Bahja POV: me and Manny have been divorced for 4 years now and I'm still with r.j we moved in together about 1 year ago. mirical is 14 now and is driving me crazy...and I'm pregnant again.
Mirical:*reaching for a piece of chicken*
Me:*slaps her hand* don't touch it
Mirical: y are pregnant woman always so mean?
Me: don't make me jump across this table and hurt u. u knoe thts for r.j
Mirical:*rolls eyes*
Me: don't u have homework to do?
Mirical: did it already and besides its Saturday
Me: ok
I noticed she was texting and wouldnt look up from her phone
Me: who u texting?Kyane?
Mirical: nope
Me: then who?
Mirical: um...nobody u don't knoe them
I could tell she was lying
Me: who is it mirical?
Mirical: no one!
Me: don't lie to me. is it a boy?
Mirical: uh yes
Me: is it a boy u lik?
Mirical: he's kind of my boyfriend
Me: since wen?
Mirical: last month
Me: and u didn't tell me?
Mirical: I mean I didn't knoe how
Me: wats his name, where does he go to school, how old is he, and where does he live?
Mirical: Malik James my school 14 and idk he hasn't takin me to his house yet
I didn't know if I should be mad...I mean she's getting to tht age now where she's liking boys. I just don't wanna see my baby hurt lik I was.
Me: ok
Mirical: ur not mad?
Me: should I be?
Mirical: nope
Me: then I'm not
Mirical:*Kisses me* ur the best Mommy ever
Me: thank u now go get r.j his food is getting cold
She went into r.js room. Deshon was spending the weekend here so he was in the room with r.j.then they all came back
Deshon: wat u make?
Me: chicken rice beans corn bread
R.j: sounds delicious*sits down next to me*
Mirical: I'm going upstairs
Me: no ur eating down here with us
Mirical: bu-
Me: no buts
Mirical:*sits down* it's only lunch idk y we have to be together every meal
Deshon:*sits next to her* because u we have too stupid
Mirical: ur stupid
Deshon: ur stupider
Mirical: thts not even a word dip wad
Deshon: at least I knoe how to spell dip wad
Mirical: no u can't!
Deshon: yes I can!
Mirical:then spell it
Deshon: d-e-p w-o-d! dip wad
Mirical: u idiot thts not how u spell it
Deshon: wat ever I'm smarter than u!
Mirical: no ur not!
Deshon: yea I am! and I'm stronger
Mirical: no ur not I could beat ur lil a$$ right noe
Me: hey! watch ur mouth matter a fact take ur food upstairs
Mirical: thank u!*stands up with her plate*
Me: give me ur phone
Mirical: wat y?!
Me: now
Mirical:*gives me her iPhone*
Me: and no TV while ur up there
Mirical:*stomps upstairs* ugh! I hate this hell hole*slams her bedroom door shut*
Me: and u stop messing with her
Deshon:*rolls eyes and starts eating*
R.j: so babe I was thinking we could go to the movies tonight with the kids
Me: not mirical
R.j: y?
Me: her attitude is horrible
R.j: ok I guess me u and Deshon?
Me: ok I guess zonnique can watch mirical
R.j: she is old enough to be home alone bae
Me: I don't trust her do u knoe she has a boyfriend now?
R.j: since wen?
I could tell he didnt trust her anymore either.
Me: idk she said about a month
R.j: she didn't tell me tht...she tells me everything
Me:*shrugs*
Deshon: can I go to my room now?
R.j: um yea put ur plate in the sink
Deshon did wat he was told and went upstairs
Me: u ok? u seem upset
R.j: no it's just...mirical doesn't even talk to me anymore
Me: babe don't sweat it
Mirical came down in the shortest shorts u could wear she mind as well just not wear them. and she had on a tank top tht showed so much u could call it a bra.
Me: where are u going?
Mirical: to Maliks house
Me: dressed lik tht?
Mirical: he thinks it's cute...don't u?
Me: um yea wen u put the other half on
Mirical:*laughs* u funny but ill be back around 5
Me: u wont be back if u don't leave
Mirical: wat?
Me: go change
Mirical: y?
