Song: Ruel - Say
I walk in,
and there they are
The faces of people around me,
yet their existence repels me
I walk away,
searching
As I'm walking I'm confused,
what am I looking for?
But I still keep walking,
I have no control of my legs
As I make it up the hill,
it clicks
I'm looking for that feeling,
the ones in my heart, chest, and mind all those years ago
The memories that made my heart flutter,
the love
The memories that made my chest hurt from laughing,
the happiness
The memories that made me think of how lucky I am,
the gratitude
Where did it all go,
not one single location in my head
It's impossible to pin it to one place,
only time could tell me I lost it
Scared of wasting more time,
searching for another way to get it back
But once I do,
will I ever really get it back?
What if I never really do?