FOR LILY, SHE'S EXPERIENCED ENOUGH pain and trauma in her life to the point that she's just given up on the idea of being happy or getting everything she wants in life, altogether. though she may be very successful with her fame from being a well-known youtuber and being best friends with the popular actress elliot james — and seems to have all the happiness and satisfaction that she should — it's all just an act. no one knows what truly goes through her head when she's alone. and after all the countless failed relationships — whether it be romantic or platonic — she stopped believing in the good of people. that is until she meets a certain group of brothers that are very well-known in the world — most importantly, the youngest brother of them.
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❝ if we're caught in a wave.
i will carry you over.
it don't matter where you are.
i'll run to your front door.
when my head goes in different directions.
you know my hearts never on the move.
and in the dark times you don't have to question.
if i'm 100 with you (with you). ❞
—OCEAN | MARTIN GARRIX, FT. KHALID!
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PLAYLIST!
PLAYLIST PART ONE!
1.] NOT THINKIN' BOUT YOU | RUEL, FT. BILLY DAVIS!
❝ YOU GOT ME FEELING THINGS I SWEAR THAT I HAVE NEVER FELT
AND YOU HAVE A WAY WITH SAYING WORDS THAT ALWAYS STICK AROUND
AND IF I SAW YOU OUTSIDE, HANGING OUT WITH ANOTHER GUY
LIKE YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT
NO I WOULD TRY, I WOULD TRY, I WOULD TRY
TO LOOK AWAY 'TILL I CONVINCE MYSELF
NO, I DON'T WANT SOMEBODY ELSE
FEELS LIKE I'M GOING THROUGH HELL
SO I JUST LIE TO MYSELF JUST TO PROVE. ❞
2.] ATMOSPHERE | BEBE REXHA!
❝ IF THERE'S WINNER AND LOSERS
THEN I'LL BE THE LOSER
I'M STILL HERE I CHOSE YOU
I DON'T WANT ANOTHER IF WE CAN'T HAVE EACH OTHER
'CAUSE BABY I LOVE YOU. ❞
3.] UNSTABLE | JUSTIN BIEBER, FT. THE KID LAROI!
❝ I TRIED TO SCARE YOU, SCARE YOU AWAY
SHOWED YOU THE DOOR, YOU ADORED ME ANYWAY
WHEN I WAS BROKEN IN PIECES
YOU WERE MY PEACE OF MIND
YOU WERE MY PIECE OF MIND
YEAH, YOU LOVED, YEAH, YOU LOVED
YEAH, YOU LOVED ME WHEN I WAS UNSTABLE
NEVER JUDGED, NEVER JUDGED
NEVER JUDGED ME WHEN I WAS UNSTABLE
TO LOVE MYSELF, TO TRUST MYSELF. ❞
4.] WHEN THE PARTY'S OVER | BILLIE EILISH!
❝ QUIET WHEN I'M COMIN' HOME AND I'M ON MY OWN
I COULD LIE, SAY I LIKE IT LIKE THAT, LIKE IT LIKE THAT
I COULD LIE, SAY I LIKE IT LIKE THAT, LIKE IT LIKE THAT
DON'T YOU KNOW TOO MUCH ALREADY?
I'LL ONLY HURT YOU IF YOU LET ME
CALL ME FRIEND BUT KEEP ME CLOSER (CALL ME BACK)
AND I'LL CALL YOU WHEN THE PARTY'S OVER. ❞
5.] SHE | ZAYN!
❝ SHE WANTS SOMEBODY TO LOVE
TO HOLD HER
SHE WANTS SOMEBODY TO LOVE
IN THE RIGHT WAY
SHE WANTS SOMEBODY TO LOVE
TO KISS HER
SHE WANTS SOMEBODY TO LOVE
IN THE RIGHT WAY
SHE'S CRYING OUT THAT SHE LOVES ME
HOLDING MY HANDS SO I WON'T LEAVE
CAUSE BABY DON'T WANNA BE LONELY
SHE SAYS, "I JUST WAN'T YOU TO HOLD ME." ❞
6.] REAR VIEW | ZAYN!
