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I stood in the living room watching Wayne pull out. I sighed, I hated when he left after we had been arguing. We had only been in a committed relationship for about 9 months, and I had only been living with him for about 6. Things were already starting to make me second guess my decision to quit my job and move down to be with him. I hated not working because if worse came to worse I would be left with nothing but the little money I did put in savings. I shook my head, Wayne wants me to have faith in him and believe in him but every time I turn around I hear about him hooking up with one of his old girlfriends. He swears up and down its not true but at the same time he is staying away from the house way more than normal.
Fallon was spending some time with her dad. Things with Ryan had actually calmed down, it only took me threatening to get a lawyer to come up with a custody agreement. I looked around the house not finding anything I wanted to do so I grabbed my phone and called Adrianna. Her phone went straight to voice mail. I sighed, she was either at work or in class. I went in the kitchen grabbing me a coke when I heard my phone start ringing. Wayne. "Hello." I said. I could hear the commotion in the background and knew he was skating. "I'm going to be out late, might just crash here tonight." I could feel tears start to form. "Whatever." I hung up the phone not even waiting to see if he had anything else to say. Not surprising the phone rang before I even had a chance to sit it down. I hit answer and just waited. "Fuck wrong with you, you going to hang up on me." I wiped my tears, not wanting to talk because I know he would be able to hear my cry. "Maci, you got to chill out." I let out a breath feeling something snap. "We just got into it because you been staying out all damn night and its all over the news your back with that girl. Now you want to call me and tell me you prolly wont be home tonight, and you want me to fucking chill out." I heard Wayne let out a breath and the noise started getting fainter letting me know he was walking away. "I'm only going to tell your ass one more time, that shit ain't true, Maci I moved you in my fucking house, I'm letting you stay with me. If I was going to be running around fucking all these stupid ass bitches the media says I do, do you really think i would want a girl at home." I sighed, I didn't know what to say. I could see his side, but then again I had a feeling things weren't right. I leaned my head on the kitchen counter. "Maci baby talk." I sat there quite for a minute. "Please don't stay out all night." My voice cracked at the end and I just wanted to get off the phone. I heard Wayne let out a breath. "Give me a couple hours here and we will go out tonight ok." I shook my head like he could really see me. "Alright baby, go take a shower and get dressed, I'll be gone two hours and the most." I really didn't feel like going out but at least he was trying. "Ok, I love you." I could tell Wayne was walking back toward the ramp cause I could hear all kinds of racket. "Love you to Mac, now stop trippin on a nigga, you know i got you."
Hanging up I headed up stairs. I turned on the shower and stepped in hoping the steam would take some of my sadness away. The steady beating of the water did calm me and by the time I had shampooed and conditioned my hair and stepped out I was in a little better spirits. I did my normal routine, of lotioning up and blow drying my hair. I decided to go ahead and put my makeup on before I straightened my hair. I took extra time doing everything hoping I could make the two hours fly but by the time I had finished my hair and make up I still had an hour. Ugh, maybe it would take an hour to pick something out to wear. I sighed but then again Wayne will have to come home take his own shower and get dressed. I slipped on a tshirt and some boyshorts and just sat on the bed. I missed Fallon at least she kept me entertained. I leaned back against the pillows and turned on the tv. Some old episodes of criminal minds was on so I decided to watch them.
I awoke to Wayne kissing on my stomach. I reached out for him grinning until I noticed it was dark. I shouldn't have been dark yet. I turned to look at the clock and saw it was after 10. I sighed and shoved at him. Wayne looked up at me but refused to stop teasing. I rolled my eyes at him. "Sex will not get you out of trouble today." Wayne laughed as he ran his tongue over my belly button. "It wont hurt either." I sighed, for some reason I always had a hard time staying mad at him. Wayne moved up the bed to place kisses on my lips. "I'm sorry baby, I lost track of time, you know I been trying to get that new trick down." He layed his head on my chest. I started playing with his dreads and he turned to look at me. "I hate when you sit there all silent and shit, talk." I shrug, I knew he hated silence, almost as much as he hated me telling him whatever. Wayne sighed as he rolled off me and moved to lay beside me. I noticed the new scrapes he had on his arms, at least I knew he was really at the skate park. I turned to look at him and saw he was just watching me. He gave me a pouty face and winked at me. I sat up in the bed and grinned at him. "Your right, it cant hurt." I pulled my shirt off and threw it at him. He had the biggest grin on his face and I shook my head. "Don't think you are out of trouble Mr. Carter." Wayne grabbed my hips as I moved on top of him. "Come here momma and let me put it on ya." I rolled my eyes at him and shrieked as he flipped me on my back. His lips on my neck had my toes curling. Wayne's hands seemed to be everywhere at once. I wrapped my arms around him and let him drive me crazy.
