"Dude... I fucked up real big this time.." Michael sighed.
"About what this time again- Wait wait wait.. I'm guessing it's about that Alice girl." He rolled his eyes, he showed an uninterested expression on his face before speaking once more again.
"You know what? There's nothing interesting about your love life anyway. Ain't interested in some kind of... Dolly plastic love so let me just take my leave" Jeremy stood up from his seat and turned around, ready to leave Michael but Michael suddenly spoke, stopping Jeremy from walking with just his words
"I wish it was but No.. it's not about her... this time, It's about y/n.." he muttered, but it was surely loud enough for Jeremy to hear. Jeremy remained standing, as if like he was battling if he should hear Michael's rants or go home and watch some boring shows that are showing on the television. But Then finally, he turned himself around, showing Michael a pissed expression
"Oh now let me guess that too. You almost killed her—AGAIN— and she cried and now you feel guilty." Michael then frowned upon seeing Jeremy cross his arms in annoyance
"Could you stop with that "let me guess"???? Just Hear me out now!" He furiously sighed, aggressively scratching his head out of annoyance.
"I do that at least ten times a week—or so—when I'm with you!" He yelled
"Oh Jeremy! Alice did bla bla bla! Oooh Jeremy! Y/n did bla bla bla!" He mocked Michael, copying even his accent but making it more dramatic and unbritish like.
"Alice this, Y/n that, I love this, I hate that, GIRLS ARE THE ONE WHO'S SUPPOSED TO BE ACTING LIKE THIS!!!" He yelled, which sent Michael to his silence.
Jeremy groaned and scratched the roots of his hair in annoyance
"Fine I'll hear your shit out! And this, this is the last time I will be doing this!" Then he finally sat, with his arms stubbornly crossed. Michael's eyes gleamed and light found a way on his face. Michael cleared his throat and started speaking.
"Okay...so...I know that it'll make me a total jerk to say it after what I did to her and what I said behind her back but.. man..." he paused with a deep sigh
"I like y/n.... I like her." He turned his head down on his feet, unable to lock eyes with Jeremy as he confessed his feelings. He is trying so hard to hide his face from jeremy thanks to the shame and embarrassment wrapping all around him.
Jeremy didn't speak for a while making Michael a little anxious. He felt like the air got thicker and Jeremy's silence made him feel like he's deaf. He turned his head up again once he'd finally had the courage to question why he was so quiet. And the first thing he noticed— out of all the curves and lines on Jeremy's face— was his eyebrows creasing ever so hardly on his face
"Dude. What's happening with you." Jeremy placed a hand in Michaels broad shoulder
"I don't know." He blandly answered him without even looking at his eyes, following by crossing his arms.
Jeremy let a disappointed sigh out, shaking his head left and right. He took his hand back from staying on Michaels shoulder too much
"You need to get yourself together Michael. I joined your group because I thought you were better than... This." Jeremy's eyes traveled from the tip of his toes to the last standing strand of his brown hair.
"You can't make up your mind on who you actually like, you keep on denying all things or easily taking things, you make things more complicated and blame it either to yourself or others, and that makes you weak." He said, or even warned perhaps. Noticably, his tone sounding more serious and deep, alerting Michael to take the words he's blabbering seriously
"I know." Michael nodded his head after sighing once again
After that, they both went silent, looking at the ground as they drown themselves with their own thoughts, mostly Michael.
Michael opened his mouth, ready to shoot a question when so suddenly, Jeremy spoke
"You're the only one who can fix this michael. But noticing y/n having so much trouble when you're around like a damned curse, I would suggest you to just let go and leave her alone." He whispered
Michael remained silent, guilt stabbing him ten times more worser.
"I am no love expert. And I've never even been into relationships but.. I saw how you look when you're with her. Well, not when you two are fightin', but when you two are together" He looked at Michael dead in the eyes.
Michael didn't responded and stayed silent for a while once again.
Jeremy was expecting atleast a reaction on his face but he was immediately downed. This is where he got the hint something else—more is happening.
"Anything else to say? Y'know therapy session's expensive, you gotta make the best out of a free session" He joked, which made Michael chuckle
"Yeah.." he looked down.
