We finished eating and I helped Nandini put all the leftover food in the fridge, we brushed our teeth together and now we were cuddled up in bed. Nandini's legs were entwined with mine, her back rested against my chest making me smile. My arms were around her waist and she had head rested against my chest
"Ready" she asked and I nodded without asking what for
She turned on the stupid fifty shades movie and I panicked a little
"Are you sure you wanna watch this" I asked
"Why, you dont want to kya" she asked
"No I mean of course I wanna watch it if you wanna watch it"
"I want to" she said and I nodded as she started the movie
The fuck am I supposed to tell her, that hey I cannot watch this movie with you becasue I dont have self control when I see you and on top of this the movie you picked has every single sex thing you can imagine, shit now deal with it Manik, have fun my heart laughed, oh shut up
"Manik focus" she said and I kissed the back of her head causing her to snuggle closer which is humanly not possible but its cute
The movie was going good, until the stupid elevator scene and ahh fucking shit, I kinda peaked to see what Nandini is doing and this girl was smiling like whattt
"Baby" she hummed in response
"Enjoying it" I asked and she nodded making me chuckle
I guess I was thinking way too much becasue Nandini was super chill even when the sex scene came on she was watching with so much focus as if she was learning how to do things, she had this adorable pout on her face
"Holy nuggets of god" she screamed making me startle a little
"You saw that right" she said turning around holding my t shirt
"Saw what darling"
"Oh no no no, you couldn't have missed that, he Jesus Christ it seems hard, like wouldn't that hurt" she said looking in my eyes making me look at the screen
I realized she is talking about the play room stuff, but I didn't know how to answer that question for her
"Umm well for some it may be a turn on, for others maybe not"
"Thats true" she said and sat back at her original spot
The first movie finished and she turned on the second one and got comfortable again. I wasn't focused on the movie, I was more interested in Nandini and her reactions to the movie.
It made me really happy seeing her getting comfortable with me, she was always comfortable but this is new territory for both of us. I pulled her closer and was caressing her stomach were my hands were with hers on top of mine
I felt her weight on me so I knew she was starting to fall a sleep but her and I need to talk about everything, especially her mother and sister, they need to be taken care of as soon as I can because they have already hurt her enough.
"Nandini" she hmmed so I paused the movie making her turn her head a little to face me
"Why did you stop it" she asked
"We have to talk darling, remember" her face fell as soon as she processed my words
"I know you don't want to talk about it, but it'll be good to get it our Nandini. I will not force you baby but to me it seems like a good idea" I said and she nodded
"I want to share with you but"
"But what"
"My movie, there is one more after this when will we watch that" she wined like a child
"I promise we will finish your movies okay, if we cannot here then we will once we get home" she nodded at this and fully turned around
She sat criss cross legged in front of me with a pillow in her lap, her eyes were sad already and I hated seeing her like this, I was regretting starting this topic but it is important for her and I, especially for her.
"I was 5 when dad got remarried to mrs murthy who already had alia at that point. She was all nice with me, I was starting to get to the stage where I was getting motherly comfort from her but then when I was 7 dad passed away because of a heart attack it was very sudden but it tore my life apart. Instead of getting comfort from her she pushed me away, she locked me in the basement of our house for a few months, she would beat me everyday becasue I would yell and scream to come out. She gave me food everyday but only if I behaved, there were times when I didn't so she would not give me food for a few days. This was all whatever I mean I got used to it right what else could I do" her eyes were watery remembering everything
"You didnt ask for help" I asked and she nodded
"I did but she found out I asked our maid so she fired her and beat me a lot. That went on till I was 15, it got worse on my 16th birthday, not worse it was the shittiest thing ever, I mean I am surprised I am still alive" she said and my breath hitched as my hold on her hand tightened
"Don't say that Nandini"
"Its true Manik" she said chuckling dryly
"I got back from school and I was making a cake for myself because that's what dad and I used to do on my birthdays, umm I forgot to do alia's homework the day before becasue I was exhausted from all the other chores and my own homework"
FLASHBACK (nandini's pov)
"You fucking slut" mrs Murthy yelled coming into the kitchen with alia behind her
"Hi" my voice was so weak
"I AM NOT HERE FOR YOUR FUCKING HI, YOU DIDNT DO ALIA'S HOMEWORK YESTERDAY AND BECASUE OF YOU SHE GOT SCOLDED" she yelled pushing me making the cake fall
"Im sorry I was"
"I dont give a shit about this sorry of yours" she yelled kicking me
"Mom she did it on purpose, she said it becasue she wanted to see me punished" alia said fake crying
"No I swear I"
"Not a single fucking word, I will show you what it looks like to be humiliated and hurt in class" she screamed
FLASHBACK ENDS
"Before I could even register anything she dragged me from the kitchen to the basement. She beat me for a few hours, with anything and everything she could find, she gave me scars on my lower back becasue she knew no one would be able to see them. That wasn't even the worst part, god no that was just the beginning of my birthday"
I could not believe my ears, I felt like a fucking loser for not finding her before, I felt so helpless.
"She left the room and a few hours later a man came in, he sat there watching my every move for a few hours, once he had enough he ummm" she chocked and I knew what was coming
"No its okay I'm sorry Jaan, im so sorry" I pulled her to me hugging her
"He touched me inappropriately, he tried to rape me, but thankfully a maid came in hearing my screams and yells. You know what the worst part is manik, he tortured me for hours and my so called step mom didnt even try helping in fact she was the one who sent him in there. Even though he didnt rape me, I can still sometimes feel his hands all over me, I try fuckk, I am trying so hard to get over it but it just doesn't leave my head" she spoke in my neck
She pulled away sitting infant of me crying and I wanted to kill that mother fucker, I will make sure I punish all the ones who hurt her
"Look at me Nandini" I said and she listen her chin up, as soon as her eyes met mine she started wailing like a child falling on me
I hated seeing her cry, my heart literally broke seeing her tears but she needed to get it our of her system so the only thing I could do was stroke her hair and drop kisses on her head. She cried her heart our for a good 15 to 25 minutes and it was hell for me seeing her like that
Her quiet sobs came to an end and now she was sniffling in my chest, her hands were still gripping the side of my t shirt, I kissed her head and slipped down in bed with her on top of me.
"Nandini pata hai tum bohot strong ho not because you got out to the other side but becasue you never gave up, not many can pull through and you know what I think? I think your dad would be so proud of you, he is watching over you" I said kissing her head
"I miss him manik" she sniffled
"He misses you too baby, every time you miss him, we will look at he sky okay and the brightest star in the sky is dad" I said kissing her temple
"How do you know he is the brightest one" she asked
"Becasue when he sees his baby girl he will be happy right" she nodded at my analogy
"Ap meko chad dogai na, sab chalai jatai hai" it broke my heart hearing her doubting her life
"No jaan, I would never ever, I swear, as long as my heart beats I will always be with you" she looked up at me
"Manik, you know why I like you" she asked and I shook my head
"You have a lot of dad's qualities, I knew it the second we talked after the wedding, I have always felt like home with you because you are have this comfort in you, in your arms. I wish I met you sooner, maybe we would be something else" she confessed
"I feel overwhelmed and lucky to hear that you think I have some of dad's qualities" I wasn't sure what else to say