The next morning I awoke before Wayne. I sat up looking down at him, he looked so peaceful. I wish I knew what went on in that mind of his. Then again I doubted I could handle all the shit he has spinning around in his head. I sighed getting up heading to the bathroom. I had just turned on the shower when I heard his phone vibrate. I glance at the bathroom counter and saw he had left it beside the sink. I went to grab it to take it to the bedroom when I looked down and saw the incoming text. I let out a breath before I walked back in the bedroom throwing his phone at his head. Wayne jumped as the phone made contact with his face. Wayne was always grouchy in the morning and having a phone threw at him didn't help any. "Maci, I swear to God you better have a damn good reason for that." I gave him a look, "Read your fucking text and you tell me." I turned around heading to the shower slamming the door behind me. I was to pissed to cry, the text didn't have a name just D, and I was pretty sure I knew who that was. It read, I waited on you all night, what happened. Wayne opened the shower door staring at me. I glanced down at him, he didn't even bother gettign dressed. I took a step back as he walked in pressing me up against the wall. "This fucking attitude of yours has to stop, I was with you all fucking night." I looked up at him unable to move. "Wayne just leave me alone." Wayne let out a breath closing his eyes. "Maci, I can't deal with this shit, you gotta chill out baby girl. I looked down. "So what I jsut ignore the text your getting from her." Wayne pulled my chin up, "love me enough to trust me Maci." I nodded, I didn't know what to say or what to think. Wayne's lips on mine was soft. I knew he was testing my reaction. I put my hands on his chest to push him back but he grabbed my waist wrapping my legs around his waist as he picked me up. We looked in each others eyes, I hated myself for being so weak where he was concerned.
By the time I made it downstairs from fixing my hair and getting dressed Wayne had fixed breakfast. I grabbed a cup of coffee and glanced at the french toast but didn't feel up to eating. Wayne was sitting at the bar watching me. "Are you ok?" I shrugged Wayne bit his lower lip. "Come here." I walked up beside him and he pushed his chair back pulling me up in his lap. I leaned my head against his and he kissed my forehead. "Look that text was nothing, she wanted to meet up and talk and I told her I had plans, even when I told you I wasn't coming home I never planned on meeting up with her." I looked down feeling a tear start to fall, he had hit the nail right on the head. "What am I sposta think?" Wayne let out a breath. "That I'm your man and I wouldn't hurt you." I nodded ok even though I was far from that. "I'm tired of fighting, Maci. I know I've been gone but I'm not anywhere you cant go." Wayne huged me and wiped my tears from my face. I took a breath, "can you stay home today." Wayne looked up letting out a deep breath, then back at me, "Yeah baby, let me go make a few calls."
Wayne came back downstairs and sat with me on the couch. He grabbed the remote turning on espn. I groaned and he shot me a grin as he put his arm around my back pulling me into him. "You complaining." I rolled my eyes at him. "You know I hate this shit." He laughed handing me the remote. I grab it but don't turn the channel. "You talk to Fallon yet." I shook my head no. "I really don't want to talk to Gail, I'll wait till Ryan has her." Wayne smirked at me. "Well what you want to do today." I shrugged, "just spend the day together, your always gone to studio, skating, or shooting videos, just be with me today." Wayne glanced down at me before grabbing my hand. "I know its hard, I feel like I'm always gone too, but you can travel with me this summer so it wont be so bad." I nodded. "I guess you just spoiled me cause when I first moved down you were here all the time." Wayne laughed, "Yeah and I had to push my cd back almost a month." I rolled my eyes. "O that was my fault." Wayne gave me a serious look nodding yes. I sighed" Are you sure your ready for all this." Wayne let out a breath "Maci for the thousandth time, yes. Why are you paying attention to all the bullshit. It was worse than this when we first came out as a couple." I shrugged as he sat up and started rolling a blunt. "I don't know, you was here so I knew you wasn't out doing dirt," I glanced down, "and now your gone all the time." Wayne let out a breath. "Baby if I was out fucking all these bitches I don't think I would be coming home fucking you. What am I slacking or some shit." I glanced up seeing the expression on his face and laughed at him. "No, never that." He laughed as he lit up. "Hell you got me second guessing myself. I'm not used to having a bitch a home, so you got to give me time." I shot him a look, "you ain't got a bitch at home." Wayne takes a hit of his blunt and blows it at me. I shove him and we both glance down at the coffee table, his phone was vibrating. He reached down ignoring the call. "Who was it," I asked. Wayne shook his head, "nobody." I gave him a look but sat back letting him pull me back in his arms. It wasn't 10 minutes later when he phone started vibrating again. "Fuck" He leaned forward to ignore the call then picked it up to turn it off. I shook my head. "If you don't have shit to hide leave it on." Wayne shot me a look and I knew I was aggravating him but I wanted to know who kept calling. I knew he had already called letting everyone who would be looking for him today he was talking a day off.
