Could You Be Loved- Bob Marley & The Wailers
It's been 3 weeks since I was in Texas with Josh. It's been a long 3 weeks. He hasn't called it or texted me at all. Just about the date and time of everything. But I've been fine we have been prerecording interviews for Endgame to come out next month in April.
Even with all of that going on I'm still thinking about Josh.
I would be seeing him tonight.
My bags were packed and Devon and Frannie were also already. This time my Dad was watching Bowie and Stevie for me.
"I'm so excited to see Sam" Frannie exclaimed. "I hope he is still single"
"Probably is, I'm saying this from the view of a guy that like guys. They aren't as hot as you are making it seem" Devin as we gave blank stares back.
"Josh is beautiful, and it's not just that. You haven't truly seen him yet" I said walking up to Devon.
"Sure" he rolled his eyes at me and grabbed a glass of wine.
"We are leaving in a few minutes," Frannie said taking the glass away from him.
"Yeah but I'm not excited for you to be on Sam the whole time and Kathrine going crazy for Josh," Devon said.
"It won't be that bad, at least I won't be," I said as we looked over to Frannie.
"Hey have you seen him, he's super hot. Not just that he plays music" Frannie said smiling.
"Okay let's go," I said getting my bags.
Devon and Frannie followed behind me as we went downstairs and got a cab to the airport.
There we quickly got our bags checked and were escorted to the jet. It was a smooth quick flight. Only a few hours later we landed in Texas. It wasn't long till the door opened and the four guys walked in.
Josh.
His face lit up as he took the seat across from me.
Jake and Danny had sat across from each other. And of course, Sam sat next to Frannie. Devon was in his own world after he drank half of the mini bar, and was now dead asleep.
"Hello," Josh said looking at me.
"Hi, I'm so excited you were able to come. It's amazing on the island, I think you'll love it" I said.
The flight was over in a few hours and we go off and got an Uber to the ferry. We got to sit on the top and watch the nighttime sky. By the time we got to the island, it was almost 1. The boat docked took forever to unload. Finally, an old friend drove us to my house.
It was a medium-sized two-floor house. There was a large porch in the front and back. A swinging bench sat near the door, along with tons of plants. The place had lots of tropical flowers and trees. It was painted a light baby blue color and the porch railings were a buttery yellow. Colorful signs chairs and other decorations were also in the front. The windows were big enough to see from the front to the back showing the beach behind it. I unlocked the orange-colored door that held a starfish and shell reath.
On the inside, it was decorated as if an old lady lives there. Lots of homemade mugs, plates, artwork, picture frames, etc. had a tropical summery feel to it. You first saw a long dinner table next to the kitchen. On the right, my prize possession hunter green coach layed. Pillows in the shape of peace signs. Shells, hearts, and the sun sat. Multi colors chairs were also in the room. On the ceiling, plants hung all on the first floor. They had been on all tables, and even on top of the tv. The 8 rooms had also been colorful and full of decorations. It was cozy.
It was my childhood home.
While deciding on who gets what room we realized we were short 1 room. Someone had to share.
"Kathrine and I could share, only if you want to though" Josh offered.
I mean I could've shared with Devon it Frannie, or they could share. This was a stretch bug, Jake and Josh even, I mean they were in the womb together what would be so bad about sharing a king-sized bed.
"Yeah it's fine we'll take that one," I said pointing to 1 of the 3 first-floor rooms.
This will be lots of fun.
It was now 3 and we all went to our designated rooms. Josh followed behind me and closed the door after walking in.
"Ooo we have our own bathroom," Josh said laughing a little.
"Don't tell anyone but we are the only ones with our own bathroom. There are 3 others but everyone has to share them" I said giggling.
I quickly washed my face and brushed my teeth, when I was down Josh went in and did the same. I changed into shorts and a big sweatshirt that said Marvel Infinity War on the front and sleeve and cast on the back. I walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water and came back to the room to see Josh grabbing a t-shirt and taking off the one he was already wearing.
Back muscles.
He looked up and saw me, I could see his face turn a little red.
"Sorry," I said walking to the bed and looking away.
"It's okay, also if you ever want privacy or anything and want me to leave I will just say. I personally don't care so you can be here whenever" Josh said still shirtless.
"No I'm fine with it, I mean this is one of the things that comes with sharing a room with someone," I said watching him.
Josh laughed a little bit then put his shirt on and got into bed. We were as far as we could be from each other.
I passed out a few minutes later and woke up to Frannie super close to my face.
"Lovebug wake up, the sun is going to rise soon. We can't miss it" Frannie said moving the hair away from my face.
"Okay I'll be out there in a few minutes," I said watching her skip out of the room.
I sat up and looked to my right and saw Josh laying there. I don't know why but I lightly tapped his shoulder and woke him up.
"I'm really sorry for waking you up but the sun is about to rise, you have to see it" I said looking down at him.
"Okay" Josh raspy voice said. He sat up and I moved back.
We both got up and met Frannie outside.
"Good Morning sleepy heads," Frannie said looking at Josh and then at me.
"I'm sooo sorry it's 5 in the morning," I said sitting down on the pink bench with Josh next to me.
