Hurt Beyond Repair.

By disorderpoetry

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Hurt and frightened and no where to turn except for my journal. Curse words being streamed at me and you wo... More

Before you read.
Prey.
Intertwined.
Games.
Seldomly.
Mirror.
Anxiety.
Bad Thoughts.
Sleepless.
Forget.
Someday.
Reminders.
The rhymes in my head.
Leaving.
Take A Chance
Maybe, I didnt try hard enough.
Lingering.
You're Gone.
Broken Promises.
Im only a moth.
Never.
Something I learned from Therapy.
Beauty that goes unoticed.
It makes it hard to breathe.
Rid me of the pain.
Appreciation!
Why do I do this?
The hurt in her eyes.
Sunrises and sunsets.
You no longer melt my heart.
Alive.
Words can hurt.
Its Hard.
Letting go.
Just Another Person.
Acceptance
Wrong.
When I find that speacial someone.
Combustion
But that's okay.
Please, remember.
It means.
Spiraling Farther.
Like an earthquake.
Greedy hands.
Broken trust.
Repeating myself.
It isn't pretty.
Talking
Eyes
Dear Her,
Wondering.
Like a cast,But the pain doesn't go away.
Pieces
Its simple.
What do you take me for?
You.
Thank you to everyone!
What I know now.
Fragile and frail book.
It doesn't work like that.
Blocking out the bad.
I have to remind myself.
Couple of word poetry.
You, She.
Frantic.
Disorder, order.
Posts.
Bright.
People.
No Meaning.
Mornings are hard.
Your lips.
Cigarette.
Laughter.
Old T-Shirt.
I kinda loved you.
Im not an object.
I wont not be me.
Vodka.
Battles.
Sometimes life will hurt.
Theres no in between.
Its just me.
Everyday life.
My hope starting with the yellow pencil.
Tests.
For the ones that feel alone.
We lost eachother.
You had flings. While I had faith.
My bed is my drug.
Not a poem.
I'm a tornado.
I want to be heard.
Leaving me. Wanting more.
Interpertations.
Terribly Truthful.
Sensations.
It fills me up.
I always find more to love.
My room just isn't the same anymore.
It's cold inside you better bring a jacket.
I'm no damsel in distress.
Just a thank you note!
Let it come naturally.
A girl who wants to speak.
Im just that type of person.
I'm messy.
Chirstmas.
Even the simple things are hard.
Constellations.
Lack of emotions.
Working to fill the emptiness.
Simply disappear.
Car Wreck.
Why?
Down.
Open.
Puppet Master.
It's all in your head.
Sentences.
You are a Warrior.
Update about whats going onz
Beautiful.
Emotion,ocean.
Speak up.
My relationship with food.
Intoxicated.
Rhymes.
My account name has changed
Love.
Pep.
Blue
Completed 1-8-2016

Despite the odds you need to hit continue.

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By disorderpoetry

This life leaves me wondering why I'm still alive?
All of these tests and trials of failing and repeating the same tasks days after day.
Waking up everyday dealing with these draining feelings, feelings that come back and leave and then come back stronger like tsunami.
It leaves me wondering why I'm still alive, leaves me wondering why I'm still here repeating the same tasks that I previously failed.
There's something a little something inside everyone that tells them to get up and keep going despite the odds against them.
I've come to the conclusion that even no matter how small that voice is that says "keep trying." You need to listen to it even when all of this feels so hopeless because there's still that little voice "telling you, you need/will pass this."
Despite it being a routine day after day and trial and error day after day you have to choose continue and you can't hit end because it's not your time and you have your whole life in front of you to look forward to so get up and hit continue despite the odds against you.
~E.M.C

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