"Luke? What are you doing here?" I ask as I open the door. This is the first time i'm seeing Luke since our breakup a week ago. I haven't been out very much since. I still went to school, but I kept my head down and headphones in. I didn't go to my locker all week because I wanted zero chance of running into Brooke. I'd come straight home from school each day and go directly to my room. I'd spend the rest of the day crying, eating, or showering.
"I need to talk to you." He says.
I contemplate slamming the door in his face, but instead I stand aside and let him come in. He walks inside and takes his shoes off. I wish I knew he was coming over, that way I would have changed out of my fluffy pyjama shorts and old band t-shirt. I subtly try to smooth out my hair and wipe the mascara from under my eyes.
"Are you hungry? We have leftover food from-"
"No i'm not hungry, May." Luke says.
"Oh, okay."
"You should sit." He instructs. Why does he look so nervous?
I walk over to the couch and sit down. Luke follows and sits beside me. This is the closest i've been to Luke in over a week, and for some odd reason I feel nervous. "What's going on, Luke?"
"You need to listen without interrupting and know that everything i'm saying I regretted doing instantly and i'm so sorry." Luke says. I look at his hands to see they are shaking slightly.
"What did you do?" I ask, scared to hear his answer.
"Well, Calum took me to some party. I saw Travis there and I kinda lost it. I uh- I ended up beating the shit out of him. He told me Brooke set up everything. She knew he wanted you, and she wanted me so she told him to kiss you. She knew that I would be pissed at you, which is exactly what she wanted. I did exactly what she wanted without even realizing. And i'm so sorry I got so angry with you. I should have trusted you." Luke says.
I put my hand over his shaking one. "Luke, I forgive you. Brooke got to both of us. We just need to learn to trust each other. We need to learn to believe each other before we believe other people."
"So you're not mad? Not even that I beat the shit out of Travis?" He asks.
"Well i'm mad, but I understand why you did it. You just need to stop thinking this is some love triangle like in the movies. It's you, Luke. It's always going to be you. Nothing's going to change that."
He sighs and covers his face with his hands. "Do you promise nothing's going to change that?"
I raise an eyebrow. "Of course. Why?"
"Because there's something else I need to tell you. Something else happened tonight." He says slowly.
"What happened?"
He takes a deep breath before starting what I have a feeling is going to be a long explanation about something I probably don't want to hear.
"At the party I met this girl. She took me to her group of friends and we all started doing dares. I was super drunk and she got dared to kiss me. She did. Then we went into the shed and we um-we kinda made out. She took my pants off but I stopped it before it could go any further. All I could think about was you. I left before anything happened. I'm so sorry you have to believe me I was drunk out of my mind. I sobered up after fighting with Travis and then coming here but at the time I was so drunk I didn't even realize what I was doing. I'm so sorry, May. I stopped because it was a mistake and I love you. I'm so in love with you I-"
I can't believe what i'm hearing. I guess this is what it feels to have your heart ripped out of your chest. I don't even realize i'm crying until a tear hits my bare leg. I wipe my tears from my face and cut Luke off.
"How could you?" I ask in disbelief and disappointment.
"Baby i'm so sorry I won't ever do something like that again I swear I-"
"Don't call me that."
"I'm so sorry please you've got to-"
"You should leave." I choke back tears.
"No please! Talk to me. Yell at me. Punch me. Do something! Please don't make me leave. Let's just talk about this." Luke says, now crying as well.
"I don't know what you want me to say." I cry.
"Say you forgive me." Luke says as he puts his hands over mine but I instantly pull away.
"I can't say that. Because I don't. You did it this time, Luke. I don't think I can forgive you. I don't even think of other guys, and yet you go and get together with some girl."
"I didn't get together with her!" Luke says loudly.
"You almost let her give you a blowjob!" I scream in his face.
"I stopped her though! May you have to believe me! I was so drunk. But the thought of another girl on me that wasn't you made me sick to my stomach. I'm so sorry May, please."
"No matter what happens, I would never cheat on you. I don't care if we were broken up. I love and respect you way too much." I cry.
"I know you wouldn't. You're so much better than me, May, I know that. I know i'm a terrible person but please-just say you forgive me. I'm begging you. I'm so sorry. I love you so much." Luke pleads.
"I can't forgive you for this. We're done, Luke." I sob.
"No please, May. Please don't say that." Luke cries as he gets on his knees in front of me.
I stand up and walk to the door. I open it, silently instructing that he needs to leave. He looks up and walks over to me.
"May i'm begging you. I'm so sorry. I need you." He says.
"I think you should go home."
"But you're my home."
I try my best to hold back my tears at what Luke just said.
"Go." I say, almost in a whisper.
He lowers his head and begins to walk out the door, but stops. "I'll always love you." He says quietly and walks to the elevator.
I close the door lean my back against it. "I'll always love you, too." I say, even though I know he can't hear me.
I was no longer lost in him, I was drowning.
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A/N GUYS I SAW 5SOS YESTERDAY AND LUKE PUT ON A SNAPBACK AND I'M PRETTY SURE I HAD TEARS!
BUT OMG HOW DO YOU GUYS FEEL ABOUT THEIR FINAL BREAK UP? DO YOU GUYS THINK MAY SHOULD HAVE FORGIVEN HIM OR WAS SHE RIGHT TO END THINGS? Please comment and vote! xx