Look, I know I messed up, but let me explain what actually happened.
Let's go back to the morning after the dance, shall we...
Ugh, what fucking time is it, and what the fuck is laying on top of me?
"Good morning baby" I hear an all too familiar voice.
Hmm, I don't remember bringing Lina home with me.
Wait- that's not Lina's voice.
No fucking way.
There is no way in hell that I was THAT drunk to hook up with MADISON.
I quickly shoot up and out of the bed while looking around for my clothes.
"Madison?! What the fuck are you doing here?" I yell.
"You tell me, this is my fucking room." She shrugs while getting out of the bed butt-ass naked.
I look around the all-too-familiar room and immediately wince.
Catalina is going to fucking kill me.
"What happened?" I ask as I pull up my jeans.
"I don't remember much but I know we both got pretty shit-faced at the party and then the next second we were banging on every piece of furniture." She smirks while putting on her bra.
I'm a fucking dumbass.
"If it helps, I loved every fucking second of it. You're still the best fuck I've ever had." She winks.
"This. This will NEVER happen again!" I yell while pointing in between us.
"Aww, that's what you said last month." She sighs.
Okay yes, I have caved a few times but this was the first time I caved while Lina was in my life.
"I'm serious this time!" I grab my jacket and make my way downstairs.
"Yeah whatever" She laughs.
I storm out of the house but quickly stop in my tracks when I realize that I didn't drive here. After the dance yesterday, we all agreed that we would just take Xander's car and drive to the party.
"Need a ride?" I turn and see Madison leaning against her doorway with her car keys in hand.
"I rather walk," I mutter as I begin walking down the sidewalk.
"Are you kidding me? That walk is almost an hour!" She yells as she begins making her way to me.
"Get out of my way Madison." I sigh.
"Not until you let me give you a ride."
"God, you're fucking annoying." I sigh.
"So is that a yes...?"
"Fine. Only because it's fucking cold."
That's mainly what happened.
After watching Lina get into Xander's car, I continued sitting in the parking lot of the restaurant trying to figure out a way I was going to make it up to her.
There's no way I can fucking go to school tomorrow, everyone in my fucking friend group hates me.
Especially Xander and Jess and now Arya is added to that list too.
Today during class all I could feel is death glares coming from Xander and Jess. After what I told them this morning before school, they both threatened me with bodily harm.
"You did WHAT?!" I hear both Xander and Jesse yell at me through the phone.
I physically had to move my head away from my speaker.
"I know I fucked up guys" I sigh.
"Yeah, no shit Sherlock!" Jesse says.
"What the fuck do I do?"
"What the fuck do you mean what do you do? You tell her the fucking truth! She likes you and you just fucked your ex." Xander scoffs.
"It's easier said than done bro."
"Look, ever since Lina has joined this school I've actually seen you genuinely smile and the fact that you fucked everything up by hooking up with your ex AGAIN! You're a fucking idiot!" Jesse yells before he hangs up.
"God I know I fucked up but he didn't need to be such a dick!" I scoff.
"I don't blame him." Xander lets out a dry laugh.
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" I yell.
"It means that Catalina is an amazing person and she's too fucking good for you." He replies calmly before hanging up the phone.
Great, now both my best friends hate me.
I finally get myself together before I make my way out of the parking lot and back home.
As I'm driving I try and call Xander and Arya a few times to make sure that Catalina is okay but neither of the answer.
I don't blame them.
I finally make my way into my garage and slam my door shut before making my way inside the house.
"Hey, Ash! How did the date-" I cut Alyssa off by slamming my bedroom door shut in her face.
I didn't mean to be mean to her but I didn't feel like talking about my failed date with Catalina.
I get changed into a pair of PJ pants, turn on the TV and put on a movie that I most likely won't be paying attention to.
"So I'm guessing it didn't go well," Lyss says as she comes in and shuts the door behind her.
"What gave it away?" I scoff.
"Hey! Don't give me that attitude Ashy. I didn't mess up your night." Lyss says before making her way next to me on the bed.
"Sorry. It's just...I messed everything up." I sigh.
"What did you do this time?"
"This time?"
"Yep"
"I- I may or may not have hooked up with Madison."
"Again?!"
"How did you know?"
