Paisleys POV
We got out of the SUV with Birch on my hip, I lightly bounced him as we walked up the steps and into the house. I could practically feel the anxiety rolling off Silas in waves, I knew that anxiety I felt it on a daily basis. But I know in my heart, that we're what's best for Birch; he's our perfect little baby, scars and all.
Birch continues to snore on my shoulder, he had such fun at the park again, he loves going there and playing with the other boys. They love chasing him around and playing dragon vs knights is his favorite, or is it the floor is lava? I dunno anymore, Birch loves playing anything make believe
I lay him down in his playpen with his stuffed cat and tuck him in for his nap, he'll be out for another hour, then hopefully he'll want to play and bond with us some more.
It's a very detailed and intimate thing, choosing a dominant and bonding with them. For us, it's for life. It's not like Birch won't have a say in the matter, quite the opposite in fact. The submissive has all the power, they set the limits and help establish the rules.
We already know that littles aren't interested in romance the way the rest of us are, the most they'd want is cuddles and platonic face kisses.
Silas went into a lot of research when he first found out he's a daddy dom, but after years of searching and either finding fake littles or none at all, he gave up.
And to have not only the sweetest little to ever exist fall into our laps, and a boy at that, we were not just shocked but wary as well.
We're we enough for him or too much?
Can we give him all the love he deserves and requires?
I was scared that this house had too much chaotic energy for someone as sensitive and shy as Birch; yes, in his headspace he's an exuberant little boy but when he's out of headspace he's more shy and reserved.
As I looked into Silas' eyes, I knew he was feeling everything I was and more, looking at him made me remember exactly how I fell in love with him and the others.
There was always something special about the bond I have with Silas though, maybe it's because we're both daddies looking for a little or maybe it's that connection we have with our bad family histories.
I brushed my fingers against his cheek as he nuzzled into my hand with a fond smile on his face and said, "I know you're questioning us having someone as perfect as Birch with us but don't. I know I self doubted myself and everything else about him being here at first, but I know now that he belongs here with us, trust in that."
Silas nods as he steps away and says, "I know, I think we were all scared that we'd break him even more, what his father did to him will in one way or another, effect him for the rest of his life. I can only hope that we are finally on the starting point to his road to recovery. We can give him all he needs or desires, it just broke me on the inside when I saw him during his breakdown. He was so broken and depressed, I hope that he never has that happen again but I know better..."
I almost cried when he mentioned Birch's breakdown, but by no means was it the worst one we've seen. Hell, Xavier's fits of anger episodes could rival that of Lucifer's. Once one hit, it felt like you were in the pits of hell, with no way to escape it.
He's doing better now with proper medication and councilors he sees, but we all are here not just as Silas' boyfriends but also to get help from him. He's not just the best psychotherapist and psychiatrist in Europe, but also a fantastic counselor as well.
I could feel a wave of despair roll through me like a wave, I feel like my social battery for the day has just about met it's maximum. I knew Birch was safe with Silas, so excused myself to my bedroom so I could take a much-needed nap.
As I ascended the stairs, and I couldn't help but feel bad that Silas was down there alone, so I sent a text to Hades to keep him company while I napped.
I couldn't help but feel my anxieties running through my body as I still try to regulate myself to calm down enough so I can nap. I took one of my low dosage melatonin's to help me sleep for a few hours seeing as my night terrors normally kept me awake at night.
I cuddled my weighted whale stuffed animal to my chest, and willed myself to sleep
Silas' POV
I smiled fondly at Paisley's back, I knew he needed a nap after hour long trip to the park. His agoraphobia skyrocketed at the park once he saw all the people there. I asked him if he wanted to leave, but he wanted to stay for Birch's sake.
That's one of the many things I love so much about him, he'll put all of his worries and fears aside just to make you happy. Even if the happy moment would only be fleeting, it's worth it to him, making others happy fulfills something deep within his core.
That's another thing that I love about all of the guys, they're all so different from each other and we came to find out later that we all fit together like perfect puzzle pieces.
