Nico's POV
Dinner was amazing and afterward he took me to this clearing in the woods, laying out a blanket and we just sat and looked at the stars. Now it was time to leave. We got into the car and almost immediately blasting music. I started laughing when Star Struckk came on.
"Nice legs daisy dukes makes a man go-"
"That's the way they all come through like-"
"Low cut, see through, shirts that make you-"
"That's the way she's comes through like-"
That's how it was the rest of the car ride back to my house. He parked the car and walked me to the door.
"So would you like to do this again?" Leo asks.
"Absolutely." I grin.
He smiles, kissing my cheek before walking back to his car and I blush. The door opened and Bianca squealed, hugging me tightly. Well shit. I forgot we had a peephole.
"Mamá! Nico got his first kiss!" Bianca laughs.
"I've kissed before!" I snap. "And it was just on the cheek!"
"You've kissed dick, not lips." Bianca teased.
"You bitch!" I yell and promptly begin chasing her around the house.
"Oh god. Calm down! Your father is sleeping!" Our mom snaps.
We immediately freeze and run up to our rooms. Two easy rules in this house, don't piss off mama and don't wake up dad.
I go into my room, changing quickly before falling onto my bed, getting my phone. I smile when I see the new texts from Leo.
L: Ayy boi how you doin ;)
N: oh save it.
L: did I do bad?
N: maybe
L: oh.. ;-; can I fix it?
N: maybeeeee
L: what shall I do for you my love?
I crack a smile at that.
N: do my math hw
L: gosh and here I thought somethin was actually wrong
N: calculus is harrrdddddd
L: what else is? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
N: you creep
L: what? I was talking about English hw. It's really long and hard.
N: go suck it Valdez
L: when and where?
N: fuckass
L: I'll fuck you in the ass if that counts
N: oh my god shut up
L: XDDD I joke with u hehehe
N: is all that big d really necessary?
L: is it too much for you to handle?
N: I'm gonna slap you at school
L: nah
N: send me a pic of your schedule you dumbass
L: ughhh fineeee
L: Attachment- 1 picture.
N: thank you love
L: yeah now you're gonna stalk all my classes
N: naaahhhhh
L: alright well I had a long day so gn
N: nighties
L: dork
N: loser
I giggled, going and realizing school is gonna be a lot more fun. Sure I'm gonna have to avoid Jackasses 1-4 but whatever.
What a nice Sunday. I thought to myself, getting cozy in my bed and deciding to do my hw tomorrow in class.
He doesn't really love you
He pities you
Just like you pity him
It's fake, don't get sucked in
He won't ever love you. No one ever has and never will.
I grip the covers tightly, turning onto my side. I see the picture of all my old friends and I frown.
Remember them? They really cared
Run Nico, go back
You have a car, you have the money
Hazel, Frank, and Reyna. They miss you
You miss them.
You have no friends here
You'll always be alone.
Please stop.. I have Leo now..
He doesn't love you. He doesn't care. No one cares about you.
I felt a tear run down my face.
Cry like the bitch you are. Lock yourself away. Be alone. Or end it all.
I trashed all of those. Flushed them down the toilet.
Liar. You hid one. Go get it. And don't do your arms like a little pansy, the real damage is done at your throat.
I can't.. I won't...
Well at least you know where to do it next time.
N: leo?
L: hm? I was just about to sleep.
N: can you promise me one thing?
L: anything.
N: you won't leave me alone
L: I'm always right here Nico, just a phonecall away.
N: thank you
L: you okay?
N: I'm never okay..
L: well then I'll make you okay. I promise that too.
L: goodnight angel <3
N: goodnight <3
And with that, sleep over took me.
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When I woke in the morning, my arms and neck ached and I was met with red. Oh god too much. I sat up quickly, seeing my sheets soaked in blood. I screamed but no noise came out.
My arms were bloody and cut and when I felt my neck, there was blood spilling from there too. I sob, crying out but no noise again.
You're dead Nico.
No.
You're dead. Just me and you for the rest of eternity.
Please no.
Leo doesn't care. Neither does your family. They let you die.
That's not true... it can't be.
Yes it is. They never cared. You're dead Nico. You're dead. Earased from existence.
I'm dead.
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I woke up screaming, tears rolling down my face. Bianca came running in, going and holding me tightly.
"Nico it was just a dream. You're okay, don't worry you're okay." She cooed, combing though my hair.
I let out another sob, just grateful I could make any noise. I clung tightly to her, crying into her shirt.
"Shhh, I got you Nico." She says softly, rocking me a bit.
My parents came in a bit later looking worried but relaxing when seeing we were okay. My dad came over, rubbing my back.
"It's alright Nico.. you'll be okay." My dad sighs.
My mom kissed my head. "You wanna stay home?"
"No, I'm f-fine." I mumble, calming down. "I'm okay."
Liar.
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Welp I think we all needed a feels trip. This book ain't gonna be fluffy all the time. Lots of feels.
Byee