Magizhini's 's Pov
I'm in his room right now. He is hugging me to sleep. He is sleeping soundly but I lost my sleep completely.
Wiping the uncontrollable tears falling from my eyes and wetting the pillow.
I recalled his words he told me when he dragged me to his room.
The first thing he said was... This room belongs to him and his Nithya... Then what about me...
En life en ellathulayum urimai irukura ore ponnu en nithya mattum thaan..... You will never be a part of my life nor my room... En bed la space kooda eduku kudukuren nu unaku teriyum...... *looking at magizh in a caustic way*
I felt awful that moment..... No wife expects to hear this from her husband. But in my case I'm just someone forced on him. He said it clearly he doesn't love me.
Enna pudikadha... Appo eduku ipdi enna katti pudichitu thoonganum... Appo enna unamaila nerunguna pleasure and lust kaha mattum thana.... Appo naa ivaruku important illaya..... I tilted my neck a little and looked at him peaceful face....
My eyes landed on the picture of Nithya akka and Inder.... I don't know how many lucky wife in the world would get a chance to see their husband's picture with his love in their room after marriage...
Just a day passed with him but already I feel weak and tired of this...
He didn't bother about my feelings my words and anything. He simply dragged me to the bed and hugged me to sleep....
I felt happy yesterday when he hugged me to sleep yesterday but today everything changed.......
Why this is happening to me? .... I could just ask this but I couldn't find a response for that...
I stayed awake all night with my tears flowing out of my eyes looking around the room staying in his bone crushing hug...... The whole room made me feel suffocated.....
It makes me feel that I'm living someone else's life.... My mind wandered around the same questions again and again....
My brain and eyes everything got tired of it.
When the sun starts to show my eyes closed inviting a little sleep...
In my sleep. I sensed someone nuzzling their nose in my neck. I groaned when that touch disturbed me.
I was half awake but couldn't open my eyes. They were burning like hell.
Good morning Nithya..... That person whispered in my ears and kissed me on my neck.
I rolled out of the bed when I heard that word.
He got up from the bed and looked at me...
My eyes teared. Did he imagine Nithya akka while hugging me...
Yeii saniyane... Unna naa endrika neram indha room la iruka koodathunu sonnen la. Aprom eduku di un moonja kondu katuna..... He yelled.
I don't know what to respond to this.
Saniyane.... Kalailaye azhudu vadiyade.... En Nithya mugathula thaan ivlo naazh endrichen chee inaiku un moonjila... Che vezhiya podi....... He said running his fingers through his hair.
Illa.... I tried to respond.
Vezhiya po di naaye ... He roared .
I ran out of the room as I couldn't handle his words further..
I locked myself in the door and cried...... Enna saniyan nu solraru kadavule.... Naa enna senjen eduku enaku ipdi laam nadakudu...
I sat there and cried for sometime....
Magizh you have to Inform about this to Vaanathi ma before the situation goes out of hand.....
I quickly washed my face, brushed my teeth and went down to the hall.
I saw Krishna mama there...
Magizh... Ennachu ma.... He asked coming to my side.
Onula mama... I said but my tears betrayed me and fell out of my eyes.
Magizh edo problem nu teridu vaa garden la poi pesalam..... He said.
I went with his wiping my unstoppable tears.
He sat on the bench in the garden and asked me to sit beside him.
Ennachu Magizh... Edayum maraikama Solluma.... He said taking my hand in his..
I really needed that hold that moment. I told him everything that happened from yesterday...
When I completed it... I looked at his face..
Sorry Magizh..... He apologized.
Aiyoo eduku mama... I asked.
Naa anaike sonnen ma... Avan Magizh ah kastham paduthuvan nu but Vaanathi kekala.. But nee ippo kastham paduradha paatha guilty ah iruku.... If you want you can get away from this relationship even now...I'll support you..... He said.
I don't know what to say... I just looked at him blankly.
Magizh, idhu un life... Yaarayo happy ah vaika poren nu un life ah spoil panikadha..... I care about you ma... Nee vanda piragu thaan nanga happy ah irukom... So yosichu sollu.... He said and went back giving me space to think.
Magizh nee vanda piragu thaan nanga happy ah irukom...... These words kept on ringing in my ears.
Bruno barked and grabbed my attention. I went near the kennel. He was standing outside his kennel.
I lowered myself to his level. He barked continously.
