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At the night of the party Jisung has been dreading to go to, he forced himself to be there for his mission.
Countless of sleepless nights caused dark circles under his eye. Loud music screeching his ears and felt as if he could hear all the voices around him. He covered his ears to block every sound to the blasting boosting music to the whispers from the people off to the side. Every sound was excruciating to him he was about to cry out. He felt as if everyone at the party who were nothing but faceless starring his way like he was the center of attention.
Jisung wanting to run away but his body stayed put, his body refused to his mental screaming commands to move.
Then his body had loosened once he felt a pair of hands gently placed on his hands.
He opened his eyes and saw a maskless Minho with a calm expression with a slight easing smile.
Minho pulled Jisung's hands off of his ears, as if all noises disappeared and the no longer feeling the stares of the faceless strangers. Jisung felt at ease when his eyes met with the older.
He tried to speak but couldn't. He tried once more but still nothing.
As the calming moment was ending when Jisung noticed a dagger slathered in poison in his own hand.
He was in fear and tried to move but his body was no longer in his control again. His feet began moving on his own straight for Minho, trying with all his power to resist.
Jisung cried out for Minho's name but nothing was heard as he felt like the little mermaid when the evil seawitch stole her voice.
Minho standing their as if he was some npc from a video game.
Tears streaming down from Jisung's cheeks once he felt the knife pierce through Minho's stomach.
"MINHO!"
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<<end of dream>>
"GAHH!" Jisung quickly sat up from the floor, sweat dripping down his forehead and dry tears on the sides of his eyes.
He placed his hand on his never ending heavy beating heart from his nightmare.
"Jisung? Is everything okay?" A tired deep voice startled Jisung but soon realized it was only Felix.
"Y—Yeah . . Didn't mean to wake you." He felt bad for waking the guest.
"It's okay. Did you have a nightmare?" Felix turned to his side to face the other on the ground.
"I guess I did. I'm stressing to much!" Jisung rapidly shook his hair, making his hair even more of a mess.
"I—I know we aren't really close but did you want to talk about it?" Felix nervously asked, hoping not to seem so nosy.
"Not really but I will say it's just a really big decision for me to make. I only have two options and each way some one will get hurt." Jisung kept his head down, the pain in his voice audible for the younger Aussie.
"Oh, that does seem stressful. Maybe there's another way for your situation." Felix let out a little yawn.
"I don't know . . . Hey, get some sleep, you need it." Jisung didn't want to keep the latter on the couch up since it was still middle of the night.
"Yeah . . . I hope you figure out your problem . . . Stressing isn't good for your health . . . . ." Felix falling fast asleep.
Jisung watched how peaceful Felix slept, couldn't help but think about Minho.
"I want to ask so many questions about him but I can't." He thought to himself.
Later on in the day everyone awake in the little apartment. Chan had just gotten home from a long morning at work.
"Welcome back Channie!" Felix greeted the older with a bright smile.
"Channie?" Jisung raised an eyebrow towards Felix's nickname name for Chan.
"Oh, should I not call him that? I'm sorry. If you don't like me calling you that, I can stop." Felix realized it might be uncomfortable.
"Don't worry, I don't mind at all. Ignore Jisung's judgment." Chan ruffled the bleached blonde's hair.
"Okay." A smile grew back on his lips.
Jisung just watched how the two have gotten a lot more comfortable with each other just a short amount of time.
"Before I forget, I got you a new phone. Everything that was on your old phone is on your new one." He hands the younger Aussie a new iPhone.
"You didn't have to get me one, I know this could be expensive." Felix knew this family was tight with money on how they lived, he was grateful but felt bad.
"I wanted to, you need a phone anyways. It'll also might be of help to your memories." Chan did make a few sacrifices to get the phone but he didn't mind.
"Thank you Channie. I'll pay you back one day." Felix pulled the older into a hug which caught him off guard.
"You're welcome." Chan wasn't going to let the younger Aussie pay him back but he accepted the sweet hug.
Felix happily smiled while turning on the new phone. Once the phone was on his lock screen popped up which faded away his smile.
"Woah, do you recognize him?" Jisung was nosy and looked over Felix's shoulder, noticing a picture of Felix with a taller boy with a tad longer hair.
Felix's heart ached while looking at the picture of two happy best friends but he still couldn't exactly remember yet a feeling a guilt.
"No." Was all he responded and unlocked the phone.
He scanned through his apps and went straight to his photos. Lots of pictures of him and his old friends especially Hyunjin. Scanning through all these photos just sadden the freckled boy.
"Changbin?!" Chan noticed one of the pictures was Felix and the said boy taking a selfie.
Jisung kept his mouth shut as if he didn't know.
"I guess he did seem a little familiar." Felix then had a specific hazy memory of the said boy.
Two males kissing.
Felix kept swiping to get that scene out of his head until Jisung stopped him.
"Wait . . ." Jisung looked closely at the photo in front of him, a photo of Minho in the distance and the next one of him and Felix.
"Do you know him Sungs?" Chan questioned.
"U—Uhm he just looked familiar that's all." Jisung walks away feeling a tug at his heart.
Felix questioned Jisung's behavior after taking a long look at the boy in the picture. He tried his best to remember anything about him but nothing came. So he moved on to more photos, nothing but of the same mysterious boy he couldn't remember with the longer hair.
Another hazy memory scared Felix, feeling very uneasy. A memory of him falling from the balcony, Hyunjin watching him before his vision went black.
Tears was swelling his eyes, remembering pieces of the night of his accident and how he felt.
"I should call Changbin, I don't understand why he didn't tell he knew you." Chan was unaware of how uneasy the freckled boy was since he was turned away.
He was about to call Changbin until Felix stopped him.
"Wait! Please don't tell him!" Felix didn't realize the tears streaming down his cheeks.
Chan noticed how desperate the younger was, not liking to see him cry.
"I won't. Do you remember anything?" Chan went to comfort the boy.
"A little bit." Felix began crying more as the feeling of nothing but guilt getting to him.
"Do you want to say what you remember? You don't have to if you don't want to." Chan pulled him into a comforting hug.
Felix just shook his head no as he couldn't stop crying.
"I want to stay longer with you guys, please don't contact anyone please." Felix was scared they would get rid of him once they knew there was other people who knew him.
People who he thought wouldn't want him back.
"You can stay as long as you want, I won't call anyone unless you're okay with it." Apart of Chan didn't want the younger to leave just yet either.
"Thank you, you're always so sweet." Felix pulled away whipping his tears.
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A/n: dreading to go to work.
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