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Idc. Idfk anymore. I'm just lost right now. I'm dying to know why the fuck Kaedahara did that. I'd kill for that. Literally. I've found my hidden collection of daggers out of my locked drawer. I chose a particularly sharp one. It's my favourite. It almost cuts skin right on impact. I just need a push it a little to draw blood. It's perfect. The moment I grasp it in my hand my skills come rushing back to me. All my time as a Fatui Harbinger taught me how to hide my 'illegal' items. Knifes, poison, drugs, weapons, stuff like that. This means that it's a piece of cake to hide from Miko and Raiden.
(Next day) - Kazuha's lingering in the town
I lock my door, open my window, and jump out onto the grass outside. Knowing Kazuha, he'd be somewhere near the clearing but it's been pretty much 3 whole days as it's midnight now. He'll probably be near that café that Childe owns. There's an alleys down the side. I'll corner him there. My jacket has a pocket inside it so unless someone takes my jacket and unzips the pocket, they won't know that I have a knife.
My mask covers my lower face but not quite the whole scar. Ik this isn't a legal way to deal with shit but I'm me so I don't give a fuck. Yk, if I get caught, people generally know the face of the No.6 Harbinger, they usually fuck right off after they see my whole face.
Oh. Perfect Kazuha's coming out. He's not holding anything. He walks down the alley to find his way back to wherever he's going. Perfect, I can corner him.
I cover Kazuha's eyes with my hand then drag him to a more secluded area of the, fairly large, alleyway system. My hand moved down to his mouth so he didn't scream. I take him a couple steps back into a dark corner. I'm behind him, he's stuck against me as I pull my dagger out of my pocket and position it in front of his neck.
"Well... fancy seeing you here. Would you like to explain what happened?" - Scara
"S-Sc-Scaramouche...?!" - Kazuha
"You know my real name~" - Scara
"Y-yeah- Kunikuzushi, I-I can explain w-what happened!" - Kazuha
"I'm listening." - Scara
"She forced the kiss upon me. I'd n-never kiss her nor—
"How do I know you're not lying?" - Scara
I leaned forward and whispered in his ear.
"I-I...Kunikuzushi— y-you know that I'd never. I-I've openly said to you t-that I-I'd never have a relationship with L-Laila!" - Kazuha
Still whispering,
"Hm... yes, you have. I hope you can stay true to that." - Scara
Apparently my sleeves fell down as he was the bloodstained bandages on my forearms.
"What did you do?" - Kazuha
"None of your business." - Scara
"Tell me right this second." - Kazuha
"Kaedahara, I could easily slit your vocal chords right now. You're not in control here." - Scara
"I-I b-but..." - Kazuha
I tighten my grip on my dagger which definitely shuts Kazuha up. Good. I wouldn't want someone catching me now would I? That would just ruin the fun.
"Exactly." - Scara
I pull the knife away from his neck but he immediately switches our positions so his hands are on my shoulders ans I'm pinned against the alleyway wall. Shit. What's this bastard gonna do.?
"What did you do." - Kazuha
"..." - Scara
"Tell me." - Kazuha
"No." - Scara
"I'll tell your mother that you have illegal items." - Kazuha
"Hah. You wouldn't dare." - Scara
He pulled up Miko's contact and hovered his finger above the video call button.
"Ugh fine. I'll tell you but not here." - Scara
I grabbed Kazuha's arm and used my 'teleportation' ability from Miko so that we could get back to my cabin quickly. I left Kazuha sitting on my bed while I leaned against the wall in the corner of my bedroom.
"So? Tell me." - Kazuha
"I cut my arms open and tried to kill myself." - Scara
"You're serious?" - Kazuha
"Of fucking course I am." - Scara
Kazuha walked up to me, hugged me, we stayed like that for a couple minutes. Me being surprised and Kazuha with his head draped over my shoulder.
"Never do that again. Ever." - Kazuha
"No promises." - Scara
"Don't." - Kazuha
"..." - Scara
"Your mom declared you missing. You should probably talk to her." - Scara
"I will." - Kazuha
Remember how your 'mother' hugged you like this?
Do you remember what she did?
She almost killed you.
He'll do that again.
He's already almost got you dead.
He'll do it again.
Don't doubt it.
I know everything.
Run
Get away from him.
Run
Forget he ever existed.
Run
He's just luring you into his trap.
Run
He never loved you.
Run
He's just manipulating you.
Run
I push Kazuha off of me and teleport out of the cabin. That's right. He will. He's bad for you.
I'm outside my house. I'm leaving. Fuck this place. Fuck life here. Goodbye.
I spin on my heels and run off. I don't know where I'm going. I have my knives in my pocket. Police are on patrol tonight. Shit. I run and tuck myself behind a store with dark space behind it.
Idc if I'm not in the Fatui anymore. I'll take their victims right out out of their hands. Kill them better than they can. I'll be on the news, Kazuha will know who I am, Miko, Raiden, they'll know too.
I'll strike fear into the eyes of all my victims. I'll murder everyone with the same 'eyes' as I have. I'll murder anyone slightly reminiscent of Kazuha. I'll paint the walls of his bedroom in their blood.
Kazuha will be tormented by me.
And I won't regret it at all.
