I decided to take a shower to calm myself, the face of Styx was lingering on my mind and I couldn't help but to groan when heat started to eat my whole being.
I almost rolled my eyes while water started to come into contact with my bare skin. I almost had sex with Styx! And I fucking respond to his kiss and the worst is I begged him to touch me.
After cleaning myself I brush my teeth and do my skin care routine. Hanggang sa paglalagay ko ng mask sa mukha ay ramdam ko pa rin ang pag-init ng mukha ko sa eksena namin kanina. Good thing that his secretary called kaya naudlot ang dapat hindi mangyari.
Humiga ako sa malaking kama para mamahinga pero hindi ako tinantanan ng mga pangyayari kanina. Pakiramdam ko ay nakadikit pa rin sa labi ko sa labi ni Styx. Muli na namang mamula ang mukha ko. I fucking hate myself because I let him see me in that state. I should be happy because I know I was already in the middle of my plans but I couldn't help to feel nervous while recalling how I reacted with his stares. His dark eyes that didn't leave my gaze as if I was the only he was seeing. My heartbeat whenever it raced with the sudden contact of our skin.
Damn.
Duex would be mad if he knew that I was feeling the little shit again.
Bumangon ako sa kama para lumabas ng room, binalot ko na lang ang sarili ko ng silk robe bago naglakad papunta sa elevator. Hating gabi na kaya wala nang masyadong tao, mayroon akong ibang taong nakikita pero isang direksyon lang ang pinupuntahan nila.
I gulped when I heard a loud music came from one of the area of this hotel, the sound is so relaxing that I almost let myself drowned with the melody. I bit my lower lip before proceeding to that place. Hindi ganoon karami ang tao pero sapat na para sabihin kong hindi ganoon kalawak ang lugar.
I turned my gaze to the man who was sitting comfortably at the couch, he was with a girl. That girl seems familiar, maybe she was in showbiz or into business?
Nevermind, I don't care rin naman.
Hindi ko pinansin ang nakakatusok niyang mata, I rolled my eyes before going to the place where I can forget that man just for a moment.
"Just ladies drink," I said and licked my lower lip because his stare was making my heart beat furiously.
Sandali lang ay inabot na sa 'kin ng bartender ang in-order ko. Agad kong ininom 'yon at hindi pinansin ang nakakatusok na tingin ng lalaking kanina lang ay may kasamang babae.
Nasaan na? I thought they would talk with each other a bit and proceed to their room to do . . . wonders.
"Can't sleep?" Hindi ko namalayan na nakaupo na siya sa katabi kong stool. Hindi ko siya pinansin at nagpatuloy sa paglibot ng mata sa mga taong halos mag make-out na sa lugar na ito.
He sighed and stole my drink, he poured it in his mouth as if he was the one who bought it. I rolled my eyes and gulped as his presence affected my system.
"Bakit ka ba nandito?" I tried not to stutter.
"I know you'll go out," he simply replied.
I cleared my throat before looking at his eyes. "And you care because?"
He took a deep breath before looking at my eyes intently, he shifted his weight and leaned closer to me.
Nahigit ko ang hininga habang magkalapit ang aming mukha, I could feel my cheeks burned at his sudden move.
Ramdam ko ang pagbigat ng hininga niya nang makitang matapang na nakatunghay din ako sa madilim niyang mata. Ayaw kong ipakitang sobra akong naapektuhan sa presensya niya kahit na sa mga sandaling ito at ay lunod na lunod na 'ko.
"I always care, Xhia." Inalis niya sa mukha ko ang mga hibla ng buhok na nakaharang doon. Ilang beses akong napalunok at sandaling nag-iwas ng tingin bago ibinalik sa kanya ang tingin.
"Liar," I murmured.
He chuckled lightly when I hit his chest.
Nakaramdam ako ng kakaiba nang sandaling dumampi ang kamay ko sa balat niya, hirap na rin akong tumingin ng diretso sa mata niya dahil alam kong aliw na aliw siyang nakikita akong hindi komportable sa lapit namin.
He licked his lower lip then tilted his head a bit. "You're so cute, Xhia."
My face reddened more. "Shut up," asik ko na lalong nagpangisi sa kanya.
Dumapo ang tingin ko sa braso niya nang ilagay niya 'yon sa likod ko. Ilang beses akong lumunok habang pinagmamasdan ang maugat niyang kamay, nakakadagdag sa init na nararamdaman ng katawan ko.
"Still, my little tigress," he whispered between his smirk.
