Jared
"This one is pretty," Mum said looking at the purple small overall and showing it to Everett who gave her a single nod and a small smile.
"Let's take even the blue one," Everett said pointing at the blue overall and picking it up and smelling it with a big smile. Since we got here, he had been looking at it with longing, and I knew my baby wanted it.
"No dear, the baby is a girl, girls wear purple and pink not this" mum pulled it out of his hands putting it back on the hunger "If you show her that it's ok to put on blue, she will be like these men who pretend to be women or these girls who also pretend to be men yet they are not. You should tell her that it's not ok to be like that. We don't want our Loreen to be disgusting do we" Our eyes were wide in shock. Ev looked at me as if telling me to say something but what can I say, I'm used to it.
She's like that.
"I hate those disgusting gay people" she added pulling out small pink shoes and putting them in the cunt. Everett rubbed his forehead shaking his head and taking deep breaths. I can see that he was trying so hard to not say anything right now.
"Mum the blue one is Cute, we could take it too, most girls wear blue," I say because Everett was still eyeing it, and I hate to say but my baby had good taste in picking these types of things, it was so cute and I'm sure our baby girl will look so cute in it.
"Jared, Loreen will not wear blue. No matter how cute it is, she will not put it on" she drawled with finality making me to bite my lips looking at Ev who was fumbling with his fingers trying so hard to control the anger I see in his eyes.
"Um, Norah who is Loreen" Ev asked after a few minutes looking up at her with a smile. He had calmed himself down. That's my boy.
"Oh, sorry I didn't tell you. My granddaughter will be Loreen Kenzie Easton" she says happily.
"What?" we both asked in unison.
"What, the name is beautiful" she shrugged crotching down and picking up pink socks as she admired them before placing them in the cunt. Looking up, Everett was glaring at her with pissed eyes.
"Norah, I don't like the name" his voice came out deep making me shiver. You can hear the command behind it and I knew things are not going to end well. He was breathing heavily rubbing a hand on his swollen belly. He was now seven months, only a few months away to meet our Princess but this wasn't the time to think about that coz the way Ev is looking at my mum is scary.
"Eva, the name is beautiful," Mum said without looking at him at all without a care and I was too getting pissed. She's getting too involved and I don't like it. This should be Everett's decision not hers. She's taken everything away from him, she was the one who chose the colors to paint the baby's room. She was the one who bought the crib throwing away the crib Ev had bought.
She's taken it upon herself to even shop for the baby, now she has a name for her. No way, that should be Everett's choice, not hers.
"Mum, Eva had been looking for names for weeks, let her do it herself," I say slinging a hand over his waist and placing a kiss on his cheek letting him know that I was on his side.
"Ok..." Everett sighed in relief that she agreed his eyes softening but we were so damn wrong "can you tell me some of them" she added folding her hands over her small chest and facing us.
"Avyanna, Renata, Cora, and Layla" Everett listed, and God, I loved them all. Such beautiful names. He has good choices
"Which one did you like the most love," I asked with a wide smile caressing his waist
"I can't choose between Avyanna and Layla" Ev replied excitedly.
"Take your time baby, I like them," I say kissing him on the mouth softly, so happy.
"Eww stop, you wanna make me blind again," mum said, yeah that time she saw us in our bedroom, I freaked out thinking that she had seen Ev not being a woman but thank God she didn't. She was quick to close her eyes getting out and she never spoke of it again just smiling at us, she just knows that we can't keep our hands from each other.
So to her, we're so in love, which was true coz I love my baby to no end.
"Eva, do you want my granddaughter to be a fag huh," she asked seriously making me flinch but Ev didn't, it's like he expected it. "Those names don't give justice to her. Name her those names and she will be one of those girls who walk like boys and cut their hair. Loreen is a good girly name, I don't want my grandchild to turn out like those disgusting pieces of sin" She rolled her eyes.
"Norah I..."
"No Eva, that's why I'm here to tell you the truth. Kids nowadays make mistakes but I'm glad I'm here to help you out" she patted his back "so Loreen Kenzie Easton it is" she declared with finality.
"Can we stop here for the day, I'm really tired. We will continue next time" Everett looked at me with unshade tears breaking my heart.
"Ok, let me go pay" she smiled but I wasn't in the mood. I helped Ev back to the car getting in and waiting for mum to finish up.
"Ev I'm sorry," I say tapping my hands on the wheel.
"I don't want to hear it...just keep quiet please," he snapped at me making me sigh looking at him in the rearview mirror and biting my lips nervously. I was about to say something else when I saw mom coming out of the shop. A worker assisted her with the bags which were many. Did we purchase all that? I didn't know. They put the bags in the boot as mum sat in the passager seat smiling wildly at us.
The whole drive back at home Ev was quiet, just humming and shaking his head when mum asked him something other than that, he didn't say anything just looking out of the window. My heart was racing seeing him push the tears back now and then. Reaching he got out of the car quickly saying he needs a bath and a nap, he was tired and sweaty.
I got all the bags from the car putting them in the baby's room and mum was busy organizing them as if the baby was hers. I let her do her thing until she was done without Everett coming out of our room. I was anxious wanting to go see how he was but I can't live mum here all alone.
She will be pissed, if I do so I waited for a few more minutes.
Mum said her goodbye after finishing organizing everything and that's when I breathed again. I ran to our room as quickly as possible wanting to apologize to Ev. He wasn't in the room when I got there and I knew he was still taking a bath. I stripped to my boxers and walked inside finding him, in the bathtub leaning his head against it, hands on the edge, looking into space with tears streaming down his face. Sniffing.
"Baby," I say crouching where his head was and holding his hand "I'm sorry baby, don't worry I won't let her name her. You're going to name her I promise" I say, Everett sits up looking at me with tears streaming down.
"Really" his voice came out so deep since he had been crying sitting upright.
"I promise, we will name her Avyanna or Renata or Layla. Whatever you want" I smiled at him kissing his hand lovingly.
"I didn't see you say a thing when she declared that my names are for fags" he pulls his hand out of my mine.
"I will talk with h..."
"You know what Jared, spare me the speech when we both know you won't do anything" he breathed in biting his lips, lips twitching in anger "I was so stupid, I should have not married you since the beginning, I should have not done all this coz no matter what it will not be enough for you, nothing I do will ever make you see that I love you" my eyes were wide
"Baby don't say that, I know you love me and it's... You're enough"
"This is my baby Jared, I'm the one carrying her in my belly. I'm the one who got sick weeks and weeks, throwing up each time. I'm the one who risked my life so that she can be here. I'm the one who is going to be in that room giving birth to her but I'm not even allowed to shop for her, I'm not allowed to buy her a crib. That is so fine with me coz I can always buy her other stuff when she's here but a name. That's the one thing i wanted to do with you. That should have been our time, going to shop should have been ours, the two of us, deciding on what we want.
But I let it be coz she's her grandmother and I thought maybe, maybe I will name her but to my surprise I don't fucken have that right either" he snapped breathing hard.
"Everett I-we" I stuttered not knowing what to say.
"You know what" he stood up from the tub pulling on the towel and slinging it around his waist getting out, water dripping off his body. I also stood up quickly. "I have been thinking a lot lately and I can't do this anymore. I'm done" he says getting out of the bathroom.
"What does that mean Ev" I asked following him out of the bathroom, my heart racing in my chest.
"It means..." he turned around looking me in the eye with too many emotions and one stood out the most and that was pain "I want a divorce"
****
Oh God,
Everett wants a divorce, he is tired.
What will happen next, next chapter will be up on weekend?
Hope you enjoyed the chapter.
Thank you all for the support. I appreciate it so much.