"Alright tell me. I'm all ears"
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"DUDE THAT'S IT. I'M DONE. I AM SO DONE. THIS IS FUCKED. YOU'RE FUCKED. " Jeremy yelled, basically making every person who passes by take a glance.
"No, I don't know him" Michael looked at the crowd passing by, then pointed his finger on Jeremy
"DUDE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! YOU SWORE IN YOUR MOTHERS GRAVE TO NEVER EVEN DO THAT!" he shook Michael up.
"HEY! DONT DARE DRAG MY MOTHER HERE YOU PIECE OF SHIT! I DON'T KNOW WHY I DID THAT TOO!" Michael whisper yelled
"Well, all I know about this is that, you're a total jerk" Jeremy crossed his arms and let a deep disappointed sigh out.
Michael was about to speak when Jeremy cutted him off again
"A self centered, fucked, mentally ill, horrible, harraser, total jerk." He added. Michaels face dropped into annoyance and just kept himself silent.
"Maaaan. What happened to you? The Michael I used to hang out with is so much better than this. Seriously" he looked at Michael with a concerned face
"I don't know. I'm slowly turning like my father... A total jerk. I mean- not the type of jerk like me but, a jerks a jerks. No difference." Michael pinched his nose bridge, then, for god's sake, sighed again.
"Apologize to her. That's all I can say man. Not with any shits or anything upsetting. Just apologize with your feelings, say what you wanna say." He patted Michaels shoulder. And left.
Michael looked down on where he sat and let himself be lost in thought
"It'd be better if you give her privacy first though" Jeremy came back, warning Michael
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"Y/n, I know what I did was something very wrong and very inappropriate. I stole your first kiss AND your second kiss. But swear, it was also my- GOD DAMNIT MICHAEL THIS AINT A CONFESSION."
Michael was walking towards the apartment you're in, basically practicing what he's going to say while he walks, but then suddenly realization hits him.
"What am I even doing." He turned around to the opposite way of your house, and started walking away
"Being with her attracts trouble.. I can't give her that." He sighed
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Y/n's pov
you were on your knees, on the cold tiled floor in your room. Everything is a mess.
Starting with your own bed, with its bed sheets all ruined and not properly tucked into the bed. And your desk chair, with its broken leg. All the papers and pen, comfortably seated on the desktop earlier, now are all scattered on the ground. The wall had little damage and scratches from all your throwing.
Your room was a total mess. And so was you
You couldn't stop panting while your tears kept on falling. All you can feel is anger and sadness.. you're in denial
"Why does it even have to be like this....??" You cried.
"There will be no way in hell I like him.. not after he ruined me. Not after he ruined my life!!"
You sat on the ground, in a position like you're a kid wanting to buy a toy but your mother won't allow you.
"Wait.. just, hold the hell on.. I hate him... But I like him.. But it's like... He's so annoying but something is sparkling when I'm with him.. and I wanna kill him but I wanna protect him- ew! That's cringe.. oh god this is all bullshits! That doesn't make sense at all?!!? Wait. Am I.... Am I finally going to lose it?? Am I going mad??"
You were busy talking with yourself when a sudden phone ringtone from outside your room interrupted you.
You couldn't just let it all there Alone, so you wiped your tears and your nose. You got up and took the phone
"..hello..?" You cleared your throat
There was nothing. So you just waited. You took the phone out of your ear when so suddenly you heard something from the phone.
"Hello???" You once again said.
There was static noises. As if like it's still trying to connect to the line. You waited for a response. But there was still nothing.
"Hello???? Who is this?"
You waited, but it's still the same. Your patience ran out and in the end, you just decided to hung it up. But as soon as you placed the phone down, it once again immediately rang.
You picked it up and there's still nothing. And you put it back down but it runged again. You furiously picked it up then spoke,
"Seriously Dude???? Cut it out with your stupid prank call! stop calli-"
"Y/n."
After hearing your name from a voice that you've always despised and feared, your heart immediately dropped. Both nostalgia and traumatic memories rushed in and flooded your head as you freeze. Adrenaline started running around your body
"Y/n, I'm talking to my sweet little y/n, right? I know my girl's sweet voice..." The man chuckled, you didn't respond
"Oh, where did you go? Hello? Are you still there?" From miles away, you know he's evily smiling, finally finding your phone number.
The man once again chuckled.
