Dear Sana,
It's now two weeks since you fell into a coma. I miss talking to you, I miss walking with you through the streets seoul's. I miss hearing you sweet voice.
I decided to start writing you letters just to let you know about all the things that happened, once you wake up.
Please don't make me wait longer, I really miss you my star.
By the way, I completed our building and already prsented it to the class. Despite the fact that you weren't there which made it so boring, Mr. Choi really liked it.
The others often visit you too, you know?
Sometimes, Ni-ki just talks to you about his days. I guess he actually likes you more than me:0
But I mean, how couldn't he like you, right?
This here is my 10th letter for you.
As I always do, I'll place it in the small box on the windowsill. I'll tell the nurses to tell you, just in case you wake up when I'm not there.
I miss you a lot, Sana. I really do. There's actually not a time when I don't miss you.
Going through that scenery of seeing you suffering in the wardrobe in my head just breaks my into thousands scattered pieces.
I'm so sorry I didn't notice you were hurt in the shop, I should have noticed earlier:(
I'm really sorry.
You know, there's a lot I regret so much which I can't change anymore.
I wish I could. But I can't.
Even if you aren't awake yet or won't ever read this letter, but Sana I swear you are surely the best thing that ever happened in my life.
Already when I saw you drawing these tiny little stars on the windowpane in class,
I know you won't get out of my mind so easily.
In fact, my whole thoights are just about you. I never want to know how it is to live without you.
So, you really have to wake up.
I want to see your beautiful eyes.
I want to see color in your face instead of watching you turning paler and paler day by day.
I hate seeing you in a state like this, if I could I would immediately exchange with you.
I would do everything to just see your smile. Just once at least.
Don't make me wait longer, my girl.
I will make sure you'll get the surgery you told me about.
Everything will be fine and we'll live a happy, healthy long life<3
You just need to wake up.
It's pretty late, so I'll head to the end of this letter now.
I love you and always will.
Your lover,
Jake.
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"You think we should wake him up?"
One of the two nurses standing at the door asked, furrowing her eyebrows.
They watched Jake writing the letter, always and placing it into the boy on the windowsill, before. After that, they boy immediately fell asleep on the chair he always sat on, with his head on Sana's hospital bed. It was already after visitor hours, so actually Jake wasn't allowed to stay anymore.
Actually.
"I think we can make an examination for him. He's overwhelmed, he's pretty much in love with her" The other nurse replied, earning a sweet short chuckle from the other one.
"Yes. I just hope she'll wake up soon. Tomorrow morning Doctor Chim is going to check on her again. Maybe he'll find out something new"
"Hopefully"
The nurse on the right sighed by the look at the tow people sleeping next to eachother.
One of them in a coma, the other one falling asleep by her side.
"Let's gp and let them two alone"
She added, receiving a nod from the other nurse before quietly leaving the room after closing the door behind them, in a volume which wouldn't wake up the boy.
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It's so pretty in here. But at the same time so unfamiliar.
It feels like a dream, or even like heaven.
So many stars surrounding me. It's so beautiful.
And the dress I'm wearing. Those cute details on the upper part of the long black dress.
So amazing.
I'm at the meadow.
His and my place.
It's so amazing here.
But wait, where am I?
Is that a dream?
Or is that heaven?
Am I dead?
Nooo, please no.
Jake must be suffering by now.
I don't want him to be sad about me.
And Jiho... He must be sad too...
I'm so sorry if I'm dead, I don't want to make them sad.
But it's so peaceful here.
I wouldn't want to leave this place if I'm being honest.
But-
"Hi yeobo"
I know this voice... It's so familiar.
But who does it belong to?
Yeobo. Only she called my like that.
The tender silhouette sat down next to me, on the wet grass.
I knew her.
"Mom?" I said, my voice sounding quietly.
The tremble in my voice wasn't to overhear. I just didn't belive it to see her again in first place.
I didn't hesitate to pull her into a big hug. I missed her so much.
I wish I could stay with her so badly. At exactly this place, at this time. Until the end of my life.
"Mom.. I missed you so much"
Tears started to roll down my face even though i didn't even notice them being formed in my eyes before.
Everything just felt so surreal to me.
She just looked at me and showed my a warmth smile.
How much I missed that smile.
"I know, yeobo. But you're doing great on your own. You don't need me anymore.
I'm so infinitely proud of you, my heart"
My throat was trembling inside me, pressing against my heart.
I couldn't stop the following tears running and running down my cheeks.
"Am I dead, mom?"
I asked her.
"Not yet. You just need to look straight ahead, Sana. The decision you'll have to make is right in front of you, yeobo"
Her face formed again this calm, warmth smile.
"But I don't know how, mom"
I said, looking back at her.
"You know it, Sana. You just need to clear your sight. Everything is going to get along, my daughter"
"I want to stay here with you"
Here at this place, it's so peaceful.
There's no pain.
I could probably stay with her.
"Yeobo, you need to wake up"
"But... I can't do this without you, mom"
I looked at her, with my teary eyes which made her even smile more.
"I'm sure you can, my girl. You know? There's someone waiting for you to wake up"
I raised my eyebrows.
"Someone is waiting for me?"
"Sure. Jake came everyday, he misses you too. I see everything from above, yeobo"
Jake is waiting for me?
He is waiting for me to wake up?
Jake, the boy I love.
I need to stay alive.
I need to follow my mom's words.
"I'm so sorry for almost giving up"
I said, looking at her dark brown eyes, she just gave ahead to Jiho and me.
"Sana, you don't need to be sorry for that.
I did give up and I'm in heaven. But I want you to know that it's okay to feel like giving up sometimes. It's okay. You're doing the best you can, and I'm so proud of you"
Her words really reached my heart.
I leaned over to her before hugging her tightly again.
One last time.
I closed my eyes while saying.
"I love you, Mom"
"And I love you, my yeobo"
"Take care of you and the boy, He really loves you. Just like you do to him"
"I will, Mom. Be sure"
I just closed my eyes one last time.
In her arms.
☆: "Yeobo" means "my sweetheart" in Korean ☆
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•author's corner•
first before I forget it, I want to give credits to nikiwsst for inspiring me for this chapter<3
I like this chapter heheh
Sorry for possible spelling/grammar mistakes, I'm pretty tiredddd lol
I'm still pretty proud of myself for this story, and I still don't have a chapter I don't like yayyy
love u all:3
and see u in the next chapter<3
~november 2nd 2023
10:02pm<33