Me: go now
Mirical:*laughs harder* ur a real comedian ma ill see y'all later love u*goes to the door*
Me:*stands up and walks to block it* go upstairs and change or u can't go u better be glad I'm letting u go
Mirical: I don't see the big deal ma
Me: the big deal is tht ur going out side wear shorts tht show half of ur a$$ and a shirt tht shows more of ur body than a piece of string go upstairs and change or u can't go
Mirical: r u serious? r.j! can u explain to her tht wat I'm wearing is fine
R.j:*walks over to us* no I'm actually would prefer u not to go
Mirical: wat!?
R.j: go to ur room
Mirical: I hate u ppl can't wait till I'm out of this house and away from u!
Me: then leave*moves from in front of the door*
Mirical: wat?
Me: go u hate me? then leave and don't think zonnique will take u because she wont
Mirical: ur kicking me out?
Me: no ur kicking ur self out
Mirical: fine I'm done with ur bull s*** anyway*slams the door shut*
Me:*goes in the kitchen and starts to clean up*
R.j:*follows* u ok?
Me: y wouldn't I be?
R.j: because miri-
Me: tht was her choice to leave not mine
R.j: ok I guess
Deshon:*comes down with his book bag* my mom is here
R.j: wat?
Deshon: I asked her to come pick me up today
Me: ok bye I guess see u next week?
Deshon: yea bye dad
R.j: no wait a minute tell her to come inside
Deshon went outside and wen he came back he had bre with him
Bre: hey wats up?
R.j: this is my weekend to have him
Bre: he wanted me to come get him
R.j:Deshon? u don't wanna be here?
Deshon: I just wanna go home
R.j: y?
Deshon: because I do
R.j: fine I don't care no more u don't even have to come back*slams our bed room door shut*
Me: bye dey
Deshon:*hugs me* bye bee
Bre:*waves*
Me:*rolls eyes* let ur self out*goes in our room*
I saw r.j laying on the bed looking at the ceiling. he looked upset.
Me: babe u ok?*sits next to him*
R.j: I'm fine
Me: no ur not
R.j: I said I'm fine bahja!
Me: how u gonna yell at me wen I'm trying to help u?!
R.j: ur right...I'm sorry
Me: its ok
R.j: and thank u for trying to help I love u for tht
Me: I love u too
R.j:*pulls me to lay next to him*
Me:*lays on his chest* so we still going to the movies?
R.j: we could make a lil movie of our on*winks*
Me: no! u nasty
R.j: ok no movie just practice
Me: maybe
R.j: maybe?
Me: if u can catch me*runs out the room*
I ran downstairs laughing he was right behind me he picked me up right outside the kitchen.he put me over his shoulder with his hand squeezing my butt.
Me: hey! hands off!
he just ignored me and brought me to the bedroom and through me on the bed. he started taking off my clothes slowly. I was watching him and he started kissing me...then I remembered I was pregnant
Me: r.j baby no...u forgot?
R.j: oh yea...sorry
Me: its ok
R.j: its hard to tell wen ur so small at 6 months
Me: I guess
I got up and turned on the TV then plopped back on the bed. I heard the bell ring.I ran downstairs to get it.
Me: wat happened?!
Mirical: mommy plz let me in I'm sorry for before*looking over her shoulder*
Me:*pulls her inside and locks the door*now tell me wat happened
Mirical: I...I went to Maliks house and I think he was high or drunk and he came and grabbed me. he tried to take off my shorts but I wouldnt let him and I tried to leave but he threw me to the couch and got on top of me put I kicked him in his groin and he fell and I ran out. he ran after me...I think he followed me mommy
Me: its ok babe....see thts y I don't want I out in those streets lik this
Mirical:*tears up* I knoe I should've listened to u I'm sorry
Me: it's ok*hugs her*
The door bell rang
Mirical:*jumps up* mommy thts him!*starts crying*
Me: ill get it then
I opened the door. she was right Malik was either drunk or high.
Malik: wat did I tell yo a$$ about leaving?!*walks in the house*
Mirical: I'm sorry!
Me: um lil boy who are u to be walkin in my house lik tht?
Malik: b**** I'm Malik the realest n**** in da street boi
Me: well Malik realeat n**** in da street I'm bahja miricals mother
Malik: I can tell*looks at my butt* yo shawty maybe one day me nd u could u knoe do a lil sumin sumin
Me: lil boy get out my house
Malik:*grabs mirical by her arm* yea I'm leavin
Mirical: let me go!
Me: wtf u doing!?
He pushed pass me...to the floor. I couldn't get up.
Mirical: let me f****** go! Malik!
Malik: get in da freaking car!