❝ HEARD ABOUT ALL THE THINGS YOU'VE DONE
AND ALL THE WARS THAT YOU'VE BEEN IN
HEARD ABOUT ALL THE LOVE YOU LOST
IT WAS OVER BEFORE IT BEGAN (OH-OH-OH)
HEARD ABOUT THE MILES YOU'VE GONE
JUST TO START AGAIN
HEARD ABOUT ALL THAT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH. ❞
7.] FOOL FOR YOU | ZAYN!
❝ WHEN YOU'RE LOOKIN LIKE THIS
I JUST CAN'T RESIST IT
I KNOW SOMETIMES I HIDE IT
BUT I CAN'T THIS TIME, 'CAUSE IT'S GONNA DEFEAT ME
BUT YOU WON'T BELIEVE ME
BELIEVE ME
'CAUSE I'M A FOOL FOR YOU
AND THE THINGS YOU DO. ❞
8.] LOSIN CONTROL | RUSS!
❝ SHE'S FALLING BUT SHE DOESN'T THINK HE'LL CATCH HER
'CAUSE HER LAST RELATIONSHIP WAS A DISASTER
ACCUSATIONS EVERY DAY SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHY
ALL HER CALLS WOULD BE IGNORED HE'S ON HIS OWN TIME
SHOULDA' ENDED IT BEFORE IT STARTED
ALL SHE EVER GOT WAS BROKEN HEARTED
HE WAS CHEATING ON HER TRYNA' FLIP IT
BACK ON HER LIKE A VICTIM
NOW SHE'S ALL ALONE AND STARTING OVER
NOW SHE'S GOT BAGGAGE ON HER SHOULDER
BUT THE NEW GUY REALLY LOVES HER
SHE LOVES HIM BUT SHE DOESN'T TRUST HERSELF. ❞
9.] BEST | GRACIE ABRAMS!
❝ AND I DESTROYED EVERY SILVER LINING YOU HAD IN YOUR HEAD
ALL OF YOUR FEELINGS, I PLAYED WITH THEM
GO AHEAD, WE CAN JUST CALL IT CONDITIONING
WE WERE TOO DIFFERENT
YOU WERE SO SENSITIVE
GAVE ME THE BEST OF THAT, I WAS SO NEGLIGENT
NOW I FEEL TERRIBLE ABOUT HOW I HANDLED IT
AND NOW I
NOW I BET YOU RESENT ME, ALL OF IT
ANGRY, BLOCKING ME OVER THE INTERNET
PROMISE, I DON'T ALL OF MY FAULT IN THIS
'CAUSE LOOK AT ME, I'M ALONE, SITTING HERE, STAYING HOME
ALL OF MY SELF CONTROL KINDA GOT DIFFICULT
BUT I DESERVE IT THOUGH
I DESERVE IT THOUGH. ❞
10.] INTO YOU | ARIANA GRANDE!
❝ GOT EVERYONE WATCHIN' US
SO, BABY, LET'S KEEP IT SECRET
A LITTLE BIT SCANDALOUS
BUT, BABY, DON'T LET THEM SEE IT
A LITTLE LESS CONVERSATION AND A LITTLE MORE TOUCH MY BODY
'CAUSE I'M SO INTO YOU, INTO YOU, INTO YOU
OOH, YEAH
THIS COULD TAKE SOME TIME, HEY
I MADE TOO MANY MISTAKES
BETTER GET THIS RIGHT, RIGHT, BABY. ❞
11.] FEELS LIKE | GRACIE ABRAMS!
❝ I WOULD DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED
WE DON'T HAVE TO LEAVE THE APARTMENT
MET YOU AT THE RIGHT TIME
THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
LIVING IN A MOVIE I'VE WATCHED AND
FUNNY, 'CAUSE YOU COULDN'T HAVE CALLED IT
MET YOU AT THE RIGHT TIME
THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
AND I NEED YOU SOMETIMES
WE'LL BE ALRIGHT
MET YOU AT THE RIGHT TIME
THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
AND I MISS YOU SOME NIGHTS
WE'LL BE ALRIGHT. ❞
12.] MESS IT UP | GRACIE ABRAMS!
❝ DID I FALL (DID I FALL) OUT OF LINE (OUT OF LINE) WHEN I CALLED YOU?