"I saw her strut out of your room wearing your shirt a month ago." She scoffs.
Fuck that's embarrassing.
"Anyways, you're an idiot," She says.
"Wow. Thanks!"
"No problem. Leave it to me to make you feel even worse about yourself." She winks.
That causes me to let out a small laugh.
I love Lyss, she's the only person who can make me laugh even when I'm pissed at the world. I seriously can't imagine my life without her, I swear if she weren't here, I don't think I would be here either.
"You know I love you Ash but you have to make this right." She sighs as she leans her head on my shoulder.
"I know, I just...don't know how."
"Well first, you fudging apologize" She tries to act serious before we both start laughing hysterically.
Did I mention that my sister refuses to cuss?
"No but I'm serious Ash, you have to apologize." She says in all seriousness.
"And how do you suppose I do that without her punching me in the face?"
"First, you be gentle with her and you ask her nicely if you can talk to her. Don't be all Asher-like."
"What the heck does that mean?"
"It means you're always too blunt with everyone and you come off as mean." She shrugs.
"I- get out."
"Do you want my help or not?"
"Fine love doctor, what's next?" I scoff.
"Then, if she actually allows you to speak, you tell her the truth. You tell her about your weird on-and-off thing with Madison and if you're serious about her, you tell Madison that it's officially over and block her on everything including not speaking to her in person and then you tell Catalina that you're serious about her and her only. Then, you give her space to decide what she wants because, at that time, the ball will be in her court. You can't push her." She explains.
I was shocked, when the hell did my sister become my fucking love therapist?
And why the hell did she have such great advice?
"It's Keeping up with the Kardashians." She says suddenly.
"What?"
"You were thinking how I had such great advice right?"
"Uh- yeah."
"After watching Kourtney and Scott's on-again-off-again relationship, you learn some things." She shrugs and I laugh.
"For someone who has never even kissed a boy, you give better advice than my friends who have been in many relationships." I laugh.
"That's because Xander and Jess are idiots and who said I've never kissed a guy-" She cuts herself off by slapping her hand against her mouth.
"What did you just say?" I yell while glaring at her.
"Nothing!" She says quickly.
"Alyssa!"
"Asher!"
"Fine, if you're not gonna tell me, I'll just have to get it out of you," I say as I begin to get up with a smirk plastered on my face.
"What-" I cut her off by throwing her over my shoulder.
"ASHER PUT ME DOWN RIGHT NOW!" She screams.
"Not until you tell me who the boy is!"
"No! because you, Xander, and Jesse are gonna beat him up!"
"Exactly."
As you know I'm super protective of my sister but Jesse and Xander are just as bad as I am. Xander only has an older brother who he despises so Jess, Alyssa, and I are the closest thing he has to siblings and Jesse has two younger sisters who are twins so he's automatically protective over Lyss too.
If they find out about a guy even looking at Lyss the wrong way, they would murder him.
I quickly make my way to the door that leads to the pool outside and stand near the edge.
"Asher I swear to God if you throw me in the pool I will never talk to you again!" She squeals.
"Then tell me his name."
"No!"
"5"
"Asher."
"4"
"I'm serious!"
"3"
"Asher please!"
"2"
"I'm gonna kill you!"
"1"
"OKAY OKAY FINE! Just please put me down!" She shrieks.
Being the amazing brother I am, I put her down.
"Okay, now talk," I say while crossing my hands over my chest.
Fuck it's cold and my dumbass decided not to put on a shirt.
"Fine, just one more thing."
"What-" I was cut off when water suddenly surrounded me.
She just pushed me in the fucking pool!
I quickly stand up and make my way out of the pool.
"Oh, you're dead!" I yell as I begin chasing her around the pool.
"IT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE!" She yells.
Soon enough, I catch up to her while we are both laughing way too loud. I was about to throw her in before I got cut off.
"Asher!" Both Alyssa and I look and see my dad with anger plastered all over his face.
Lyss and I quickly untangle ourselves and continue looking up at him awkwardly.
"Both of you come up to my office." He says before turning away and making his way back into the house.
"Shit! Did you do something?" I ask
"What? No! Did you?" She asks.
"No!"
We continue bickering until we reach the door that leads to his office.
