i can't believe Lionel really asked me to be his. i mean isn't it the same as me being his girlfriend?. i'm just saying it's the same. omg i'm finally his girlfriend, omg, but wait i thought he was just using me as a toy, or for my body.
"Elaina?" Lionel said, making me forget about my thoughts. "yeah?" i said back, barley coming back to reality. "are you ok? your zoning out?" he said, we were still in the hospital since we're still waiting for the doctor to come back with papers.
i was sitting down in bed next to him. "yeah, umm sorry i was thinking about something" i said back "what were you thinking about?" he said "i was thinking about-" i stopped mid sentence wondering if i should tell him or not, i mean i really wanna know
"Elaina?" Lionel said "yeah, umm, i was just thinking about that time i thought you were using me, i mean i'm not even sure if you did or not. " i said "Elaina, i was never using you." Lionel said
"then why did you leave me there like nothing" i said with almost tears in my eyes "i left you there because i wasn't sure if i was making the right decision" he said
"what do you mean?" i said back "i did it with you because i thought it was the right time and moment, but then i remembered that i didn't want to put you in danger and i didn't want to drag you with me into the mafia. i didn't want you to have that life" he said
"why couldn't you tell me this before?" i said "you left when i was gonna tell you, and plus you wouldn't talk to me" LIonel said "omg... i am so sorry Lionel, i feel like an idiot now" i said back. i wanna cry now, i really do feel sorry, he wanted to explain it to me for a long time already but i kept ignoring him, and plus i went and moved in with Oliver, the one who almost tried to kill me, but accidentally shot Lionel
"what are you afraid of? having to do with love i mean" he asked me, his eyes staring at me intently. i pulled my gaze and turned to look out the window.
"i'm afraid that one day, i won't find someone who loves me for who i am. i'm afraid that maybe someone won't ever love the way i laugh or the way my eyes light up, like in all the poems and stories. maybe i'm scared that what i am isn't enough or maybe it's too much. i'm afraid that if i try to be more than i am, i won't be loved by anyone. i don't show a lot of people who i actually am on the inside and i'm afraid that if i do, no one will ever love me." he looked away now now staring at the window.
"me too"
"you think no one will ever love you?" i said "i'm worried that no one will like the deep bad part of me." he said "but... i like that side of you... even your sweet side" i said back "that's because it's you, your my..." he paused mid sentence "my happiness" he finally said
he really said it, i'm his happiness. i started to blush not knowing if he saw me "so when the hell are we getting out of here?" lionel said "until the doctor comes back with the paper so that we can both sign" i answered back
"how come you have to sign?" lionel said back "well, the doctor thinks we're husband and wife" i said not knowing if he would get mad, knowing that if someone thinks were married, then everyone will think were married "oh, makes sense" lionel said back
i'm surprised he had no reaction, probably because he was in bad condition? hmm who knows
*LIv's POV*
i had to figure out how to distract Lionel and Elaina. this is a very difficult job, but i'm not trying to get killed.
i sighed while i was heading out of the mansion. the fact that Mr. Velkov hated Elaina so much. when will he strike. i mean when is he actually going to prove to his people that he really hates Elaina.
i got in my car and headed to Lionel's business. he has to be in his office for sure since he's a really busy guy. i just hope he's not with Elaina, i still Love this guy. we might of not been perfect, but doesn't a healthy relationship have problems in it?
anyways back to where i was. i entered the two doors and headed straight to his office, but unfortunately there was two guys guarding his door. "mam, imma need to step back" one of the guy said
"hey, i just came here to see Mr. Hernandez " i said "i'm sorry mam, but our boss is not here." usually he's always in there, there probably lying since they might know who i am
Lionel rarely has any camera's and so many passwords, only because he trust's his guards who they should let in and let out. but luckily no one in the front doors knew who i was. i'm guessing he barely talks about me.
where could lionel be...
i have no clue where he lives. wait i have an i idea. i go to the guards who are standing by his door. "sorry to interrupt, but do you know where Mr. Hernandez Lives? i really need to talk to him about some business work" i said
"i'm sorry mam but no one knows where boss lives, for his safety and his family" one of the guards said "what family?" i said back "two girls and his best friend, that's all i can say" the guard said back
"oh ok, that's fine." i left the building and in my car. what the fuck he has another girl in there? i can probably use this girl to spy on Elaina and maybe Lionel, but i'm not sure if it's Lionel's Mother.
i'm gonna have to find that out. i started the engine and started driving my car.
*Lilith's POV*
i really didn't listen to Marcus, i still made Lionel a welcome home sign. his life needs to change little but little. i mean i get it, he's a mafia, but his life needs to change.
i went down stairs, and started decorating since i found some things in his garage. i was really happy, but also very scared, not knowing if Marcus actually meant what he said
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after an hour has past, i was already done with the decorations. that's when Marcus came out of the room. i heard him come downstairs, and once he saw the decorations and me. i saw that he was mad.
"i know what your gonna say, but trust me, i know he will love it. i know he will." i said "Lilith this was a bad idea, why would you think this was a good idea?!" he yelled at me "why the hell are you yelling at me! i just wanted to make Lionel something special for him" i said back feeling the tears forming
"NO, this was a bad idea!" Marcus said coming fully downstairs and ripping all the decorations i hung up "what the fuck are you doing?!" i said yelling at him while crying
"Lionel will be mad and he will get mad at you, why didn't you listen to me at first when i told you!" he said while still ripping down everything
"i thought you were different, your best friend deserves better, not just being in the dark all day, and being a mafia. let him change, let him dress how he wants, let him do what he wants, he won't always go with what you tell him!" i yelled at him
"i should've never dated you!, your just Like Lionel's ex!" i said, i turned around and was ready to leave out of the house "wait!" i heard Marcus say "what!" i said now crying. he stayed quiet, and i thought he wouldn't say anything because that's how he is, he always keeps everything to himself "your bracelet fell." he finally said
"really.... that's all your gonna say? i fucking knew it, your just like every guy" i said and stormed out of the house
i can't stand him......
Sorry for the late update guys. I was on vacation. But here's the part you guys have been waiting on.
I will be updating on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. That's the plan.
But what will happen between Lilith and Marcus?