"What do you want." You bravely spoke, fighting the trembling and the fear that is currently, slowly, building up inside you
"Not to worry now my sweet little girl.... D-"
"Nope. Not this total bullshit again. I totally wouldn't let another shitty bastard ruin my day after it got ruined by one. Go fuck yourself dude" Not a second to waste, you immediately hung up on the phone
But not a second has passed, the phone once again rung. You picked it up then furiously listened to the voice
"Since when did you learn to hung up on your own father? Do you not love me anymore???" He evily chuckled.
"I will come and find you, and I will-"
"Will what?? Will grab me back there??? In your shitty life??? don't you have anything else better to do???? Look here 'dad' you better just leave us alone. If in the past we had nothing, we can't do anything, just remember... Now, we have EVERYTHING. You know what? I came to the conclusion that Maybe you couldn't leave us alone because you're insecure of your own life? That You only exist in peoples eyes when you're with Me and mom?! we are nothing but objects to use to you! You're so jealous because we live our lives to the fullest here while you rot there!! You're so jealous that mom finally found someone who could truly love and appreciate her while you're just alone there!! you've never changed! Like hell I believe in how you could even find us!" You yelled
"Don't speak to me that way! I raised you! And I am your father-"
"You're so fucking wrong! The only one who raised me is my mother! And my fucking mother alone!! I never had a fucking father!! And if I ever did, I doubt that it will be you! And hell if I ever had to pick between you and mom's boyfriend, I'd rather pick him! Because with him, we didn't need to rot with you there and we get to have the chance to have a good life here!! Oh and news flash, we're fucking rich here now!"
"OH YOU'RE DEAD Y/N YOU'RE FUCKING DEA-"
"SUCK YOUR COCK MOTHERFUCKER! EAT DOG SHIT!!!" You slammed the telephone back to where it belongs then immediately picked the whole thing up. You forcely threw it on the wall making such a mess.
"FUCK YOU!!" you screamed in great anger.
You stood there, gasping with every after breath you exhale. Your mind was a mess, you couldn't properly think. The room got messy and hot. Adrenaline still rushing through your body
you glanced at the poor telephone and groaned.
Mom barely gets mad, but Mom will definitely kill me because of this.
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5: 12
You started making your way out of your apartment to get some fresh air after cleaning up the mess you did. And none of that calmed your mind off so you went out to get air, To be able to properly think.
You don't exactly know where your feet are leading you to, but that doesn't pretty much matter since you know that you won't go far.
After walking quite a while, Gladly, some thoughts already faded away and you were finally able to properly breathe
You saw a bench on a random parking lot, and this tempted you to settle down for quite a little while. The view was setting the mood. You can see the sun setting down and the pale blue night taking over the sky. You couldn't help it but to watch the sky while the cold breeze brush your hair and thee warm sun keeps you warm enough to not be bothered by the cold breeze.
You took a deep sigh out of your chest and closed your eyes
Hey mom, do you think this is really the best choice?
You leaned your head on the bench with your eyes still closed, slowly letting all the crazy thoughts you have go. Your mind started to get lighter and lighter as you let more thoughts go.
"Y/n?" You heard a voice call, but that didn't bother you from opening your eyes to look who's calling.
You felt a warm figure settle down beside you. The familiar fragrance of that person quickly invades your nose, making you guess who's asking
"Aurora." You greeted her.
"I was just about to go to your house. You weren't picking up the phone so, I just walked my way here."
"That...." You looked at aurora, finally opening your eyes, then scratched your nape.
"You don't look so good by the way. You okay?" Aurora looked straight in your eye but You saw her holding a bag full of something.
"You ran away?" You raised a brow, tilting your head, changing the subject
"Uhm no." She rolled her eyes
"I have cash raining on top of me, a good looking and shiny house, cute and branded clothes, and I'm living so damned good, why in the hell would I abandon that???" She groaned which led you to chuckle
"We'll put those aside! I came here for a sleep over" Her face lit up as she leaned over for an answer and you couldn't help it but to sigh and give her a warm, soft smile
"Great timing, I have just the perfect tea to spill" you chuckled then stood up, signing aurora that you'll head back to your home
Aurora squealed and jumped in joy, running towards the direction of your apartment
"Hey!!" You laughed, chasing after her.