I took a sip from a glass of pineapple juice that I was holding while mindlessly stroking the particular hidden part on my bosom with my other hand. The hickey which is now carefully concealed. Thanks to the magical doings of our modern day make-up, a concealer. I recalled how Yvonne used to brand it as the every naughty girl's handy best friend.
Am I already one of the labeled naughty bitches? No, No! I mentally shook my head.
Have I really given up "my ever sacred first experience?" Oh no, I knew I have been into many flings since I entered high school. I've been a slut with those flirtatious kisses and touches that I had committed with the guys and yes with girls, but duhh... It was all limited to 1st and yeah almost 2nd based. But no it was strictly 1st base making out and nothing more.
I tapped my head. Yes never, oh never have I ever been that whore enough to end myself up committing those further deep make out sessions with people whom I just barely known and dated. I cannot let filthy hands touch me. I don't trust any, for I know and I do so feel, most are just interested with my looks, fame and status. I want my first to be special.
But why? Oh why? What kind of stupidity struck me bad that night? Wait, did she spike my drink? Made me inhaled some ecstasy? Drug me? Maybe forced me? No she was not around when I was still at the club and... I was the one who asked her not to bring me home. But why did she have taken advantage of my helplessness? I WAS DRUNK!
I was anxiously pulling my hair when Khrystle speaks up.
"Hey creep ass, should I call now or should I just directly admit you to an asylum?"
My mind returned to the couch, the reality, in our entertainment room with Khryst. She was all eyes at the third movie we are now in. I completely have forgotten about her presence.
"I'm sorry it w-was my hangover, I think it's coming back" The lame excuse I could only stammer.
Her eyes were still on the 65 inches flat Ultra HD screen.
"Aside from its spelling and pronunciation, we both know the big difference between thinking and feeling. And clear as the daylight you're not just thinking weirdo."
I cleared my throat, feeling like a mouse caught in a mousetrap. She remained silent waiting for me to talk. But I can't seem to find the right words to define my tangled thoughts.
"What? Are you just gonna look at me or had you totally swallowed your tongue?"
"Khryst, I'm lost..." There, I finally said it.
"Well you seemed are, it is our third movie already. Like if you are not biting your nails, you're hauling up your hair like nuts or if not, you are stroking your chest as if you are choking or something. You sure you're okay?"
Her tone was worried though she's looking at me weirdly.
It's about last night! I said mentally. Should I really tell her? But what if my assumptions are baseless as mere presumptions? But isn't this deep and blasted hickey on my bosom already a proof? I was to heave on my wavy red hair when Khrystle caught my arm before I do so.
"One more attempt of pulling your hair, I swear I'm gonna call somebody now, you're creeping me out Drei, you're not on high or something aren't you?"
I straighten, leaning back avoiding her questioning gaze.
"No of God of course not Khryst, I-it's nothing"
"Oh c'mon girl! I understand if watching Sadako or Mr. Grey here doesn't interest you, yes it's lame and too predictable. But this movie here, Kiss Me, was indeed something. Sex was steamy and the plot of how that Mia girl came running all over just to mend things with Frida. Isn't sickening but romantic?"
Yeah, I envy Mia at least she knows and completely remembers whom she had spent her special night with. It was the only part I could recall, I spaced out after that scene. I bit my lower lip and look at Khrystle.
She was piling up the DVD cases that we already had watched.
"Do you still want me to beat around the bush or you'll start talking now?"
"O-okey fine, fine" I threw my hands up the air, surrendering. "But one thing, do promise not to laugh."
I leaned forward facing her. She stopped what she's doing and sat attentively at the other couch near the DVD shelves, how do I start telling her again?
Khrystle rolls her eyes, "Just spill what you have to say okay?"
I inhaled deeply, "Have you ever tried S-sex?"
She tried to hold on to her breath, trying her best not to laugh I gave her a wide-eye warning of glare.
"I'm serious. Don't laugh!"
"With any men, no. Eww... But," She smiled sheepishly as she leans her back to the couch, "With women, yes."
"Oh you dirty little slut!" I threw her one of the throw pillows beside me, "I have asked you numerous times and all you did was deny that you already have!"
"Because that question doesn't need to be answered" She quickly catches the pillow before it landed to her face, "Like c'mon Drei I was openly doing it in front of you duhh... You knew my indeed liking for girls." Khrystle chuckled and rolls her eyes at me.
Ignoring what she said, i pout "But I believe you, when you said you are still not into it, I trust you because you said you still haven't. And I really thought we are just experimenting things that none of it was true."
I crossed my arms out of disappointment, She puts down the DVD she continued inspecting as if not minding my rant, and then leans forward to me, smiling.
"Aww... School's mighty queen bee, but now my darling innocent bestie..." She cooed giving my cheek a light pinched.
"Khryst I've told you shut the f-ing tease!" I slapped her hand away from my cheek.
"Chill okay, such a grumpy pants. As if you're not so used to me being like this." She mumbled.
"I did said not now, let's be an adult on this, I just felt so intrigued. Curious." I tried to shrug my shoulders acting cool.
"Well I did try to convince you to try it out, believe me a woman's body is so soft and warm and gentle. And you know what's the biggest catch?"
So soft and warm and gentle. I felt my heart beat radically. "What?"
"The best thing about being in some kinky stuff with girls? There won't be any paranoid instances over the 9 months unprepared dilemma."