I unsheathe my knife as I see an employee walk to where I'm hidden. I'll make this quick. I pull them to where I'm standing then thrust my knife through their stomach. I twist it 360°, they cry out in pain as I take the knife back out and kick them to the ground. I use the blood spilling out of them and write on the store's wall.
"You know what you did." - Balladeer.
I always used to sign my kills as Balladeer, so that everyone knows who I am.
I'm The Balladeeer, No.6 of the Fatui Harbingers. Delighted to meet you."
No one fucks with a single member the Harbingers. They could easily fuck with Childe. He's weaker than 99.9% of my former Fatui Diplomats. Then again, Childe is the only human out of all 11 of us. Well, technically 9. I left, La Signora died. So, now it's technically 9
I shove my knife back in my pocket. I know my next destination. The Goth Grand Hotel. It's full of low ranking Fatui recruits. I can easily take them all out.
I teleport into the first room. Just one person huh? Headset on, not paying attention. I walk up behind their chair, spin it around and dig my knife through their heart. As they scream, choking on their own blood, I take their headset off.
"Anyone else here?" - Balladeer
"AH- N-NO! I-I P-PROMISE!"
"Aw~ are you sure you're not lying now...?" - Balladeer
"O-okay fine! M-my wife! She's in our bedroom! That door over there!" -
I twist my knife and pull it out.
I walk to the door, swing it open, and stab the wife 37 times in the chest.
She's dead. Good.
I write in their blood once again.
"This is all your fault, K.K" - Balladeer
I walk out, swinging the door open and breaking into the next one.
One girl - an adult -, two boys - children. I repeat my deeds and write another message on the wall.
"You too, Laila." - Balladeer
Watch the blood drip down the walls and down my arms as my hands are now coated in the blood of 'innocent' recruits.
I write more messages.
"Laila, you caused this."
"Ya know what? I actually did it."
"Kaedahara, you know who I am"
"You know very well who I am."
"Kunikuzushi, The Balladeer, Scaramouche,"
"I'm back."
"You'll regret everything."
It's almost dawn. I should go soon. I appear in the lobby and puncture the organs of both attendants behind the counter. I once again sign my work. Along with a little mention to Kaedahara too.
I hide my bloodstained knife and cover my hands, which are also covered in blood, inside my sleeves.
Their blood is warm, it smells and tastes sweet. My adrenaline rush slowly comes to a stop as I make it to a fast flowing river in the woods. I dunk my knife in, rinsing off the blood that's drying onto it. Afterwards, I hide it back in my jacket.
I wonder what their blood tastes like?
I bring my hand up to my mouth and lick it.
Oh
It tastes good.
Tf is wrong with me.
Eh. I don't give a fuck.
I dunk my hands in the fast flowing water, slowly I see the blood wash away down the stream. My hands are clean, clean of all the blood.
Shit.
I hear police.
I shoot up, shaking the water off of my hands, I dash further into woods, carrying my bag on my back. Inside it I have my old Fatui uniform. It's stained with slight amounts of blood tho—
I'm still in my old clothing. It's bloodstained, even more blood than my Fatui outfit.
I unzip my bag, hide my knife in a padded pocket, and take out my uniform. It's filled with memories, my trauma, more blood. I'm alone so no one's gonna be out here. I quickly change my clothes and stuff my old clothes into my bag.
I feel different. Like my old self. I have my old hat back, it's a stylised kasa hat, I like it a lot.
Now I'm sat alone, it's sunrise, I could be here with Kazuha, watching the sun rise, with my 'boyfriend' but my STUPID FUCKING CONSCIOUS said NO.
Awh~ is someone angry at themselves? You know that I'm just you. I'm you. And I'm only you. No one else. Just you.
So, when you say you hate me you're saying you hate yourself .
I'm pulled back into my head again. It's dark, empty, there's nothing in here but me... and [redacted]. [redacted]...
NO. You're [redacted]! I'm me! Kunikuzushi! That's me! I'm not [redacted]! Y-you're just trying to manipulate me! K-Kazuha wasn't! It was just you all along! Kaedahara distracted me from you!
I try to run back out to the real world, but I can't. My arms are bound by red strings. They cut into my skin. Gushing blood, it collects in warm pools at my feet. I fall down, arms strung above my head.
"LET ME GO!" - Kunikuzushi
"You have to let yourself go."
"NO! I-I— it's y-you! L-let me go!" - Kunikuzushi
"Imagine him. That's the key."
I imagine a light at the end of this endless plain of darkness. I picture Kazuha's smile, his hands, he's reaching one hand out to me. I can't grasp it.
I push harder as the strings dig deeper into my bandaged wrists. Drawing more blood.
As Kazuha begins to untie the string, I see Laila re-tying it. I'm trapped. Help... help me Kazuha...
Please...
I-I need you here...
I c-can't... I cant get out without you...
H-how could I do this...?
I'm sorry...
I'll try to make it back to you...
No. He's manipulating you. Run Kunikuzushi. RUN.
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This was an emotional rollercoaster. Well I'm sorry about the angst, I promise they will get back together dw dw. Also, thank you so fucking much for almost 200 reads. It means a lot to me!
Sooo, I don't really plan on 'killing' Laila exactly but— she's not gonna get away without any consequences. Anyways, love y'all platonically ofc. Eat, drink water, sleep yk take care of yourself. <3