WHEN I TOLD (WHEN I TOLD) YOU "I'M FINE" (YOU "I'M FINE")
YOU WERE LIED TO (I TOLD YOU I'M LYING)
HOW COULD I THINK THAT ALL THAT I GAVE YOU WAS ENOUGH?
'CAUSE EVERY TIME I GET TOO CLOSE, I JUST GO MESS IT UP
I KEEP THINKING MAYBE IF YOU LET ME BACK IN
WE CAN MAKE IT BETTER, BREAKING EVERY HABIT
PULL MYSELF TOGETHER, YOU COULD WATCH IT HAPPEN
LET IT HAPPEN, LET IT HAPPEN. ❞
13.] I FEEL IT COMING | THE WEEKND!
❝ YOU'VE BEEN SCARED OF LOVE AND WHAT IT DID TO YOU
YOU DON'T HAVE TO RUN, I KNOW WHAT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH
JUST A SIMPLE TOUCH AND IT CAN SET YOU FREE
WE DON'T HAVE TO RUSH WHEN YOU'RE ALONE WITH ME. ❞
CAST!
OLIVIA RODRIGO
as
LILIANNA QUINN !
❝ the mentally ill & traumatized girl! ❞
19 | taurus | bi | influencer & youtuber & singer
insta: lilquinn
youtube: lilianna quinn
SADIE SINK
as
ELLIOT JAMES !
❝ the over-protective, platonic, sisterly-friend! ❞
20 | gemini | straight | actress
insta: ellejames_
MILLIE BOBBY BROWN
as
ANDY ANDERS !
❝ the sunshine friend! ❞
19 | virgo | pan | influencer & youtuber
insta: andy_anders
youtube: andy anders
NESSA BARRETT
as
HERSELF !
❝ the mentally-ill-bonded friend! ❞
20 | leo | bi | influencer & singer
insta: nessabarrett
KIT CONNOR
as
RALFIE MOON !
❝ the good friend with the same reading tastes! ❞
19 | aries | bi
insta: ralfiemoon
JOE KEERY
as
JACKSON MANKS !
❝ the over-protective and wise father-figure! ❞
24 | leo | straight | actor
insta: jakemanks
ZOEY DEUTCH
as
ALLISON QUINN !
❝ the over-protective mother-figure and sister! ❞
23 | pisces | straight | actress & youtuber
insta: allsquinn
youtube: allison quinn
CHRISTOPHER STURNIOLO
as
HIMSELF !
❝ the goofy boy that changes her life! ❞
19 | leo | straight | youtuber
insta: christophersturniolo
youtube: christopher sturniolo / sturniolo triplets
NICOLAS STURNIOLO
as
HIMSELF !
❝ the new iconic friend that is almost exactly like her! ❞
19 | leo | gay | youtuber
insta: nicolassturniolo
youtube: nicolas sturniolo / sturniolo triplets
MATTHEW STURNIOLO
as
HIMSELF !
❝ the new friend with lots in common with her! ❞
19 | leo | straight | youtuber
insta: matthew.sturniolo
youtube: matthew sturniolo / sturniolo triplets
MADI FILIPOWICZ
as
HERSELF !
❝ the quickly-bonded friend that understands her the best! ❞
18 | taurus | straight | actress & influencer
insta: madifilipowicz
ALAHNA ESTRELLA
as
HERSELF !
❝ the confident and good influence on her! ❞
20 | aries | bisexual (?) | influencer
insta: alahna111
SABRINA QUESADA
as
HERSELF !
❝ the other trauma-bonded friend! ❞
21 | pisces | straight (?) | youtuber & influencer
insta: sabquesada
youtube: sabrina quesada
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DISCLAIMER!
firstly, i want to say i'm a little rusty with social media fics, so take it easy on me! the last one i did was my chris woods fic that unfortunately i deleted a year ago because i just wasn't vibing with it. also, another thing, this may be just a fanfic, but if the triplets find this and become uncomfortable with the fic and everything with it (though, i highly doubt they'll ever see it, since they don't know i exist), i will IMMEDIATELY delete it because that's the last thing i want. and i will not be sexualizing them in this fic in ANY way. if you are someone who does do that, please be respectful. this fic will also feature some dark themes, such as depression, trauma, abuse, etc., you're warned. i hope everyone enjoys this <3.
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STATUS!
started: 11/01/22
finished: tba
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