The sky on one side was a dark royal blue and on the other over the ocean was pink and bright orange. It never gets old watching from here. The sunrise is way better than the sunset, even though you have to wake up at an ungodly time. It wasn't even fully up when I fell back to sleep leaning on Josh.
I woke up when I felt Josh move a little, the sound of music playing was coming from inside the house.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you up," Josh apologized.
"No, it's okay I should be the one saying sorry I fell asleep on you," I said letting out a yawn.
"I was going to wake you up but you just looked so peaceful," he said.
"Anyway Frannie and Sam are just about to start making breakfast"
"Yum," I said getting up and walling inside.
Frannie looked at me as I walked in still half asleep. She gave me a funny-looking grin as her eyes darted from me to Josh you walked over to Sam.
The day went on quickly. We went to the beach, got dinner, and need our day back at the beach to watch the sunset. And each night Josh and I got closer. We became more comfortable with each other. So did Frannie and Sam. Devon walked into the kitchen one night and saw them kissing. That was a whole ordeal for a few days.
Everyday was like this. It changed when the sixth day rolled around we were going to leave the next night.
Josh and I were inseparable and everything seemed perfect. But I could tell that something was different than all the other times I was ever with him.
Did he not like the beach?
Was the heat getting to him?
Did he not like Frannie and Sam being so close?
Was Devon and Frannie being mean or annoying?
Or did I do something?
I woke up early that day to see the sunrise. We were all up late last night so I practically dragged Josh out of bed to the back porch.
"Look you can still see the moon and now the sun," Josh said pointing at both of them.
"Hey, so I may just be crazy but is something wrong? Did I or someone else do something?" I asked. Josh froze and stayed looking out at the ocean.
"I mean nothing is wrong," He said.
"But something is up, right?" I said looking at him trying to find an answer.
"No, not really" he mumbled.
"That wasn't a 100% no, if something happened I want to know. I feel bad dragging you to this island with my friends and me who can be annoying, then making you share a bed with me. And waking you up super early to see the sunrise. Something happened and you are not your normal self. I want to know" I said. I now had his attention so he looked over at me.
"Drop it. Nothing happened" he snapped.
I think he was able to read my face on how that scared me a little bit and instantly apologized.
"I'm so sorry I didn't mean to," he said bringing his hands up to my cheeks. I quickly jolted my face back away from him. I could in his face that he was begging for forgiveness.
"I'm sorry I know I just ruined absolutely everything but I've just had something on my mind had known you would think that I'm crazy or something" He pleaded.
"Then what is it? That's all I wanted to know" I said still staying my distance.
He looked as if he wanted to say something but couldn't.
"Again you'll think I'm crazy but I think you are the sweetest, funniest, and most gorgeous I've ever met. And when you and I walked around New York I knew I had to see you again. That's why I invited you to Texas. Since then I wanted to text or call you I just didn't know what I would say. So I thought that maybe I would say anything this week. But I keep thinking that it's just me that feels like this" Josh finally said.
"Sorry if I just scared you and said too-" Josh said.
"Stop. Stop saying sorry. Because you are not the only one out of the two of us. If anything I'm crazier than you I mean when I say you guys that Saturday I knew I had to be at least friends with you. And when you invited me to go to Texas and said yes to this whole thing, I died a little bit from like how happy I was. So no you aren't the only one that feels like that, I do too" I let out.
A big smile appeared on Josh's face causing me to smile too.
I don't know if it was because we were in the moment or something but he put his hands on my cheeks and pulled me in for a kiss. And another after that, and another, and another. They were soft and long, with smiles in between. I felt one of his hands slowly go back through my hair. And the other staying on my face. It was so comforting and perfect.
We quickly snapped out of it when we heard glass shatter next to us. We turned to see Devon about to walk out the door.
"Nope, no no no no no. I'm done. I swear to God. First I catch Frannie and Sam making out now you two. I can't keep walking into these things. If people are going to make out go to a room. I can't do this anymore" Devon ranted as he picked up the broken cup.
"Wait, Devon, you can't tell anyone. Okay? I'm begging you" I pleaded.
"Fine, but next time get a fucking room," he said storming off.
We continued to watch the sunrise we were just very close to each other now.
Devin didn't say anything or hint about what happened this morning to anyone. Our normal schedule played again, but this time Josh was a little more touchy than usual. He was like that with everyone so it didn't seem that abnormal to everyone. For example, today when I was cutting up a mango for lunch I could feel his hands linger. But other than that kiss in the morning he didn't go that far again.
We cleaned up the house in the afternoon and packed up. Our friend gave us a ride to the ferry again. Then an uber brought us to the airport. Josh and I walked away towards the back of the group to the jet.
"Sooo I think you should come to New York again soon" I saw looking up at him.
"Yes, but soon beause our tour is starting at the beginning of May," Josh said smiling at me.
"That's perfect because I have a movie coming out on April 26 and I know for a fact that for at least a month we will be doing interviews for it" I laughed.
"Next week?"
"Next week" he copied
We quickly made our way back to the group that was now walking up the jet stairs.
Like last time the flight was short again not too long after I was back at my apartment in New York.
I knew this would be the longest 7 days till he came here.