We stare at each other.
Take a deep breath.
And enter Satan's layer.
"You wanted to speak with us," I say as Lyss and I sit in the chairs in front of his desk.
"We are going to London during your break." He says suddenly.
What?
"What?" Alyssa says.
"Was I not clear?" He mocks.
"No you were pretty fucking clear and why the fuck are we going exactly?" I ask getting agitated.
"I have a business associate there and I need to close a business deal with them. I need you to attend the meeting since you will be taking over the firm in a few years and Macy is going to Cabo with a few friends so she can't watch Alyssa which means you have to come with us." He explains nonchalantly.
"When do we leave?" Alyssa asks.
"December 24th coming back the January 7th," He says.
Is he fucking kidding?
"We are not going," I say
"And what makes you think you have a choice?" He laughs.
"We are not missing mom's anniversary," Alyssa says as she starts to get up.
Wow, I've never seen Alyssa argue with my dad before.
Anytime they have an argument she usually stays quiet because she hates when people yell at her or she just ignores him.
"Your mother passed away 4 years ago Alyssa, get over it." He says bluntly.
"How could you say something like that?" I yell.
"Your mother was a goddamn liar and she deserved what happened to her." He says suddenly.
What
The
Fuck!
"What the fuck is wrong with you!" Alyssa yells.
Woah! Did she just...cuss?
"Do not speak to me like that you fucking brat!" He yells in Alyssa's face.
"DON'T FUCKING TALK TO HER LIKE THAT!" I scream as I stand in front of Alyssa.
No one and I mean no one fucking talks to my sister like that.
I don't fucking care who you are.
"Get the fuck out of my way Asher."
"Not until you fucking apologize!" I yell.
I look behind me and my heart immediately shatters.
Alyssa looks up at me with tears streaming down her face.
"LOOK WHAT YOU DID! YOU MADE YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER CRY!" I yell.
"Not my fault she can't handle the fucking truth." He shrugs.
He's a fucking monster.
"Go to hell," I say as I quickly grab Alyssa's hand so we can leave the room but another hand holds me back.
"Let's get one thing straight, neither of you have a say in any of this. I don't give a fuck if it's the fucking anniversary of your mother's death, we are leaving whether you like it or not. Oh and Alyssa..." He pauses suddenly while both Lyss and I stare at him in shock.
"Grow a fucking backbone, no guy likes an emotional little bitch." He says.
That's it.
That right there causes me to fucking snap.
I quickly let go of Alyssa's hand and tackle my dad to the floor before I begin repeatedly punching him in the face.
"How"
Punch
"Could"
Punch
"You"
Punch
"Be"
Punch
"So"
Punch
"Evil!"
I continue screaming and I soon realize that tears begin streaming down my face.
I watch as my father begins to grow unconscious.
"ASHER STOP! PLEASE!" I hear Alyssa shriek behind me.
I quickly stop so I could turn around and face her. She looks at me with horror.
I try to reach out to her but she begins to back away.
I feel my heart shatter again.
"Lyss-"
"No! Asher you promised me you wouldn't let your anger go this far again!" She yells while glancing behind me at my father's unconscious body.
"I'm sorry," I say while looking down and realizing that my chest and fists are covered in blood.
"I know you were just trying to defend me but this has gone too far." She continues.
"Alyssa...I didn't mean to hurt you." I mumble.
She just ignores me and walks out of the office then I hear her bedroom door slam shut.
I fucked shit up.
Again!
Wow, tonight is not my night.
I make my way to my bathroom and wash all the blood off my hands when I notice a text on my phone.
"Fuck!" I yell before I punch the mirror in front of me.
I grab my phone and notice the text is from Madison.
She offered me sex...again.
I pull on a shirt and make my way to my sister's room and knock on the door.
"Alyssa...please talk to me," I beg as I lean my forehead on the door.
"Leave me alone Ash." I hear her mumble through the door.
God, why do I always fuck everything up!
I look down at my phone and do something I know I'll regret later.
Madison Calemine
I'm on my way.
I wait a few more seconds hoping Alyssa would change her mind but she doesn't.
I make my way to my car and drive off to make yet another mistake.
----------Author's Note----------
Asher and Alyssa's dad can go to hell :)
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