I smiled fondly at Birch as I sit behind my desk to finish up some important paperwork and bills for the institution. It was easy enough to push his playpen into my office, it's soundproof so hopefully nobody will wake him up from his nap.
***** Time-skip brought to you by me not knowing what to write next ****
It's been a few hours since Birch woke up from his nap, after a quick change and a cuddle he went running off with Myka and Jewel.
I expect Hades to be close behind them, he was working in the office with me for a bit. He works part time in tech security and is fantastic with helping keep all of our records and everything up to date.
I quickly finished my last email and go to see what the others are doing, I find most of them are split between the kitchen and living room, hanging out a bit til Xavier was done making dinner.
I joined them and observed the chaos that was ensuing in the kitchen.
"If you don't stop eating the pasta, I swear Paris I'll get Silas on your ass!" Hades seethed.
I almost laughed at Paris' reply, "Jokes on you! I'd actually enjoy that!"
I laughed as I hugged Paris from behind and muttered in his ear, "Wanna quickie? Pretty sure we got time, baby."
Paris rolled his eyes and joked, "Aren't they all quickies?"
I gave him a lighthearted glare as I made a hickie on his throat and said, "There, perfect for everybody to see my mark on you." I stepped away from him, and almost saw him pout before he righted himself and was about to say something when we heart more clattering around in the dining room.
"Dinners ready!" Hades yelled as we heard the thundering of footsteps coming down the stairs and in from the living room.
"To be continued..." Paris muttered with a flirty wink, he's always been a big flirt. But he's been muting it down recently with innocent little Birch being added to our family.
"Maybe I'll show you how not quickie I can be..." I muttered against his lips as we shared a quick kiss then broke apart and left to join the others for dinner.
I laughed as I saw Birch happily sat on Hades lap, munching on garlic bread with red pasta sauce all over his face.
Paisley was trying in vain to get him to put on a bib to save his poor shirt from the red sauce, and Roman was playing with the noodles in front of Birch's face.
As I sat down for dinner I couldn't help but want to keep this family for forever.
I grimaced as I got another message on my phone from my brother, he's still in the mafia and wants a meeting to discuss details from the fallout after we saved Birch.
I know I burned some bridges there, and asked for favors when I knew I shouldn't of. I guess now's the time to pay up.
I took in a shakey breath as I replied to him, telling him to meet me at our place tomorrow. Thoughts were racing through my mind, I knew that I shouldn't of called upon my former contacts in the mafia. But what could I do?!
My little boy was missing and presumed dead, my other boyfriends were heartbroken and the police were next to no help in the situation.
I sighed as I felt a stress migraine forming in my brain, this situation was a mess that I hoped my brother would forgive.
That was wishful thinking, I knew he'd call upon my debt. I just hoped it'd be more time before I'd have to leave on whatever stupid mission my brother wanted me on.
But what can you do when your born to be a mafia king and left said throne for your hotheaded younger brother?
My answer is not much, I'm just hoping it's a small favor and not a big one. And by god, he's not getting his hands on Birch, he'd eat him alive.
Okay, bad joke, but I can't have any of my boys involved in this more than they are.
Hades could've gone to prison for hacking into official government systems to help find Birch.
And I know he was still upset over what happened with our father, but that asshole stole my baby and made my life a living hell when I was growing up.
He deserved everything he got, and then some.
A.N.:
Hey guys! I hope you liked this one, it gives more on the emotional health of Silas and goes into some of his insecurities and struggles he's been experiencing.
Also, I've really been thinking about doing a chapter on how Iris died and the days following that. Would you guys be interested in that? It sounds interesting to me, but it would be heartbreaking to write!
I do want to get more into Birch's school stuff, but lately they've been teaching him basic knowledge and I thought I'd make more sense for him to go slow with it and not rush into his schooling.
Anyways, any requests on future POV's or any lines or comments you want added? I'm up for adding just about anything!
Much love,
Sunny ☀️