I groaned. "Oh shut up, just go away and leave me here. Tutal, doon ka naman magaling," inis na saad ko at tinawag ang bartender para bigyan ulit ako ng inumin. Natahimik naman siya sa sinabi ko at bahagyang naubo pa. I gritted my teeth while waiting for my drink. I tried to stare at him from my peripheral vision and he is now looking at the stage, emotionless.
Hindi ko alam kung tinamaan na ba 'ko ng alak dahil may tapang akong magmaldita sa harapan niya kahit na aliw na aliw siya sa pag-akto ko. I chose to ignore him and played with my hands. It was so awkward because no one dared to break the ice.
"Do you know that when I was still a child, my father abandoned me?" I suddenly asked out of nowhere. Tulala lang ako sa baso ko habang pinaglalaruan ng yelo no'n. Ramdam ko ang tingin niya sa 'kin pero hindi ko 'yon pinansin at ngumiti na lang ng mapait.
"Sabi ko, kapag ako nagkaanak hindi ko hahayaang maranasan niya ang mga naranasan ko. I'll find a man who will love my child more than the love he could give to me." I gulped when I met his eyes. It was deep and looking at me as if seeking something in my soul.
"And after years of waiting, I thought I had already found that man. He makes me happy, he never lets my demons bother me every night 'cause he's ready to sing me a lullaby. He'll kiss my forehead before leaving my room." My eyes welled up when I started to become emotional.
Lumamlam ang mata niya habang nakatingin sa 'kin. Sarkastiko akong natawa dahil sa kadramahan ko. Punyeta, kung pwede lang lumubog sa kinatatayuan ko ay ginawa ko. Hinding hindi ko hahayaang makita niyang may pumatak ang mga luha ko kaya ginawa ko ang lahat para patuyuin 'yon at hirap man dahil parang may malaking batong nakabara sa lalamunan ko ay lumunok ako.
"And it wasn't you, it was Duex who saved me from drowning on my own thoughts," matigas na sambit ko kasabay ng pamumula ng mata niya.
Iniwas ko ang paningin nang maramdaman na namang mamasa ito. Parang may tumutusok sa dibdib ko habang nagsisimulang kumarambola 'yon sa loob ko.
Styx remained silent and I was too. His lips were in thin line and didn't bother to talk because I knew he was guilty.
Tama 'yan.
Ma-guilty sa ka mga bagay na ginawa mo sa 'kin. I suffered alone without him in my side. He let me face my demons without knowing I was already weak. Sanay silang makitang matapang ako but deep inside I was also very weak and fragile.
Na kaunting sigaw at maling masabi mo lang sa 'kin ay hindi na magkamalay ang puso ko. Hindi ko man ipakita ay nasasaktan 'yon dahil sa mundong ginagalawan ko ngayon ay ang pagiging mahina ang huling bagay na maaari kong ipakita sa kanila.
I was about to go back to my room when he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. I accidentally inhaled his manly scent and I gasped when he encircled his arms and enveloped me.
"I'm sorry," he whispered, his voice so weak.
I bit my lower lip and smirked evilly. "Sorry for what?"
Mas lalo niyang siniksik ang mukha sa leeg ko dahilan para hindi ako maging komportable sa posisyon namin.
"I'm really sorry, Xhia."
Mabilis ko siyang tinulak at sarkastikong tumawa. Napaawang naman ang labi niya at umatras dahil sa ginawa ko.
"If you're really sorry then transfer all of your shares under my name," puno ng tapang na sagot ko. Mas lalong umawang ang labi niya at hindi makapaniwalang tiningnan ako.
"You can't do that? Then we have no reason to talk," pinal na sagot ko at akmang aalis na ulit pero mabilis niyang nahagip ang kamay ko at hinatak papalapit sa kanya. Inilagay ko ang kamao sa dibdib niya at mataman siyang tinignan. Mapungay ang mata niya 'kong pinagmasdan at iniangat ang kamay para marahang haplusin ang pisngi ko.
I closed my eyes when his soft hand touched my cheeks, I was so sure now that it was already crimson red.
"Do you really want all my shares?" he softly asked, I nodded.
"Hmm. . ." he hummed and started to plant a kiss at the side of my lips.
"Styx . . ." I whispered when he began making circular motion on my waist. Ramdam ko ang mainit na hininga niya na tumama sa mukha ko.
"Then my shares would be transferred under your name as soon as possible," he said as if he could immediately process the paper overnight.
A smile plastered on my lips trying to supress the true emotions inside me. I was surprised that he'll agree that fast but I remain calm while containing my emotions.
"Are you sure?"
He kissed my temple and nodded. "For my love."