By the time I had decided to get up and fix lunch Wayne had 10 calls all from a private number. I was aggravated, and had no idea if I needed to be or not. I didn't really feel like cooking so I cooked a stir fry packet we had in the freezer. Walking back in with our bowls I saw Wayne texting on his phone. When he saw me he put it down, I handed him his bowl practically shoving it at him. "What now." I rolled my eyes. "Nothing." Wayne shot me a look but started eating. I scooted to the end of the couch and started flipping the channels as I ate. I stopped on some movie I hadn't seen in a while. We ate in silence. I could hear Wayne's phone vibrate and knew he was still getting text. I had enough and just wanted to know, if I was wrong I would apologize and spend the rest of the day making it up to him. I put my bowl on the coffee table and stood up. Wayne was watching me with his eyebrow cocked, I grinned at him and went like I was going to sit in his lap but instead I grabbed his cell. Even though it was locked I could see the incoming text and who they were from. I didn't even read them just saw the name. I dropped his phone and got up going to the bedroom locking the door behind me.
I had been sitting in the bed starting out the window probably 10 minutes before I heard Wayne try to open the door. "Maci open this damned door." I rolled my eyes and kept starting out the window trying to ignore him. I sighed as I heard him walk away but then cussed as I heard him come through the bathroom. I had totally forgot about locking bathroom door to the hall. Wayne came in looking pissed off. I glanced at him then back out the window. Wayne sat on the edge of the bed. "I told you I cant take this shit anymore." I glanced up. "Then leave." Wayne sat there open mouth. "What....you really just say that." I couldn't look at him. I didn't' want him to go but I didn't know what to say. "Fuck you Maci," Wayne stood up walking to the door. HE stopped long enough to unlock the door and I sat braced waiting on him to slam it when he turned around. "What do you want from me Maci." I felt tear fall. "I want you to be with me, if you can't settle down let me go." Wayne let out a sigh. "I not high enough for this shit." I shot him a look, "when are you not high on something." Wayne looked at me like I lost my mind. "Your pushing it, I've never lied to you about what I do, or who I am" I stood up. "That shit don't bother me, but the fact you got to be high to deal with me, yeah that's a problem." Wayne walked up on me. "I'm tired of having to defend myself on some shit I ain't even done, yeah if I've fucked another bitch I'd expect this from you, but I've been true to you, I could have fucked around on you, but no I'm trying to do right by you Maci. I'm still here, do you know how bad I wanted to fucking walk out on you just now." I looked down as he wrapped his arms around me. "I just dont get why she is calling you and texting you so damn much if there isn't something going on." Wayne leaned his head against mine. "Baby, I just offered to let you read my text, she just wants to talk, its not like that. You have no problems with my baby mommas." I leaned my head back so I could look at him. "Cause I know they don't want your ass." Wayne laughed. "What does Adrianna always tell you, don't nobody want me but you." I leaned my head against his face. "Yeah I wish that was true."
Wayne leaned down kissing me. "Girl I took the day off, I don't want to fight, I want to love on you." I sighed as I felt my anger slip away. I looked up meeting him for a kiss. He pushed me back untill I felt my knees hit the bed. Wayne started to kiss my neck as he ran his hands under my shirt. "This is what you wanted today admit it." I lifted my arms as he pulled my shirt over my head and sighed as unclasped my bra. "I get this regardless if you stay home all day or not." Wayne chuckled as he lifted me up to lay me on the bed. "I think your addicted to this dick." I busted out laughing, "If I am then your addicted to this." Wayne finished undressing then slipped under teh covers with me. "Never said I wasn't, that's why your ass is in my house, I got tired of having to track your ass down. I shoved him, "boy you stupid." Wayne grinned at me before disappearing under the covers.