When people say
"I'm sorry for your loss",
Do you not think it reminds me
of what I lost?
It's hard enough already
without being constantly reminded.
Why are you sorry anyway?
You're not the reason they're dead.
You may think I'm silly
for pushing away people who try
to make me feel better but honestly?
They make me cry.
It's hard enough already
constantly remembering.
Some people want company and support;
I just want to lose all feeling.
I hate that I cry
everytime they're mentioned.
I hate the comforting words
and all the pitying attention.
Yes, it's really sad they're gone.
Don't you think I know that?
You need to understand
I'm not up for a chat.
I'm not going to share my feelings,
So don't even go there.
It's never helped me before;
You think it'll help me here?
Just remember, I knew the person that died.
They are very close to my heart.
So just leave me to mourn alone
so I don't just fall apart.