Enna Bruno.... Azhudu moonji veengi poi kannu sevandu pochuna enna unaku adayazham teriyada enna.... I asked and patted on his head.
He moved closer to me....
Bruno..... Naa anadhaya bruno.... I cried without making sound.
Enna un boss ku pudikalayam.... Romba kasthama iruku.... Romba mosama thittutaru..... Inaiku Krishna mama kitta sonnen... Enna indha life venuma venama nu decide panna solraru.... Enna seiradhu...... I asked him.
He barked...
Enaku un boss ah pudikum.... Enaku enna life long happy ah vachuruka avar venum... But avar pudikalanu solraru..... Enna panradhune terila...... I asked.
Enna vitu poga poriya..... I was startled by the voice I heard behind me.
I turned and looked at that person ....Inder...
Enna vitu poga poriya..... Enna love pannalaya Appo ..... He asked without giving me time to think and speak.
I shook my head when I found his eyes welling up...
Aiyoo ennachu..... I asked..
If you want to leave... Leave then don't waste your time.... I'll fix my mind that I have none...... He said breaking my heart.
I know how it feels when you feel that you have no one...
Enakunu appo yaarum illala.... He said..
Apdi illa...... I stopped him forgetting everything he said..
Ponum na poiru...I have no one then... . He said.
I don't wanna make anyone feel that way especially I don't want them to feel lonely because of me..
I took that decision emotionally forgetting about the repercussions I'll face because of it...
Illa naa pogala..... I said.
But remember nee enkooda irunda happy ah Nijama iruka mata... Remember all this before deciding..... He warned me.
Ana yen.... Enna unagzhuku pudikalaya..... I asked as I couldn't control myself.
Pesadha pudikala... Enaku unna pudikala but I need your presence.... I don't know how to call this feeling but I hate you and I love my Nithya not you...... He said.
He left leaving me alone.... I'm confused.... Ennala sindhika mudila... Enna decision edukuradu.....
I sat there for a minute.... And thought of Vaanathi ma, the person who gave me a safe and good life.....
I went to the hall..... I saw Inder and Krishna mama there..
Mama, Vaanathi ma enga.... I asked.
Ava romba tired ah irukunu innum ezhumbala ma.... Krishna mama replied.
Enna ma edachum sollanuma... He asked.
Ama mama... Naa decide paniten... Naa indha life ah vitu poga vendam nu thonudu ellar kagavum..... I said.
Magizh... I don't think you have taken the right decision ma nalla yosi... He said.
Appa, avan thaa lifelong kastham pada ready nu solrala aprom eduku unga energy waste panringa..... Inder asked.
Magizh.... This is your final chance.... Nalla yosichu sollu.... Idhuka aprom un life la endha problem vandalum naa thirumbi kooda paka maten... I have given you an option to protect your life...... He said... This further put me under confusion.
Appa chance kudukurarula... Decide pannu... Na unkitta sonna mathiri thaan un life irukum.... He said.
Enaku ok thaan nu nenaikuren.... Umm ok thaan ok thaan.... I said finally because I want a family.... I'm confused about my decision but whatever comes I'm ready to face konjam naazh la he will accept me...
This Is your fate Magizh... Naa solliyum un life ah neeye ruin panikitta so enkitta problem nu mattum varada.... And Indrajith... Naa ipdi soliten nu over ah adhatha.. I won't keep my cool for so long..... Krishna Mama said and went.
I watched him leaving.... Inder came to me and patted on my cheeks...
Stupid orphan..... He said and left but that one word was enough for me to breakdown.
I went to my room and took a shower.... I tried to divert my mind and live my life as it is. But it's still questionable whether I'll be able to handle this or not.
When I went down after taking shower. I saw Vaanathi ma there.... I remained silent and did my work as per her instructions.
I arranged the dishes we prepared on the table.
Inder and mama came.... Mama just smiled at me and didn't talk much. He must me angry on me...
Sapadu vai....... I heard someone saying but I want in my own thoughts so I didn't take it.
Magizhini...... I was brought back to the world by the loud voice.
Sapadu vai..... It was Indrajith who said that...
A smile formed on my lips..... I don't know why I'm getting excited just to serve him but happy ah iruku... Stupid ah iruken nu teridu ana naa ipdi thaan.
Vaanathi ma and krishna mama looked us in shock and happiness. They know he never lets anyone to serve him but he asked it by himself to me. So edachum positive ah en life la nadaka vaipiruku thaane...
I served him happy... He had his food and went to wash his hands.
