song for this chapter : nervous - the neighbourhood
there was no time for either of them to think, to reconsider, to evaluate whether this was going the right way, whether this new territory was safe. That's what happens when one is needy, and the other is simply impulsive, chaos. but a chaos that sounds so beautiful to the ears of only those who made it, a song that was made for no one else to understand, that was the beauty of it all.
her lips pressed against his, quite harshly. he gasped in surprise, eyes widening yet this only opened his mouth, allowing her to receive the wrong signals from him, slipping her tongue into his mouth. he hummed against her kiss, finally closing his eyes, submitting to her will before he got the courage to stop them both from going any further. grabbing the sides of her arms, he forced some space between the two before he looked at her once again.
"i had a long day" she sighed and he smiled, tiredly yet confused at her drunken wishes.
"make me feel better" she said, lifting her eyes back to meet his
"take care of me" she begged as her eyes welled up with tears and she sniffed
jaemin pushed the paperwork to another side of the desk, telling himself to do it on the plane tomorrow morning. he lifted her up slowly, a hiccup escaping her lips in surprise
"what do you want me to do?" he asked with a sigh, allowing his body to become trapped between her two legs
"i have no idea..." she said, her eyes drooping slightly before meeting his again, half hooded. he sucked in some air into his lungs, his heart beating intensely under the touch of her hand
"woah, easy tiger!" she giggled cutely as she felt his heartbeat, almost as if it was awaiting to leap out of his chest
"the things you do to me" he muttered, watching her amused smile turn into a lazy smirk
"let's get you into bed sweetheart" he said with a soft smile on his lips, dodging her kiss although he really didn't want to, but it was best for them both. she was too drunk to know what she was doing, he was about to faint if his heart didn't calm down. the beeping from his watch also brought him to reality, he wasn't made to do things like this, his body couldn't physically handle the effect she had on him, yet what was so intoxicating about her that he wanted her so bad.
"call me...baby" she said, snickering and about to sing the words to the famous exo song but he stopped her before she could continue
"baby...should we get some rest?" he asked her softly and her eyes looked up at him, welling up with tears once again making his sigh
"baby don't cry-"
"tonight" she said finishing the exo lyric and he laughed a hearty laugh
"i really don't understand you dummy" he said, grabbing the sides of her face with his hands, cupping her cheeks and making him look at him
"kiss me" she ordered him before closing her eyes and inching her face closer to his but he stopped her, shaking his head
"stop it, you're drunk" he said and she pouted
"don't tell me what to do-" she was cut off by a stern scoff and her eyes immediately went submissive, flicking a switch in Jaemin.
"are you going to be a good girl and listen to me or not?"
"yes" she muttered under her breath, drifting her face down but he raised her face up towards him more, forcing her eyes to meet his
"yes...what?" he asked
"...yes daddy" she whispered
"louder"
"yes daddy" she said more assertively making him smirk
"good girl" he said, pulling her arms around his shoulders before placing his hands under her thighs, lifting her up and carrying her into his bedroom, softly placing her on the bed where she forcefully pulled him down with her, forcing him to lie underneath her as she straddled him, laying on top of him.
his heart rate was above the roof, his watch beeping excessively, the number 160 indicating his increasing heart rate. he sighed and closed his eyes, taking steady breaths as he tightly hugged the girl on top of him, completely unaware of the excruciating pain in the boys chest.
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"i'll meet you in the lobby at 12" Jaemin said groggily as he woke up from his slumber to haechan calling him
"yes yes i know, i'll take my medicine" jaemin sighed, too invested in the conversation to feel the girl beside him stir awake
"i'll check my email, he probably sent the results by now. i'm hanging up" Jaemin said, glancing at the time on his phone before ending the call. luckily he still had time to pack and sign a few papers.
a groan could be heard beside him and he turned to see the girl cluth her stomach in pain
"you okay?" he asked, sitting up slowly as he watched her struggle to do anything but breath heavily
"yeah just...cramps" she said with a groan as she forced herself to sit up
"don't force yourself, let me help you" he said, sitting up quickly, helping her sit against the headboard with pillows at her back
"will i bring you the hot water bottle again? do you want a massage?" he asked her eyes glanced over at him as she tried to recall the events from last night. she could remember the major details, a lot was said, she opened up to him alot, thankfully one of those topics werent about her family.
"earth to yeseul...what do you need?" he asked and she smiled, shaking her head. he nodded, groaning mentally at the fact that he had errands to do. he laid back down onto the bed, enjoying her warmth and comfort while he could have it, he was worried for what the day had in store for him, she was doing a good job at comforting him by just breathing int he same vicinity as him.
"am i hurting you?" he asked as he laid his head lightly on her abdomen, laying his body between her legs
"not at all" she said and he furrowed his eyebrows as a weird noise was heard from her stomach
"are you sure? your uterus seems pretty angry with me" he said and she laughed at his comment
"yeah she's not a big fan of men during this time of the month" she said with a smile lingering on her face. she played with the ginger brown strands of hair that was starting to fade into a more golden brown.
"i talked to my friend Jeno... he said he's willing to drop off the 2 million won..i don't want you to go anywhere near that loan shark, understand?" he asked and she scoffed
"i'm not gonna die-"
"jisung cant walk for the next week or so and his face looks like he was the pinata at a birthday party, if i hear that you went anywhere near that guy i will personally fly back to korea and slap your-"
"you're going away?" she asked, the disappointment so evident in her voice that jaemin heard it, dripping like honey.
"stop chanigng the subject. where did the guy want to meet you?" jaemin asked
"2am at the alleyway near the convenience store opposite my club" she said and jaemin sighed, typing the information onto his phone
"please don't meddle with the situation anymore" jaemin pleaded, looking up at her, now sitting upright.
"i won't but...as if i dont owe you enough already, now i owe you 2 mil-"
"you don't owe me anything. just try not to get killed before i come back" he said
"well on that note, where are you going?" she asked and he sighed
"i have a surgery scheduled at a hospital in New York. i should be back in a week or so" he said and she sighed
"what for? if you dont mind me asking" she said
"i have severe chronic tachycardia...i need a catheter ablation surgery to help fix it, if it doesn't fix it then i have to get another surgery in korea with a very low surivival rate, i really hope this one works" he said with a sigh
"i dont know what those big words mean" she said with a sigh
"its when your heart beats too fast...all the time. and small things can cause me to faint or makes a small amount of stress physically too much to bear...if i keep living like this its just going to get worse. the doctors say i could get a stroke or a heart attack if i don't cure it soon" he said with a sigh
"it sounds terrible" she said and he nodded
"if the surgery in korea doesn't work...theres nothing else we can do...too many heart surgeries are just as bad as none" he muttered to himself. she slowly climbed over towards him, as much as her cramps would let her. Straddling his lap while crashing onto him with a hug, the vibration of his laugh was felt against her body and she swore she loved that feeling.
"Let's just stay like this for a bit" she said and he didn't argue. He simply wrapped his arms around her back, rubbing his hand soothingly up and down, whispering sweet words and nicknames into her ears.