♧Prequel♧
Originally, my real last name is Son. From the surname, Chun was my Mom's. Since our Dad neglected us, Mom decided to use her last name and I agreed.
I have a big sister. Her name is Son Seungwan. She applied nursing and had to study for the board exam.
It would be in denial to say that my sister and I are not that close. That time when she can't wait to see the result and was always anxious about it, I would always go near, whispering her that she'll pass the exam.
The accumulated stress and anxiety on her chest crushed down. Giving her words of console would be pointless. "Y/N... are you not nervous for your sister? It's a board exam! The result already came and... and..."
"Because I trust that you'll pass it," After all, I already checked the result. I didn't want her to know that she passed because it's better if she checked the result herself.
I'm happy that she passed, and all that's left now is her courage to see her name.
"Y/N... MY NAME...!" Just then, Seungwan was crying. She moves the scroll down to see her name. "I-I DON'T SEE MY NAME!" Though her tone of voice was lighthearted, she was really despaired and felt her chest gained weight.
"Look for it carefully, sis," When I softly tell her, Seungwan's tears had already fallen on her cheeks. Seeing this made my heart ache, but I was not mistaken that I saw her name earlier.
"Y/N, I don't see it..." Seungwan's voice made a crack through her croaked throat as she put one hand over her mouth.
I let out a sigh and finds the name for her as I scooted next to her. Seungwan was muffling, and to be honest it bothers me because I had no idea she could be this soft and sensitive.
Scrolling, I make sure Seungwan was looking at the screen. When her name was extinct for a second, I purposely pretend that I didn't see when I actually did.
"Wait, Y/N! Scroll up a bit!" She noticed there was a familiar name, in a demanding voice.
"Okayy," I answer lazily and this time, I showed her name.
That was when Seungwan's eyes grew bigger with a loud shocking gasps. She had to clamp both her hands over her mouth, and later the tears that streamed down her face became tears of joy.
"IT'S MY NAME! Y/N, IT'S MY NAME! I MADE IT!!" The excitement tone in her voice was evident but it was reassuring to see.
I give her a smile of appreciation. "Congrats, sis. I knew you'd make it. You deserve it,"
"Y/N!!" Seungwan rushes me for a tackle hug, but as a big sister, she knew physical contact is a big no to me and she might've forgotten about it. Nonetheless, I see no reason to push her away when she technically deserves a hug, but if she hadn't passed I would actually push her.
"I'm happy for you, sis,"
"This must be a dream! I passed..! I passed..!" She jumped excitingly as her hands wrapped around my neck.
While the cute moments of Seungwan took its place, she gradually realized that I shuddered and pulls away. "Let's hang out!"
After a moment's hesitation, I let Seungwan have her fun by tailing her around. But what I didn't expect is that she lined up in one of the high touch events from 3MIX group idol.
"Nayeon!" She had her both hands up in the air and the girl noticed it.
"Seungwan unnie?!" Nayeon blinks nervously.
When it was finally our turn for fan service, my sister carefully brought me and Nayeon to an introduction as we shook our hands.
"Hello there," She smiles.
"Mhm..." I only hum, looking away.
"Come on, Y/N! That's not how you talk!" The way her voice seems to have increased made me assume that this phase was a lesson for my behavior's sake.
"What do you want me to do?" I gazed at her, while Nayeon just chuckle over our moments.
"Picture!"
"Are you kidding me...?" I mumble in refusal.
Then, Nayeon voluntarily touches my shoulder with hers and makes a peace sign pose. As I was a little bit unprepared to strike a pose, all I did was look a lot bit dead towards Nayeon.
"That's just cute ~!" Seungwan grins widely.
"You could've given my beautiful face a moment," I say with sarcasm and Nayeon was shocked at first, her eyes widened.
"Y/N's like this, crazy about self love," With a help of my sister's explanation, Nayeon nods.
"I understand. What an interesting person,"
At that, Nayeon wore a suspicious smile and I glance over to where her two other members were. They have been doing pretty well, but in comparison, Nayeon had more fans than the other two.
And that's not the only observation I noticed.
There seems to be a kind of distance from the members.
For a while we left the event, Seungwan walks across the street in silence and I followed her.
"Y/N, tell Mom about the result for me, okay?" She speaks.
"She already knows,"
"I see..."
"Don't tell me you're going to meet Dad," My wild guess had her freaked out and she turns.
"...You knew?"
"It's fine. Tell him who's the boss," I tell her.
"Yeah, that's what I was going to do. You're... the best Y/N, I'm glad I have you as youngest," A sweet, beautiful smile plasters on her face.
"Likewise,"
The traffic light was lit up green and my sister runs. "I love you, Y/N!"
The unexpected words rang in my head and suddenly the time was slowed down. I could hear the world's silence....
and I heard something coming.
It was a fast speed car running towards her direction.
She died...
in front of me.
She died before she could tell Dad about her that she passed the board exam.
♧ End of Flashback♧
"I... I don't know what to say but I'm so sorry for your loss...," Sana's reply to my story was a whole stuttering issue.
"Yeah, don't let it bother you,"
Sana and I were the only students in Jinjikou High as we waited in the terminal for the bus to arrive.
"What? Of course, it'll bother me! Your sister seems to be a good person too! It's... sad. You should really express more, Y/N..."
Looking at Sana next to me, who's head faced down in misery and I startled. Never thought Sana would react like this and I gulp. "Sorry,"
"Is that an apology I hear?"
"I feel like I shared something deep and sensitive,"
"It's fine! In fact, I'm glad!" Sana turns to look at me.
My eyes moved to her, "You are?"
"Because... you never told anyone about this, did you?" Her voice was almost a whisper, as though there were people present to listen to us.
"..Exactly,"
"See? Th-thank you for sharing," Sana felt shy out of nowhere, lifting her toe and shakes her shoulder.
I gave the weirdest look and sighs, "You are the only person who knows this. The only thing I did is return the favor about secrets,"
At that, Sana stopped to avert her eyes on me and she bursts a smile. "Can't wait to know you more, Y/N,"
"Oy, oy... now that feels really different, stop,"
"Hm? Did that make your heart skip a beat? I am sorry but my heart belongs to Tzuyu,"
"Exactly, don't flirt with me,"
"I-I wasn't flirting with you, idiot! We're too close to be called strangers already, so I say this is what friends should do each other,"
... Friends, huh?
"I hope so,"
♧ ♧ ♧
I didn't tell Sana about my past just because I want to. It was on purpose where she'd most likely to feel sympathy towards me when I'm with her, and that's the key.
Sympathy is an advantage.
"Y/N, you went home really late, did you find a club already?" My Mom questions me when I drank a glass of water and finished breakfast.
"Yeah,"
"That's amazing! You're gonna have a friend! What club?"
"Helper's Club,"
"What an interesting club! You're helping the students in need?"
"Yes," I say and prepare my bag for school as I walk towards the door to wear my shoes.
"You have to tell me everything, okay? Share me your stories, Mom would love to hear them," She follows me all the way to the door.
"I'm off," I announce, ignoring her statement.
"Take care!" Mom waves a hand and smiles.
As I've left home, I walk briskly and stares the way I looked villain. "Well then..."
"Let's do this,"