I went behind him like a lost puppy to hand him the hand towel ...
He washed his hands and turned. He got shocked to see me.
Yeii muttazh ipdi pinnadi vandu nikura... Arivilla... Chee thazhi po.... He pushed me away and went...
I was shocked... A few minutes ago he asked me to serve him breakfast and now he is pushing me away.... What did I do wrong now........
INDRAJITH'S POV
An evil smile formed on my lips..... The best way to hurt someone and torture someone is torturing them mentally and that's what I'm doing.
I got in my car and left to office in mumbai..... I went to my cabin and found it as it was before I left to Australia..... I sat on my office chair. I took Nithya's photo in my hand.
The only person who can make me weak is my Nithya. At the same time Magizhini's face flashed in my mind for a second. I shook my head and looked at Nithya's photo.
Daily un mugathula thaan muzhipen inaiku ava mugathula muzhichen.... Enaku suthama pudikala..... Ana poruthupen nithya.... En nithya mattum en wife nu nenachitu irunda edathula ava wife nu kalyanam panitu vandu nikura.... Adhuku ava kastham patte aaganum.... I'll make sure of it.......
I put Nithya's photo aside and rested my head on the table...... I closed my eyes and asked myself..... Why did I sleep peacefully beside her, why I found her comforting....... Why I need her presence....
I don't have answer for these questions but she is doing something to me ..... Taking a deep breath... I started doing my work. I got engrossed in my works.
Around 2pm I received a call from Thyagu mama without second thoughts I answered the call.
Phone conversation
Me: sollunga mama.
T (Thyagu) : Indrajith mail check paniya andha luxury villa project.
Me: illa mama innum check panala edachum problem ah...
T: avanga deal ah terminate panna porangalam...
Me: WHAT...
T: they have mailed us.
Me: but edunala mama... We have already got their approval and they liked our plan too... Namma plan avanga requirements ah fulfill pannudu nu sonnagazhe..
T: yeah but they are saying. They want to terminate the deal now.
Me: mama edachum pesi pathingala...ilalti naa pesatuma... Its a million dollar project easy ah vida mudila.
T: no use Indrajith they have already made up their mind... Naa call panni pesunen they are coming up with lame reasons. So pesama Vera projects ku approach pannalam.
Me: any other way mama. I have just started the business now it will be a black mark in my career...
T: oru advice solren Indrajith.... Early the better... Avanga early ah namma work start panna munnala solitanganu Happy ah iru illati the loss will big so purijuko...
Me: enna solradu nu terila mama... Naa vaikuren...
I hung up the call...
Phone conversation ended
I sat there holding my head... My first failure..... I have never lost a project after I got it in my hands...
Especially a million dollar project.... I couldn't concentrate on anything after that...
I received a call from appa... But I didn't pick it up. I think he is disappointed with me..
I put everything just like that and went out grabbing my car keys. I drove my car to a bar.... I usually never visit a bar in the daytime but today I need this badly.
I went inside and gave my order to the bartender and the moment I received my order. I had it in one go...
I purchased a few alcohol bottles and went to my apartment.....
(makkazhe drunk and drive is very dangerous. Story kaha ezhudunen and I really don't support it soliten- author)
I opened the door and entered my apartment. I sat there on the couch and started gulping down the alcohol bottles....
I lost today Nithya.... I lost a big deal... Epdi nadanduchu epdi nadakalam enaku ipdi.....
I closed my eyes and sat there for long. I eventually dozed off.... When I opened my eyes it was already 10 pm...
I know I'm not in the condition to drive. So I called appa to pick me up from my apartment. I put my phone aside and rested my head on the couch....
Author's Pov
Krishna came to home. Magizh and Vaanathi was sitting in the hall and chatting...
Oru coffee kedaikuma Vaanathi.... Krishna asked.
Ennachu Krishna. You look so tired..... Vaanathi asked.
Maa naa coffee potutu varen neenga mama kooda pesitu irunga...... Magizh said and went to the kitchen giving them some space to talk.
Indrajith Australia la namma business branch open panirukanla... Anga kedacha oru million dollar project venam nu terminate panitanga..... Krishna said.
Periya loss ah Krishna.... Vaanathi asked.
Illama start panna munnadiye deal terminate panna naala no problem but kedachirunda nalla irundurukum..... Krishna said.
Don't worry Krishna idha vida periya projects la kedaikum..... Vaanathi consoled him.
