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Warning: After reading this, you might think how much childish, kiddish, stupid, brainless, immature and cringe I am. And I'm scared that you'll see me like that. So don't read or read at your own risk 😭😭
Better that you don't read
But if you read then talk to me ahhh
I will sound cringe okay....
😭
I'm crying 😭😭 I don't want to write that story Yaar... Do you know that I started a new story named "Roshan Sitara"
Mujhe nhi likhna woh ab aur.. Meko school love story likhna hai😭😭
Maine bohot authors ko dekhe hai ki series banate hai aur wattpad mein ek fictional family hojata hai.. I too wanted to make something like that....
Par I already ruined it. So I thought from my next story, I'll start making series... Par abh mujhe... Woh story likhne ka man bilkul nhi ho rha...
I love 'love after marriage' plot but don't know why I don't want to write that and only want to write school love stories or stories like Arini & Shrey..
And,
I don't want to be consistent. I'm forgetting all my works and spending days and nights here. Since the last few days I was watching all the other famous writers, the number of their followers, votes, reads was making me sad. I was thinking why can't I write better than this?
I don't even watch normal reels anymore, I watch reels related to wattpad, books. I have a lot of hobby. A lotttttt.. And I try to give time to all of them. I want to do everything in life. That's a small wish of mine.
I always say " Ek hi zindagi hai aur mujhe sab kuch karke hi marna hai "
Basically except for studying, I love to do all the other stuffs....
That's how writing books became a thing for me.
But these days I feel so low. I started comparing myself with everyone I can see. And the regret of not being enough good like them hurts me.
*sigh*
From the starting of this day, I am feeling like to crying. I can't do anything good. I want to go out and click so many good pictures. But I look terrible and have nobody to hang out with.
I am craving to eat my favorite chocolate. ..do you know which chocolate I love the most...it's 'choco roundz' have you seen that?
Yeh hai. Mera favorite chocolate jo ki khatam ho chuka hai 😭😭😭😭 5 rupaye ki ek piece ati hai, ap bhi leke khana....par khatam ho chuka hai...kon jayega lane? If I tell my brother, he'll say " Mujhe bhi khilana hoga"
And I don't want to share with him😭😭
And I'm too lazy to go out...
Tomorrow I'll go out and I'll buy for sureeee but aj raat?
Aur yeh dekho mera book 😭😭 padhna tha mujhe sidha 9 baje tak.. Par kya kar rhi hu main?
Kal hi khud se kaha tha " Aishika bas 4 month aur padhle fir maze karenge " Aur aj dekho mujhe...
I'm so sad today.. Everything is making me sadder... 😭😭😭
Now you must think kitni cringe hu main..
Hu toh hu
Insaan hi huu
Ho skti hi huuu
Huh.
I blabbered so much.. Bye bye..