They ended up not walking by their children's cribs on their way to bed, as they were just too hormonal to take the extra time to do so; rather, they wanted to go ahead and just get in bed with each other. They wanted to climb into bed, so that they could start doing something that they truly love doing. And that would be holding each other close, in each other's arms; but that was not the only thing that they were in the midst of doing, as they were also taking things nice and slow with each other (as they shared a sweet kiss together). A kiss that they love to enjoy with each other, for the simple fact that it was their quiet way to say 'I love you' to each other. It was the only action that was needed for them to tell each other that they love each other, and that was because of the way that they kissed each other; the depth of the kiss, and the feelings that were behind the way their lips (and bodies) moved against one another's as they shared a kiss. Moves that are just incredible, and that they are both happy they are in the midst of doing for each other; especially Jay, as Alex is calming him down simply by moving her body against the way she does right now. God, so sexy.
It almost makes him want to moan, but he knows that he can't do that right now; not when the twins are in their room, so close to them that they'll be able to hear Jay moan. And if he does it loud enough, then it'll wake them up; and that's the last thing that either of the parents want to happen right now, as they want to take time with each other. They want to hold each other close, and they want to make sure that they have a bunch of fun with each other; but they can only do that if Michael and Olivia are asleep, because they have to be their parents when they're awake...not that they're complaining. The thing that Jay and Alex love more than anything in the entire world, is being Michael and Olivia's parents. And that's a fact that nobody can ever deny, as they love their children more than life itself. Ever heard somebody say "I'd take a bullet for my child if I had to."? Well, that's how Alex and Jay felt when it came to their children. They mean the world to them, and they are ready and willing to protect them at all costs. They are their worlds, and their priorities. So, they are going to protect them at all costs...while they also enjoy themselves while doing it, as they are right now.
I mean, what husband doesn't want to take things nice and slow with his wife; as long as they have to chance to do so, while not having to take care of their beautiful children. If Jay has a chance to do this with Alex, then he's going to take whatever chance he has to do it. But that doesn't mean that he's going to go fast, as he also knows that Alex is still recovering from giving birth; both physically, and emotionally. And the last thing that Jay wants her to do is push it, then she may injure herself; and that's the last thing he wants her to do, both as the father of her children...and as the man who loves her more than anything in the entire world, her husband. And when he says in the entire world, he means it; he loves Alex, even more than his own children. And that will always be the case, as they have had a connection since they were first partnered up together in intelligence; and now, they have an even deeper connection as husband-and wife, as well as Michael and Olivia's parents. And while that connection has been tested lately, with them having to really deal with some hard things in the hospital; Jay believes that they're now stronger than they've ever been in the past.
For the simple fact that they've really had to deal with a lot lately, and Jay wants to make sure that Alex knows how proud of her he truly is; especially when she had to give birth prematurely in Los Angeles, and the way she just took everything in stride was the best thing that he's ever seen. Heck, it's why he's been waiting to do this for so long; because he wants to show his wife how much he loves her, and how much he truly admires her. When Jay says that Alex is the love of his life, he means every word of that sentiment; and he'll always mean every word in that phrase. "God, I am so in love with you." Laughing a bit as she heard Jay tell her that, Alex agreed with her husband; after all, she knew that was a fact a long time ago. "Jay, you can relax. I already know that." Taking a breath as he ran his hand up and down Alex's back, Jay agreed with his wife; but at the same time, he does want to talk to her about how much he truly means what he just said. He wants to explain to her how he feels, as he hasn't had a chance to do it yet, which is why he decided to roll over and just lay Alex down on his side, while also moving closer to her so that they can talk to each other right now.
