Ajax POV
He isn't picking up his phone.
23 missed calls and over 70 messages
I rubbed my eyes, frustrated.
Did Zhongli find out about my messages to my friend and tell him..?
Fuck. He probably thinks I'm weird now.
It's been a day and it's nighttime now..he left all his stuff here.
Is he at Kazuha's..? I dropped him off there last...
Is he home with Signora? Or..when is she even coming back from that trip?
This isn't right. No, I'm going over there.
His hair..his eyes..his pale, soft, smooth skin.
No, no..
I have so many other women I can have.
...
Either way, I should go find him.
I wiped the worried expression off my face as I sighed and stood off my rather hard bed, stretching my arm to the side.
I yawned as I was tired from hanging out with Zhongli.
He was constantly asking me to pay for him.
Everywhere, Everything, Everytime, Anytime.
I must have spent at least 2000 on him now.
Well...Zhongli is also a bit older than me.
Is an age gap of 3 or 4 years weird?
I thought as I continued walking down the hallways of my home.
I finally got downstairs and found the keys to my car.
I quickly ran out into the garage, choosing which car of the three to drive.
I chose the one from before, my new, shiny beautiful car. My velvet red, open-roof car. I love red...
I quickly got into the driver's seat, ignoring everything else I had to do.
Buckle up, take my driver's license, none of that.
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Scaramouche POV
I'm still so dizzy and seeing colors.
It's a lot better than before but...
I hate it.
I'm covered in sweat and I'm exhausted.
If I close my eyes..everything gets worse.
I can't...even think of Ajax the same anymore.
My high-school crush? Every one of those pretty girls..?
I can't.
...
I layed on the couch, restless.
Kazuha's cat laying on me as I pet it.
My bandages were soaked in sweat, forcing my healing cut to sting.
My vision, returning back to normal - was slightly blurred.
The cat, purring happily on my chest made me feel a bit better.
I picked the cat up, above my head as I stared at it.
Meow, meow meow.
That's all it says.
It's so stupid. It's so weird.
The stupid look in It's eyes...it's so happy and adorable.
I love it.
I smiled as I put the cat down on my chest again, the cat rolling over again on its back.
I touched its paws as it continued purring.
Just then - I heard the doorbell ring.
I panicked as I called Kazuha.
As Kazuha didn't answer, I rolled my eyes and got up.
I stood on the dirty floors, they felt grainy on my socks as I walked.
I glanced out of the window, just to find Ajax standing there.
I slowly opened the door.
With no excitement whatsoever, I glanced up at his face.
"Scaramouche...I was really worried. Where were you?" Ajax nervously asked.
"I just...lost track of time."
"You left my messages on read and didn't pick up any of my calls." Ajax crossed his arms, instantly making the atmosphere more irritable.
My skin was paler than usual and I had dark stains under my eyes.
I couldn't care less.
"Sorry."
Ajax uncrowded his arms and had a worried look on his face.
"Wait...are you okay?" He asked.
I shuffled past him and walked to his car.
"I am. Drive me home."
I honestly felt like crying.
"Are you sure you're okay? You're just-"
"I said I'm fine!" I raised my voice, cutting him off.
Ajax quickly widened his eyes and kept his eyes on the road.
I began tearing up as I rested my elbow on the door, covering my face as if I was just wiping my sweat.
The sadness I felt was more than my whole childhood combined.
Why was it like this?
I knew he wouldn't like me back.
Ajax came to a stop, away from my home.
He sighed as he turned back to me.
"If you don't want to say whatever happened that's fine, but I still need to invite you." Ajax said.
"What do you want?" I looked at him with angry eyes.
"I want you to come to a party with me tomorrow, could you at least do that for me?" He smiled.
"Well- ugh. Fine." I crossed my arms again as Ajax began driving.
About 5 minutes passed since the stop.
I'm still exhausted. Mentally and physically.
Why did I even say yes? I don't even want to go.
Well- maybe it will lighten my mood.
At least I hope.
The car slowly pulled into the small driveway of my house.
I saw Signora carrying her bags back inside the house, waving at Ajax.
I got out of the car and ran as quickly as I could inside.
Everything felt slow as my heartbeat raced my breathing.
I quickly ran up into my room, collapsing onto the floor.
I curled myself up into a ball and tried my best not to cry.
I layed expressionless, staring at my bruised knees.
The floor was a harsh surface but it didn't matter.
My eyes quickly fluttered as I noticed myself falling asleep.
I whined as I slightly moved.
Everything down to my will to live disappeared into thin air.
I slowed my breathing as I slowly fell into a half-asleep state.
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Ajax POV
I stood up from the seats of my car, walking towards Signora.
Despite my worries, I smiled and waved at her.
"Hey Sig, need any help?" I offered.
"No, it's fine. It's just one more bag. Thanks for being such a sweetheart though!~" Signora winked.
"Oh, haha! Well...how was your trip?" I asked.
"It was great! I got to go to the beach, I went shopping, and ugh it was amazing!" Signora laughed.
"How about you?"
...
"Uh, it's complicated. I can tell you over text later if you want." I looked away.
Signora gasped. "Is it that bad? I hope it's not anything too serious...well- I'm going inside then."
Signora blew a kiss at me before waving and walking inside.
I stared at her as she walked back inside.
I quickly got into my car.
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Scaramouche POV
I heard Signora walk into the house.
Her footsteps light and gentle, followed by some loud banging noises.
An incoherent pissed sentence of Signora's escaped her mouth.
She groaned before the loud object was dropped.
She hurriedly ran upstairs, I knew this wasn't going to be very pleasant.
Signora opened my door with excitement, only for her face to wash over in concern.
"Scar, what's- No..wait what happened?" Signora helped me sit up.
I held back tears in my eyes as she held my hand and stared in concern.
"Signora..." I shakily said.
"I can't fucking do this anymore!" I cried.
"Everything is gone! I have nothing to live for!" I shook in angst as I yelled.
I fell into Signora, hugging her as she fell onto the floor.
She let out a small gasp before pulling me up higher and putting one hand on my back, and the other on the back of my head.
I cried louder than I ever did.
"No, no. You matter...to all of us. Please stay alive for me." Signora said.
I hyperventilated as I made an attempt at talking.
"I- Signora- But what if I can't?! I can't..." I cried harder.
"What's making you feel like this?" Signora pet my head as she spoke.
"I fucking fell in love and- No, no no no no!" I buried my head into Signora.
"It's okay, it's okay...you'll find someone better. You can sleep in my room if you need to." Signora said.
"I get how it feels, really. Loving people is hard." Signora added with sincerity.
"Just calm down a little, I'll sit here with you as long as you need."
"I'll always be here for you...always."
She went silent as I gradually slowed my breathing and stopped crying as much.