Enaku project ponadu problem illa. Indrajith thaan complete work handle panran avan epdi eduthupan nu terila... Un anna call panni sonnadhum Indrajith ku call pannen but edukala..... Project pona pogatum ana avan demotivate agira kudathula adan ma..... Krishna said.
Mama coffee.... Magizh handed him a cup of strong coffee.
I badly need this.... Krishna said..
Magizh smiled at him. Magizh never interfered in their business talk or anything personal. She knows that they will share it with her if that is very important. So she never worried about it too...
Their evening time passed in the usual way, chatting, preparing dinner and eating it together but Magizh couldn't stop herself from asking this.
Mama avar Eppo varuvaru...... Magizh asked.
Enaku eduvum call panni sollala ma... Krishna said...
Pathingala Krishna en paiyan mela Magizh ku irukura akkaraya.... Vaanathi teased. Magizh blushed because that's the Truth she cares for him irrespective of the things he is making her go through. She wants someone to love her and she is ready to sacrifice and face anything for that.
She is just a kid who longs for love....
After having dinner they watched TV together and around 10pm when they decided to go to bed Krishna received a call from Indrajith.
After answering the call... Krishna looked at Magizh and Vaanathi. He hung up the call.
Ennachu mama.... Avar enga...... Magizh asked.
Avan avanoda Personal apartment la irukan ma... Naa poi kootitu varen... Nee inaiku un room la thoongu... Seekram poi thoongunga...... Krishna said and left without staying there for a second.
Magizh poi thoongu..... Vaanathi said understanding that something is wrong from the tone Krishna talked.
Illama avar vanda piragu thoonga poren..... Magizh said and sat on the couch. Vaanathi didn't know how to send her to her room. So she stayed with Magizh too.
Krishna went to Indrajith's apartment..... He ringed the door bell but he received no response. He twisted the knob of the door and it got opened.
He entered the apartment. The first thing landed on his eyes was his son lying on the couch in a drunken state and alcohol bottles scattered around him.
Shit.... He cursed and went near Indrajith.
Indrajith endri... He tried to woke him up. After trying to wake him up for 5 minutes Indrajith finally opened his eyes.
Appa... Vandutingala... Sorry pa... I lost the project..... He slurred..
Veetula lemon iruka.... Krishna asked.
Fridge la... Indrajith said pointing the kitchen.
Krishna made a lemonade for indrajith and gave it to him. He made Indrajith drink that. After Indrajith felt a little ok they decided to leave back to home.
Sorry appa... Indrajith kept on repeating.
Krishna couldn't say anything to his son who is asking sorry continuously like a kid.
It's not your fault indrajith... Vaa veetuku polam..... Krishna helped Indrajith reach the car and he drove his car to their home.
Indrajith..... Krishna called him.
Mmm... Indrajith responded.
Kudikadha da... It's not good for you health....... Krishna said.
Appa.... Nithya ponadhula irundu enaku eduvume nalla illa pa.... I'm losing everything..... Inaiku indha deal naa lose panna karanam andha anadhai naai thaan avazha enna panren nu parunga....... Indrajith said.
She has nothing to do with this. So edachum Magizh hurt panra mathiri pesuna aprom I don't know what I'll do.... Krishna said. Indhrajith's mind kept on thinking about Magizh.
Everything was good that unluckiest orphan thaan ellathukum reason.... He created his own foolish theory to put a blame on Magizh..
They reached home. Krishna got out first and he helped Indrajith to come out.
He helped him to get inside the home. Krishna didn't expect Magizh and Vaanathi would stay awake.
Aiyoo.... Magizh rushed to Indrajith.
(thittuvanga PT usha speed la vara ore ponnu neethan ma.... Author's mindvoice)
When Magizh held him he pushed her away and went to his amma..
Yen ma indha dhartiriyam pudicha saniyana en thalaila katti vachu en life ah naasam paninga..... Indrajith asked Vaanathi with his teary eyes.
Indrajith.... Vaanathi's voice didn't come out. Magizh who heard him calling her unlucky made her shocked. Her eyes started welling up.
Vaanathi's eyes landed on crying Magizh.
Indrajith enna pesitu iruka nee... Vaanathi yelled.
Don't yell at me. I lost a big deal because of this orphan.... Indrajith said.
Indrajith loosu mathiri pesadha. They terminated this deal. Magizh kum idhukum ennada samandhamum illa.. Stop blaming her..... Vaanathi said.
