?" Jenn asked with a look of confusion.
"Well, I decided to ask her to be my girlfriend. And she said yes!"
I think I just felt my heart break into a million shards.
So how was it minus the whole short thing? I know I should've been nice and not have given you a cliff hanger like that one, but I'm an evil bitch, so deal with it.
Alright! So for those of you that dont know, I plan on beginning a new story now that both of my stories have made it to a good amount of chapters. But I want to know what YOU want me to write about, so I'm gonna have a small poll thing.
I'm going to name a couple genres/categories below, and you simply tell me what you want me to write about in the comments. You have a maximum of 2 to vote for. You dont HAVE to vote, but it would be greatly appreciated. (and in case you didnt figure this out on your own, it WILL BE A BOYXBOY ROMANCE)
Genres/Categories:
-teacherxstudent
-incest
-bossxemployee
-Dom and Sub love (BDSM)
-Fantasy
-Forbidden romance
-cliche love story
-LGBT fiction (not necassarily boyxboy, but has bits of it)
-One shots
-Other (Name a category of your own)
-Werewolf
-Vampire