Gyeong was just about to do the daily morning checkup on her patient.
Relaxed, she quietly opened the door when she saw Sana still sleeping. The girl looked cute, the nurse thought which had to make her smile shortly.
She hoped that the girl would do better this morning since she
showed some symptoms of a flu the day before. After handing her some special medicine, it should have been going better the night through, Gyeong thought or more hoped.
The nurse dropped her jaw as she saw the heart beat monitor showing only few, almost no heart beats. Gyeong quickly shook the girl's body but she didn't wake up.
No matter how hard the nurse shook Sana, she just wouldn't open her eyes. Only as she took a look closer, she saw how sweaty the girl's forehead was.
As she placed her palm on it, she felt the girl's head burning like fire.
In addition she was pretty red in the face, a clear symptom of a sickness like a big flu.
"Sana, stop kidding me. Wake up"
Gyeong's voice was shaky as she quickly heard the girl's lungs with her stethoscope, hearing they weren't working well.
"Shit. Doctor! I need help, Sana's dying!"
Gyeong's eyes were teary. She couldn't loose her girl. She was too young to leave now.
Gyeong was already about to grab the things that the doctors would need for a reanimation as doctor chim and several other nurses came running into the room.
Without even asking what happened, Docror Chim took the defibrillators in his hands before placing them on Sana's chest, ready to save her life.
He charged it to 200, hit her chest but the beats were still going so slow.
Way too slow.
Maybe this time
it's time for me to leave
now, after i finally spent a day outside, just with him
he even played the piano for me
i did everything i wanted to
i've had the best last days
i've met all my friends i wanted to see before i die
i saw my family, jiho
i had the chance to spent my last day with him
i had a great life
but now, it's time to give someone else a chance to live
jake was there with me
he brought me new flowers
even a picnic he prepared for us
it's my time
i'll meet mom and dad
i'm happy to be with them after such a long time
i even wore a pretty dress on my last day
i held his hand
and he held mine
we walked through seoul
my home
i felt loved
and i felt like loving him
i loved my life
great education
great family, if they were with me or not, i loved them
great friends who visted me here almost everyday
a perfect lover
i suffered alone
but i decided to do so
it was my decision and i chose dying instead of getting the surgery
now i don't have to think about that anymore
in heaven everything will be easier
i needed jake
he completed my life
this time mom isn't here to say i should wake up
so it's really happening
it's my time now
jake, please don't be sad
i loved the time with you
now you need to find someone else to love
don't mind about me, i wish you will find someone who isn't sick and who can give you back all the love that you give
that girl will be lucky
lucky to have you
i'm a bit jealous, yeah
our time was way too short
i'm so sorry...
i should have talked to you earlier
i liked you for more than the time you like me
since the first day we all started studying, my eyes catched you
everytime i was in hospital while you were having class
i thought about if you might noticed me not being there
but if you didn't that's okay
don't be sorry for that or blame yourself
please jake, don't ever change yourself or your personality for someone else
if someone wouldn't accept you as you are, they don't deserve you
you're the best thing that ever happened in my life
i swear
our love is better than in the books
even better than in blue honeymoon
by the way
i never told you why i said you'll cry at the end
the girl, brooke, she was sick
just like me
and she died
their love was so deep
but not that deep like ours
that's why it's my favourite
i can identify myslef with brooke since we both had a heart disease
and you'll be like liam
he loved her so much, he couldn't even leave her grave
jake, you don't need to stay so long at my grave, you don't even need to attend to my funeral
i just beg you
could you visit me at least once?
i want to hear your voice when i'm not here
i'd be so thankful
i just wished to kiss you one more time at least
one more time
only one
your pretty lips
the prettiest i've ever seen
they are so soft, like a new formed snowball from the first snow
you have the perfectest hair and face
everything about you is just perfect
i wrote you something
it's on the backside of the first letter you wrote me
i'm sure you'll find it
at least when they clean up my room after i'm not longer a patient
the hospital..
i spent so much time i actually never wanted there to spent
but after all, without the hospital i probably couldn't have met you
so i probably owe them something
it's the time
i'm not sad
i'm happy i could spent the last days with you
my last days
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
jake
wait
i don't want this
i don't want to say goodbye yet
please, i changed my mind
i wnat to stay alive
i need to spend more time with you
i want to sit on top of the ferris wheel with you again
you're gonna suffer anyways
or?
cause you love me
and i love you
you don't know how much i love you
i never told you how thankful i am
i still need to do this
i can't just leave like that
i don't want this
it's not the time
it can't be the time
i want to stay alive for you
i'm selfish if i die
if i die, i'm gonna make you suffer
i can't make you suffer
you're my love, jake
i know what it's like to feel pain in the heart
i can't do this to you
i will live
i will live for you Jake
i love you
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•author's corner•
double updateeee
our fav
guys
mhm
only 4 chapters left
yep
I don't want this
but I need to
if I want or not
This will be harder than the end of the Niki story istg
anyways, I need to
love u all:3
and see u in the next chapter<3
~november 10th 2023
11:51pm<33