Mirical: no! let me go!
Malik: b**** wen I tell u to do somethin u do it!
Me:r.j!!!!
y hadn't I thought of him sooner. well I'm glad I did he came out with no shirt on so his muscles flexed as he walked
R.j:*looks at Malik* there a problem here?
Malik: this b**** don't know how to listen
R.j:*makes him let go of mirical and slams him to a wall* listen here Malik realest n**** in da streets if u ever lay a hand on my daughter ever again I will rip off every part of ur body and feed them to u piece by piece
Malik: shawty said ha pops was in jail
R.j: well I'm not now get out...tht wasn't a threat it was a promise
Malik basically ran out. r.j came over to me and helped me up. then went to mirical who was shaking. he hugged her tight
R.j: it's ok baby he won't hurt u no more
Mirical: thank u r.j
R.j: ur welcome
Mirical: I'm sorry about wat I said before
R.j: look don't sweat it babe....I honestly didn't care
Mirical:*starts crying in his arms*
R.j:*wipes her tears* did he hurt u?
Mirical:*nods*
R.j: where?
Mirical:*lifts up her shirt to show a bruse over her right breast*
Me:*walks over to her and looks at it*
R.j: wat else did he do?
Mirical: threw a bottle at my head
Me:*turns her head around* my God mirical wen was this?
Mirical: last week
R.j:*getting angry* wat else
Mirical:h-h-he messed with me
Me: wat?
Mirical: he mes..messed with me
Me:*gets mad*
R.j: ill be back*goes to the door*
Me: no!*pulls him back* I don't need u out there killed or in jail
R.j: do u see wat he did to our daughter!?
Me: yes! but wat are u going to do!? kill Malik?!
R.j: if I have to
Me: no r.j!
R.j: so wat am I supposed to do?! let him go out on the streets and possibly hurt mirical again?! no! I wont let tht happen to her!
Me: baby plz don't go out there we have a baby on the way I can't have u in jail...or...or dead
R.j: bahja....
Me: plz
R.j:*looks into my eyes* fine
Me: thank u
Mirical: I'm gonna take a shower
Us: ok
She went upstairs r.j went in our room.
Mirical took a 20 min shower wen she was done I was up there cleaning and thinking. she walked in her room with a towel wrapped around her and her hair wrapped up with a smaller towel
Me: u ok?
Mirical: no but it doesn't matter
Me: yes it does matter
Mirical: no ma it doesn't can u get out so I can dressed?
Me: lil girl I used to dress u I'm not going anywhere get dressed
Mirical:*sighs and gets a bra and panties out her drawer*
Me: now how long has he been doing this to u?
Mirical: since before we dated
Me: wat do u mean?
Mirical:*puts her panties on* thts the reason I went out with him...he made me
Me:*sits on her bed* explain
Mirical:*puts her bra on* he...he always liked me but I never liked him. but he told me I have to or else he hurt me so I said yes
Me: how long is tht?
Mirical:3 months
Me: and u didn't tell me?
Mirical: I was scared
Me: u don't have to be scared to tell me anything
Mirical: I knoe*puts on a pair of spongebob shorts and a whinne the Pooh tank top*
Me: mirical
Mirical: yes?
Me: did he do anything else to u?
Mirical: no...just...fingerd me
Me: u sure?
Mirical:*nods* y-yes
Me: no ur lying mirical
Mirical: no Im not
Me: yes tell me the truth
Mirical: fine! he would...w-would eat my out time to time
Me: by force or u would let him?
Mirical: the first time was by force but then the last couple of times....I just didn't feel lik fighting anymore so I just let him do it
Me:*tears up* ok
Mirical: wats wrong?
Me: I just...I was the same age as u are wen I got pregnant with u
Mirical: and...u don't want tht to happen to me?
Me: exactly
Mirical: it wont mommy I promise
Me: thts wat I said to my mom...but it happened
Mirical: I'm serious ma it wont especially with r.j in the house
Me:*cracks a smile*
Mirical: u look tired go get some rest
Me: no I'm fine
Mirical: no go get some sleep now
Me: listen to u being my mom*stands up*
Mirical: yup*smacks my butt* now go to sleep
Me: ok ok ok
Mirical: but first*hugs me*
Me:*hugs back* wats tht for?
Mirical: because I love u duhhhh
Me: I love u too babe
Mirical:*kisses my cheek* now go to sleep