This chapter... lol.
Honey Ilona
"You did what!?" Bree screamed, slapping her hands over her mouth and dropping the empty plastic coffee mug in her hand "Honey—you are joking!?"
"Shhh" I scolded and gave her a stern look "I told you, not the whole of the lunch room" I said as I looked around at a few people staring at us from Bree's shout.
"I'm sorry—I'm sorry" she hushed herself and took a deep breath "But like what the fuck? That's—Uh—unexpected"
"Tell me about it" I rolled my eyes and continued to mix the coffee I was currently making for Draco.
"So, what does this mean?"
Today I walked into work, having no intention of mentioning anything until I saw Bree by herself, looking unbothered by anything as always and it just came out. It wasn't formal, it didn't stall—I just came out and said it.
I'd had it bottled up for so long, even before we slept together two days ago—it was eating me.
But now, I'm not so sure it was a good idea.
"I don't know" I shrugged and tugged the lip over the plastic coffee cup.
"You slept with him and didn't ask what it meant?" She rose an eyebrow as if it was obvious I should of asked.
"Well, after he kinda... left" After Draco and I had done what we did, still out of breath... he left. He didn't say anything and just left.
I figured he had somewhere to be or needed to get his head straight.
As did I.
"He left?" She scrunched her face up "You're kidding, how rude" she scoffed.
"Maybe he was confused" I shrugged as I picked up the coffee cup and started to leave the room. Bree scoffed and followed close behind.
"Confused? If he was confused, he wouldn't of done it in the first place" she noted.
"I don't know what goes on in that man's mind" I said "He's hard to read, like a paragraph on Trigonometry"
"I'm actually good at Trigonometry" Bree wondered off in her own thoughts for a second before pulling herself back into the conversation "Well, talk to him. You're at work but no better time then now, right?"
"Maybe" I said, knowing damn well I wasn't going too "Anyways this is me" I smiled and stopped outside his office.
"See ya" she smiled "Come see me at you break!" She demanded with a smile before turning on her heel and leaving.
When I saw she was out of sight, I exhaled a deep breath. It felt good to tell someone but now I felt guilty. What if she tells Sebastian and I'm stuck in some sort of messed up love triangle? I feel bad that I had told her and not him but I didn't exactly kiss Bree.
Maybe Sebastian didn't even remember our kiss? I would know if I grew the courage to actually approach him and speak.
But I couldn't. Not after I slept with Draco. It would end up spilling and I couldn't handle that right now.
Turning around, I faced his closed door and prepared myself to knock.
There was no answer at first and I knew he was in there so it was either that he was in the bathroom or on the phone, either I could wait for him to finish.
So, I pushed open the door and walked in. Expectedly, I saw he wasn't in his chair. I looked to my left and saw his bathroom door occupied.
I shrugged and sat myself down on the couch to the left of the door behind the wall so he wouldn't see me unless he hooked around and towards his desk.
I placed the coffee cup between my parted legs and tapped my short nails across the lid anxiously.
I hadn't seen him this morning yet, what if he isn't ready to see me? What if he yells at me?
I really could not deal with being yelled at right now.
My thoughts were interrupted as the door to the bathroom unlocked and out he stepped.
But, he wasn't alone.
I pushed myself back towards the couch and decided not to make myself known unless he saw me first.
I couldn't see who he was with as they were speaking but their footsteps were light and loud, like they were wearing boots.
I slipped my hair to the left and tired to listen to their conversation, only picking up a few words.
"Honey...months...shut up" what were they talking about? Did I just hear my own name?
As they walked closer, their conversation grew louder and more clear.
"This is not my fault Draco. This fucking thing was your idea and now you've messed up" I recognised the other voice to be Vivian but why was she speaking to him like that? and about me?
Finally their structures come into view. I lowered my breathing and tired to make myself hidden as possible.
"This isn't me—don't pin it on me" he poked her chest and gave her an annoyed look "You got what you wanted now just fucking leave"
I couldn't do this. It probably wasn't even my business but I needed to know what they were talking about.
I cleared my throat and instantly they stopped talking. They both visibly tensed and turned their heads towards me. Vivian relaxed and sighed but Draco seemed just as scared as before.
"Look!" Vivian clapped "She's just right there, What a sign. Are you gonna tell her or shall I?" I looked confused between them, holding the still hot coffee in my hands.
I stood up from the couch and stepped into the light.
"Te-Tell me what?" I looked at Draco but he did everything in his power to not look at me. Vivian on the other hand, was staring at me with an expression nothing more then evil.
"Tell her" Vivian nudged his shoulder "Or I will and I won't be nice"
"Vivian—"
"Draco" She challenged his stare before looking away "I'm sick of this. You prance around here like someone actually gives a shit about you" she pointed towards me "You get his coffee's every morning like some fucking lap dog collecting the paper and act like he actually likes you! It's ridiculous—"
"Vivian stop it!" Draco demanded and pushed her back but she shook of his grip and took a step towards me.
"You wanna know the real reason Draco even took a second glance at you?"
"Vivian leave!" Draco protested but she stayed put, completely ignoring his presence in This room.
"What?" I was confused. Every word she said went in one ear and out the other.
"What?" She mocked "He went near you because I fucking told him to!" I blinked slowly.
What did she just say?
I said nothing and looked over at Draco. He held his head towards the floor and didn't everything to avoid my gaze.
"You were a bet from the get go" Vivian crossed her arms and took a step closer "A fucking game. Draco bet he could get you to crumble for him and look where we are now"
"W-What?" I gave a breathless chuckle, not believing Vivian "Is This true?" I looked at Draco again but he still resisted the urge to look at me.
His silence was all the answer I needed.
"He fucked up and apparently he likes you now—" Vivian continued to blab on but I wasn't listening. I was staring at Draco as if he was the only thing in the world.
Everything else spaced out as I looked at him.
Since the first confession I've been trying to tell myself that getting wrapped up in my boss was a bad idea and Draco an even badder one. I help up my stone walls and refused to let him bring them down.
Until two days ago.
I trusted him. I broke down my walls and let him in, let him take something so special away from me.
And for what?
A fucking game?
Not even taking another glance at Vivian, I pushed past her and towards Draco. He didn't look up at me until the very last second.
Tears threatening to spill from my eyes, my vision wavered slightly. He was guilty, I could see it on his face and the fact that he felt bad just made this even worse. He knew what sort of person I was, I told him things I don't tell everyone.
I trusted him.
He knew who he was hurting and it just made this all worse.
"Why?" Is all I said in a hushed whisper. I let a single tear fall down my cheek as he finally made eye contact with me.
He opened his mouth to speak but decided against it and shut his mouth again.
I shook my head and slammed the coffee cup into his chest, spilling the warm, to hot, liquid all over his white dress shirt.
"Fuck you" I whispered before pushing him back and walking past him.
"Honey!" I ignored his shout and let myself out of his office. I grabbed my bag off the desk and ignored the stares I got as I walked past. I didn't even bother to wait for the elevator and took the stairs instead.
I didn't even look up from my feet as I left the building.
I was hurt beyond belief.
I was vulnerable around him. I trusted him with my virginity and it was a fucking game to him.
I was stupid for letting my guard down around him. I was stupid for letting myself believe that he actually liked me.
No one could ever like me.
How can anyone love me when I can't even love myself?
Uh... DAMN.
How do we feel about Draco now?
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