The past 2 months were the same everything would be quiet for a week or two them boom Alex would come to my door drunk off his head on god knows what and again tonight was no different with the dreaded knock on the door
"That's it I've had enough" I snapped answering the door and none other than the man himself at the other side "Lucy why won't you take me back" he drunkinly slurred "alex I've had it up to here with this bullshit I'm not putting up with it now fuck off" I huffed closing the door but Alex stopped the door fully closing with his foot
"Come on don't be like that can I come in please" he asked Stumbling "no Alex you can't rhiannons asleep and if she wakes up to see you like this it will upset her" I said she saw alex like this drunk from her bedroom window from times he would come drunk and I wouldn't answer and it would distraught her
"I haven't seen her please can I just come say hello quickly" he asked "alex no I'm not letting you see her when your like this" I felt bad for not letting him see her I wouldn't do that for our differences but I won't let him see her when he's like this and if that's not his wake-up call then I don't know what is
Alex's eyes began to leak tears his expression was angry "you can't fucking stop me from seeing my daughter what gives you the fucking right" he snapped I wasn't shocked he reacted like this but someone has to tell him
"I'm her mother and you her father do you think she wants to see her dad drunk alex she's nine she's too young for this and until you get your act together then I'm sorry but as a mother I need to do what's right for rhiannon" I stated
"Your a evil cold hearted bitch you know that" he raised his voice now I was shocked never in a million years would I thought alex would ever say that to me "you got what you wanted you used me Lucy and at the slightest chance of getting rid of me you ran with it" he drunkinly slurred with rage I tried not to cry it wasn't true It wasn't
"You cheated on me alex and you expect me to run back to you with open arms fuck you" now raising my voice "I never fucking cheated alright can't you get that through your mind" he yelled
"You can't even admit it piss off alex don't even think about coming back near here" I yelled back
"You know what Me and you were done"he nearly tumbled down the stairs outside "I fucking hate you" I yelled slamming my door shut locking it turning with my back against the wood sliding down sobbing my eyes out
I took my phone and called miles to get him to talk some sense into alex punching in the numbers and pressed call I waited on an answer within 2 rings miles picked up
"He was at yours wasn't he" miles sighed all I did was sob my heart out "he's a prick miles I hate him" was all I said "what happened" miles asked I told him everything miles said I was in the right no parent would want their child to see that and said he'll talk some sense into him when he's home and sobered up hopefully he makes a change
(Miles pov)
I sat waiting on alex coming back drunk I had it with him I love him he's my best mate but sometimes you can feel like you want to knock some sense into them and that's what I'm going to do
I waited on the armchair for about an hour but Alex didn't come home it was late I tried to call him but no answer I couldn't be bothered with awaiting worried about him anymore he'll most likely took the wrong turn and got lost down the street I was so tired all I wanted was sleep
I entered my bedroom l laid on my bed trying to drift off to sleep but I can't stop worrying about alex what if he's lost, been attacked anything can happen when he's pissed out his head 'fuck this' I mentally said pulling out my phone trying to ring alex Soon enough he picked up
"Lucy?" He slurred I could hear him Stumbling around his footsteps loudly plodding along the ground
"Alex where the fuck are you" I asked worryingly
"Your not my lucy" he said I scoffed down the phone
"It's miles you dickhead now WHERE, ARE, YOU" I asked again only this time more harsher
"I'm at your fucking door but your not answering" alex drunkinly slurred I let out a sigh not again the poor neighbour at the at the next street must be sick and tired like the rest of us all
"Stay there and DON'T move" I demand swiftly shoving my shoes on and jacket and bolting out the door
'Just great' I mentally cursed as the rain poured down my head I ran down the street my eyes peeled for alex he needs some sense smacked out of him
Soon enough I spotted him sitting on a curb nearly falling on the ground "look at the state of you alex" I sighed helping him up he throw and arm over my shoulders letting all his weight on me
"Miles I've lost them" he mumbled here we go the emotional stage of the night "just let's get home mate" I said as we well I walked us home
"Miles I've lost my life Lucy my daughter I don't know what to do" alex said a tear slipping his eye as we were nearly at my house "alex I'll talk to you when your sober" I sighed again
Once we got into mine I got alex into the spare bedroom he tried to take his jacket off but failed so I helped him take his jacket off along with his shoes "miles I'm sorry" he mumbled as his head hit the pillow where he swiftly feel asleep on
