You sitting next to your window while sketching something. You sketch the view infront of you. You look at the beautiful view and draw it immediately.
You was busy sketching when you hear soft knock but you ignore it since you know who is that. That must be your brothers.
?? : Good afternoon, sunshine.
As you expected, its was Hoseok.
Hobi : What are you doing?
He ask as he walk closer to you. He crouched down next to you and look at your sketching.
Hobi : It was a beautiful sketch. Why don't you sketch me once? I also want one from you. Before you sketch Jimin and Suga hyung.
He said sadly but you still ignore him.
Hobi : Y/N-ah ...
He call your name with crack voice and touch your hand. You stop sketching but didn't look at him.
Hobi : Please stop being mad at us. We know we make a lot of mistakes but please don't be mad. We love you a lot. Don't you love us?
You shake your head and it's make Hoseok burst into tears. He was crying beside you. You look at him and you feel pity.
Hobi : You're never love us? Why you never did? Y/N-ah, please punish us. Please tell me what we can do to make you forgive us.
You wrote something.
Y/N : Send me back to Suwon.
Hoseok once again burst into tears when he saw it. He keep crying.
Hobi : We can't send you. How can we continue our live without you? You have become our everything since you came.
?? : That's right, Y/N.
You look at the door and you saw the rest of BTS. They keep begging you to forgive them and not leaving them.
Jimin : Y/N-ah, please forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you that way. I just stress lately. I was scared that you will leaving us. That's all.
Taehyung : Baby, can't you give us another one chance? We're promise that we will taking care of you well and treat you better. Can you?
Jungkook : I also wanna say sorry because i keep yelling and shouting at you. I don't want to make you hating us. I want you to love us as who we are.
Suga : Y/N-ah, you didn't love us? Not even a little bit in your heart? We never exist in your heart?
It's a lie if you say that you never love them. It just that love start to fade away a bit day by day.
Y/N : Please leave my room.
You wrote on your notepad and then continue to sketching.
Suga : We won't leave. We want to stay at your side.
You sighed and just let them there. After 45 minute, you're done sketching. You turn around and you saw them sleeping in sitting position. You stare at their face.
Deep inside your heart, you already love them. They are your brothers after all. How can you didn't love them. They are your mom's gem too.
You also know that this is not their fault. They didn't choose to be like this. Your father was the one that raise them that way. You can't blame them fully.
Your Aunt come to visit that evening. But she just want to talk with you only. Your father and your brothers look at you from the window glass only.
Y/N POV
I was sitting at the pool rest place with aunt Lin. She was looking at me sadly and her eyes was hoping something.
Lin : Y/N-ah, i came here because i need to deliver your mother last letter.
I look at her.
Lin : Your 18th birthday letter. This will be your mother last letter. She just make it until that only. Your mom told me to give it to you earlier.
She said as she pass me the letter. My tears pond at my eyes. I get chocked up. I caress the letter gently.
Lin : How are you and your brothers ?
I look at her and shake my head.
Lin : Y/N-ah, i need to deliver a message to you but i didn't able to. My heart didn't strong enough for this.
Y/N : It's okay. Tell me.
You spoke in sign language.
Lin : On your 18th birthday, there will be two lawyers coming to meet you here.
Y/N : For?
Lin : You can choose either to stay here with your family or you can choose to leave.
I was shocked. I never know that i have this choice.
Lin : If you choose to left, you can stay at the apartment that your mother prepare for you. You also don't have to worry about work because she also already arrange something for you.
I nod understand.
Lin : But i hope you didn't leave them. Please don't leave them in shattered, sweetheart. They are already in shock and trauma when your mother leaving them. Please don't do like that to them. I can't bear to see them like that anymore. They will lose their last hope.
She pleading me while crying.
Lin : It's not their fault. I was the one that lie to you. So if you want to mad or punish, do it to me. But don't vent your anger toward them. I'm begging you.
My tears flowed slowly. I get up slowly and about to walk away when she spoke something.
Lin : Please don't let them waiting for another 17 years, Y/N. They also doesn't want to stay in this live. Your father...
I look at her and sign her to stop. Then i walk away. I walk to my room. I sit on my bed and open the letter.
LETTER
Happy Birthday, My Princess.
How are you? I bet you will be fine, right. I hope you live your life happily. I didn't know weather you stay with your father or not.
I don't even know if you already know them or not. But i always wish the best for you, my baby. I hope you was happy right now. I always watch you from wherever i be.
Y/N baby, you get this letter early because i need to assure about your decision. Soon there will be two lawyer come to meet you.
You have to choose either to stay with your brothers and dad. Or you want to live by your own self. If you want to live alone, i already prepare everything for you. And all that will be arranged by the lawyer.
If you choose to stay with your brothers and dad, then i hope you will be happy with them. I hope you can create a lot of beautiful memories with them.
Tell your dad if your brother bullying you. Tell your brothers if you need anything. I believe they will fulfill everything that you want. They are more than afford.
I hope you can tell them that i love them. That i miss them a lot. That i wish i never know about the truth. I know that i leave them in shattered. I break their heart by leaving them.
I really hope you didn't leave them if you already learn the truth. They are not the mistake. They just learn what they have been teach. This is your father's fault. Don't blame your brothers, sweetheart. They never ask for this to happen.
If you want to stay, then be their light star of their life. Please bring the light in their darkness. Be their friends. Be their sister. And be their mother.
You guys was my gem. In this world or the afterlife. I will always be in your heart and i always watching over you. I love you.
Love by :-
Mom (Min Yu Jin)
My tears flowed as i keep reading the letter. I wish mom was here. So she can comfort me when i crying. I fall asleep while hugging that letter.