Song: XXXTENTACION - Revenge
Once I spoke those harsh words to you,
my life changed forever
It wasn't just the bruises that scarred me,
but the consequences of my own actions
Haunted by this world,
your ghost is still watching over me
Yet it does nothing but watch,
I don't know what's worse
I'm numb to the pain of what you've put me through,
mostly numb to my own life
If I could go back,
just once
Maybe you'd still be here,
that's my mistake
I pushed it too far,
and you pushed me to break you
I'm still tryna act like things are good,
even though they never will be without you here
As if I'm not waiting to face you,
next to your grave a day I fear
Do you hate me?
Do you love me?
Questions that rot me from the inside out,
can't pretend things are ok
Praying my next breath isn't my last,
I want to see you I'm just not ready
Not yet.