She wiggled her eyebrows and gives out a cocky smirk telling me it is something she'll never regret to do. But an experience that she will always look forward to repeat like she was in the midst of hallucinating some sexual explicitness inside her head.
"But I've told you already I want no business with women anymore, they are too clingy with their never ending drama." Remembering this one or two girls who I met those nights of mad experimenting I had with Khrytle whom end up pursuing me for a couple of weeks throwing me emotional tantrums and blackmails here and there.
"Well the last time I remember, you have committed yourself into this making-a-girl-fall-head-over-heels-in-love-with-you drama"
I groaned. Yeah right... How can she talk about it as if it was nothing? She saw my reaction but avert her attention on to the other set of DVD near her seat.
"Well don't worry I talked to the boys already, we are taking the bet on hold, I also have a say on this Drei, they can't just push us or you into being the center clown for their foolish child's play.
I sighed in relief, "That's good I am really not gonna be in mood these days"
"So, What made you ask about it hmm?" Pouring herself a glass of pineapple juice and drinks.
"I was just wondering, is having a h-hickey a proof that something already happened between two persons? I mean they already have sex? Because that's a proof that s-something intense happened right?"
Khrsytle almost spits on her drink, laughing and coughing. Have I said something wrong? I confusedly looked at her.
"Y-you are kidding right??" She bemusedly looked back at me while wiping her mouth with her handkerchief. And laughs again when she realizes how serious I am.
"If I haven't really known you for long? I would have really mistaken you for being such a complete incoherent dummy Drei."
Annoyed that I already am, I stood up to walk out of the entertainment room when she quickly grasps my wrist to stop me.
"Wait I'm sorry okay. I know I'm being such a douche, but please with no offense Drei? It's adorable okay? It's kinda stupid but it's cute."
I irately placed my hands on my waist, "I would not be asking if I have the slightest idea." I rolled my eyes. I stumped my feet in annoyance, she was still holding my wrist, I was seriously talking and she's just laughing at me like I'm just talking some crap here.
"I promise not to laugh again." She clenches her jaw in attempts to stop herself from laughing.
I slumped myself back to the couch, giving her a last chance. She clears her throat then again leans back from her seat making sure that I am already calmed down.
"There are two meanings of having a hickey, one is it was out of an outburst an overwhelming intensity that got two people so hot and caught up with deep kisses, sucking, nibbling or biting, yes you have a point of what you initially thought 'Drei."
She shrugs her shoulder and sips from her glass, "And yeah, believe it or not it added to that euphoric inhibition you will be drowned out in the midst of making out, but that doesn't mean something happened already between two persons. It's not like what you see in most movies dear."
"Okay and the second one explains?"
"The next one is" She places her glass back to the center table, "Is marking, means the other person was marking, you for example, for everyone to see that you are already being owned or taken."
Khrsytle was still saying some few things when my thoughts begin to wander around the stranger whom left me this scandalous mark. Was she marking me? Before I completely drift off I returned my focus back to her.
"Some find it really disrespecting, but in my opinion? I find being marked really hot, just don't leave it in a place where it will be too obvious for a show. Too scandalous, but I won't mind if it was made by the person I like most or I love?" She crunches her nose, bickering the words she said.
"Well you see I've never been in love, so erase.. scratched.. crossed 'that out', maybe someone so bangingly hot I guess I won't mind being marked."
I pulled a throw pillow from my side bringing it near my chest to hug it.
"Have you ever experienced a one night stand but remembers nothing much about it the following day? Even the face of that person?"
"That, I already have. It usually happens when I get myself drunk" She smiled sourly without looking my way. "At first I find drunk sex good at the beginning, but the feeling leaves you empty the following day, like a thief in the night gone by tomorrow, but I have done it quite numerously lately, so I've come to feel numb about it especially now."
She looks deep into my eyes.
"Know what Drei? I actually glad that you are innocent about these things. Never follow my tracks, make your first one special it should be meant for someone you love. Call me old fashion but every 'first time' always has a special place in one's memory, we need to at least reserve it for the best."
Upon hearing what she said, I felt like my soul just fled up and left my body, when Khrystle look at me with those hopeful eyes. I was speechless. What have I done? I feel my guilt is crawling inside my system, eating me alive.
I swallowed hard. I should tell her the truth. "Khryst-"
A loud ringing from her phone interrupt us, Khrystle immediately answers the phone and a rush of discomfort was all over her face. She asks some random questions from the other person in the line. I was baffled, waiting for her to end the call. She stands up and reaches out for the remote control punching buttons in search for some channel I am still to know.
My shoulders fell in anxious when I snapped at the one she is looking for; our university theater is being engulfed by a mad sea of fire. Fire fighters are still in the verge of preventing its further spree.
Couple of questions came into my mind. First was what will happen to the charitable event which was supposed to take place tomorrow at the said theater. Next is what will be the say, of my father about this?
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I don't know what to say, despite of my pathetic slow updates, I see readers growing in numbers.
Thank you so much, you've got no idea how overwhelmed i felt each time I peek and see that my work here is being worthy of somebody's time.. \(ToT)/
And for that I now feel more motivated.. MWaAhhuUGzz.....
Oh, I've featured the song which the said stranger played here, for those whom have not heard of it yet.
hope you enjoyed..:D