Looking at Jay as he got close to her in bed, Alex smiled as she decided to wrap her arms around his torso; the wife feeling like Jay is going to want to talk to her right now, which she is more than okay with doing. If Jay feels like he needs to talk to her, then that's what she wants him to do. She wants him to talk to her, and she wants him to know that they can always talk to each other; if she doesn't make him feel that way, then she feels like he may not talk to her about when he has PTSD...which is the last thing that they need, because Jay needs to rely on her when he has PTSD. But right now, that's not the reason for the conversation that he and Alex are going to have; rather, it's going to be about what he just told her: how he loves her, and why his love for her has grown so much ever since the twins were born. "Hey, I want to talk to you about why I just said I love you; in fact, I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a bit." Alex agreed with her loving husband as he said that, but that didn't mean that she wasn't a bit concerned at the moment; I mean, he's saying things that are quite concerning. "Jay, I have no idea where you're going with this." Jay agreed.
"I know you don't, and I'm sorry that I'm scaring you; but you have nothing to be scared about, because everything's okay." Alex agreed with Jay as he told her that everything's okay, because that's exactly what she wanted to hear. "Okay, well that's reassuring to hear." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that, before moving his arm under her; after which, he wrapped it around her back and put it on her arm. At the same time, he put his other hand on her hip as he made sure to keep the woman he loves close to him; just like they both wanted him to do right now, as they love the feeling of being close to one another in bed. But right now, there was another reason that Jay wanted to keep the woman he loves close to his chest; and that was due to the fact that he wanted to talk to her about something, and he didn't want her to pull away from him. Rather, he wants her to stay close to him; and he wants her to just take it easy as they both hold each other close and talk about this subject that he's been meaning to talk to her about.
"Are you scared right now?" Taking a breath, Alex agreed with her husband; after all, she was a bit scared about what they're going to talk about. What wife wouldn't be a bit scared when it came to this, as they both need to talk about this. "Jay, of course I'm a bit worried. The way you're talking to me is completely abnormal, and I'm not sure where you're going with this." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that. "I guess, I just want to talk to you about how proud I am of you. I know for the past couple months; things have been really hard on us....ever since the kids were born." Alex sighed, agreeing with Jay completely; because she could see how hard things were for the both of them, especially Jay. "And I know that you really took things hard, and that you really did try and hide things from me while we were in the hospital." Alex was a bit taken aback by where this conversation was headed, as she didn't expect Jay to mention that; nor did she even think that he noticed. "I didn't think that you noticed." Jay shook his head and smiled.
"Alex, I know you were trying to make sure that I was okay; that I wasn't stressed out, that I was okay in my mental health. I know you tried to put me first, and I don't want you to deny that." Alex agreed with Jay as he told her that, as she knew that she couldn't deny that fact from him as he already knew what she did; and that was that she made sure that she took care of him at the hospital, while also making sure that she recovered so that they could go home. "Jay, I thought I was doing the right thing." Jay agreed with Alex as she told him that, well aware that was the case. "I know you were because you always do the right thing when it comes to us, when it comes to how we deal with things; but I'm here to tell you that you don't need to do it anymore, because we're a team Alex. Everything's okay now that we're home with the twins. I promise, we're okay now; I'm okay, and you don't need to hold back. You can talk to me, and you can let me in so that we can talk together. I want to be here for you, as we get back into our routine; a routine that we need to change now that we have those two little blessings over there." Alex agreed with Jay, smiling at her husband.
"And they might be our only little blessings, because I don't know if I want to get pregnant again." Jay agreed with Alex as she said that, well aware that might be the truth. "And if that's the case, then I'm going to respect your decision; and I'm going to make sure that we do whatever we can. But we can also just go with the flow, and we can see where this crazy life takes us; because I know for a fact that I am loving this life that we have with each other, and I wanted to let you know that I'm not going anywhere." Alex agreed with Jay as he told her that, well aware that was the case. "Oh, I know that Jay." Jay agreed with Alex as she told him that, before smiling as he leaned in and proceeded to kiss the woman he loves more than anything in the entire world once again. "God, I love you so much; and I just want to do this right now, as the kids take a nap." Alex bit her lip.
"Or we can talk about Christmas again."