Oh really Amma. Everything was good indha naai moonjila muzhucha naala thaan I lost my deal.... Indrajith said...
Don't talk like a stupid Indrajith.... Krishna yelled this time.
I wonder what spell did she cast on you all.. Ellarum indha anadhaike support panringa..... Indrajith yelled.
Magizh couldn't understand what he is talking about.
You are drunk Indrajith kalaila pesalam...... Krishna tried to take him to his room.
Ennachu ma enaku onnum purila.... Magizh opened her mouth but at the wrong time.
You wanna know what happened.... Inaiku un moonjila muzhichitu ponen enaku oru periya deal venam nu terminate panitanga.... Indha mathiri nee unlucky nu thaan nee venam nu orphanage la un parents kondu poi poturupanga..... Indrajith said.
Magizh looked at Krishna..... Krishna looked at her helpless. He tried to safeguard her but she asked for this life.
Nee yen di uyiroda iruka sethu poiruka vendiyadu thane en life aachum thapichirukum.... Indrajith threw those venomous words
Indrajith..... Vaanathi tried to slap him but he held her hand and said.... You already ruined my life don't interfere in my life anymore..
Indha naai kooda vaazhanum nu aasa patingala vaazhuren... See her crying everyday...... Indrajith said and dragged Magizh to his room. Even though he stumbled due to his intoxication magizh held him.
She doesn't know to hurt anyone like Indrajith did. His words kept on ringing in her ears. Am I unlucky. Adhunala thaan amma appa enna venam nu thookipotangala...
Vaanathi and Krishna were watching them going.
You ruined her life Vaanathi.... Krishna wanted to say this but he controlled himself. He knows Vaanathi is already heartbroken by the way Indrajith behaved with Magizh.
Krishna, Magizh ezhuthutu poran.... Vaanathi said.
Vaa room ku polam.... Adan avan solitan la don't interfere nu..... Krishna took Vaanathi to his room.
He wanted to bring Magizh out of Indrajith life but when she is not ready to come out he can't force her too...
Indrajith dragged Magizh to his room. She didn't speak anything and went with him. He pushed her inside and locked the room.
She looked at him. He came to her and stood close to her.
She turned her face to the other side when the strong alcohol smell hit her face.
He got furious by this action of her and made her face him by grabbing her jaw.
Ennadi moonja thirupura....... He said. Magizh couldn't tolerate this smell.
She closed her mouth and nose with her hand.
Oh... Smell pudikada....... He asked . Magizh shook her head.
He left her hand...
I hate you...... Unna pathale kovama varudu...... He said and sat on the couch.
Aprom eduku enna unga kooda vachurukinga..... Magizh asked.
Nee illama thookam vara matingudu.... He said. She couldn't say anything. She couldn't understand the meaning behind this words.
Thoonkam varudu magizhini..... He said.
Kuzhichitu vanga thoongalam..... Magizh said forgetting all the things he said.
Mmmm.... He said and went to the bathroom staggering. Magizh sat on the bed and cried covering her face with her hands.
Ennala mudila kadavule.... Enna daily hurt panitu nee illama iruka mudila nu solraru... Enna inder ah purinjuka mudila...... Magizh cried. She heard the bathroom door opening. Magizh looked at him.
He came to Magizh and handed her the towel.
Thala tuvati vidu.... He said. Magizh closed her eyes for a second and did as he asked.
He was sitting on the bed and Magizh stood infront of him and dried his hair.
He put his hands around her waist. Making her eyes go wide. She looked at him. His eyes were closed he rested his head on her stomach and dozed off.
Magizh dried his hair and made him lie on the bed and covered him with the blanket. She moved to her side of the bed. She sat on her side and looked at his face. No one would believe if someone says he is the same person whi trash her with venomous words everyday..... Her eyes again landed on the picture of Nithya on the nightstand.
Neenga irundurunda Inder Happy ah irundurupara... Naa thaan avara kastham paduthurena...... She silently thought. Her eyes spill out tears.
Yeiii light off panitu vaa.... He said in his half asleep state.
Magizh turned of the light and lied on her side. She was pulled into a tight hug by Indrajith.
She couldn't control her tears. Why he is confusing me with his actions. What am I to him........
Magizh lost her sleep thinking about this questions about her life....
Hi makkazhe
Hope you like this chapter. Makkazhe some important exams arw coming up seekram busy aagiruven.
Seekram sandippom.
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