I looked at him with a heavy sigh "where did It all go wrong for you mate" I whispered exiting the room and into my own bedroom calling it a night
The next morning I entered the kitchen getting some painkillers and water for alex making my way to the guest room opening the door to see alex on his phone probably looking at photos of him and Lucy
"Miles I'm sorry about last night it's" he said before I cut him off "Save it al mate we seriously need to talk" I started getting into another lecture "you really need to get your act together do you think going to Lucy's door nearly every night pissed is going to make her forgive you" I asked him he just looked at his hands in sorrow
"I don't know what's gotten into me she hates me I said she used me I never meant it but she's stopped me seeing rhiannon" he whispered softly "and do you blame her alex come on if that's not a wakeup call to get your fucking act together I don't know what is this is not you" I said well nearly yelled I felt bad for saying it but he needs a good telling
"I know that miles I know but it's hard not being with her anymore it's always been me,Lucy and Rhiannon thats all I've ever known and I fucked it up" he snapped sitting up running a hand through his hair
"I know alex but going to pubs or wherever else you go to and writing songs isn't going to help you really do need to get it together for rhiannon" I said before getting up and leaving the room
(Alex's pov)
Miles is right I do need to get my shit together for my daughter I knew that last night was enough for me but Lucy saying she hates me kills me makes me want to drown my sorrows on a bottle but no I'm not having another fight with a bottle of whisky if i did then the bottle will win
So I decided to take my mind off it with writing my feelings down pouring my heart out to the paper on my lap
(Lucy's pov)
I didn't want to go out not now anyway after last night all I did was cry I didn't even sleep and I promised rhiannon I'd take her shopping today have a mummy and daughter day with kaite joining us I couldn't say no now
I got dressed wearing my old leggings and a sweater since it was a bit chilly today along with my old boots I grabbed my long coat rhiannon wore the same but only her favourite converse and her puffy jacket
We got into the car and drove to kaites to pick her up "you excited to see auntie kaite" I asked rhiannon "Yeah I miss auntie kaite and uncle Jamie" she said "I know" I sighed I tried to avoid going to the boys house incase alex was there I felt bad doing so but everyone was so understanding
We arrived at kaite and Jamie's home kaite was outside waiting on us she got into the front passenger seat saying hi to us as I drove off
We got to the city centre we saw all the fancy shops rhiannon spotted a stationery shop and begged us to go in stationery was her current obsession along with pirates she ran into the shop in awe finding some pirate themed stationery she wanted to buy
We left the shop rhiannon holding her little bag filled with pens pencils colouring books all-sorts we walked down to a clothing store and kaite tapped my shoulder at the jeans department of the store
"Lucy isn't that the girl in that photo" she asked my heart instantly dropped hearing what kaite asked "I think so" I swallowed a lump in my throat hoping she won't spot me and gloat that she slept with my man
And to my luck she did I turned away "Lucy she's coming over now be calm" kaite said with a hint of anger in herself
"Lucy?" I heard making me turn around to see the girl in the photo
'God she's pretty' I thought
"Now if you came here to gloat I swear" kaite started before I cut her off "kaite can you please take rhiannon to the kids department so she can pick and outfit" I asked she agreed taking my daughter to the estator to the kids department
"Look I just wanted to say I'm sorry" the girl I believe her names arielle said giving a soft smile "did you two" I asked arielle shook her head "No god no if anything he told me how much he loves you I tried it on with him I i know I shouldn't have I was drunk but he pushed me off telling me no" she said God he was telling the truth
"I know that photo looks if so it says other wise but I swear to you nothing happened he didn't even kiss me back and you have every right to hate me but I just want you to know the truth" she said I felt awful not believing alex but after what he said last night I don't think I can forgive him for that
"Thank you arielle" I smiled we said goodbye and I went to kaite and Rhiannon I told kaite everything she was shocked the same as me but as I said I couldn't forgive alex for last night for coming to my door drunk all the time maybe in the future I can but knowing what I know now lifted a whole lot of weight off my shoulders
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A.n. omg they released a new song and the album date I'm so excited now the UK tour dates I can't wait to see them if they come it Scotland anyway I hope you like this chapter I had a bit of "writers block"