Third Person Point Of View
"she was still in coma for already two weeks now. i'm started to get a little bit worried, mitsuya. " emma stated. behind the glass walls, a girl was sleeping so peacefully on the bed. a dextrose and a monitor was been attached to monitor her condition while she fell on coma for a few weeks now.
mitsuya's eyes couldn't help but to stare at the girl. 'she's like an angel when she sleeps. but she feel darkness again from the time she woken up.' that's what he said into his mind. his chest heave everytime he see the girl suffers more.
he couldn't believe that even before they became close ... he felt something that he wanted to take away from his mind.
"y/n. y/n hanagaki." a smile plastered on the girl's face as she extended her hands into him, making his heart felt warm. her smile was bright as the sun that was reflected through her face.
he couldn't help but his eyes were finding her everytime he hears the girl's voice from behind, or when she talks with mikey with her cozy appearance.
mitsuya just found out that she was the another member of toman ... no. 'a founding member', that's what mikey said. they almost argue with that because we had already founded the gang but mikey couldn't take down his pride and official called her like that.
but for him, if she's a founding member or whatsoever, he just wanted her to become part of the toman. that's just what he wanted and nothing more.
"mitsuya-kun! " the girl had showed her what did she had done. it was a perfectly knitted baby hat. his mouth agaped to see how cute it was.
"it's for your sister. " the moment the girl smiled again, he could feel his heart pounded. it wasn't normal the first time he met the girl. it was like a picture through his mind everytime her face appeared on his.
"o-oh, thank you." he then stared at the baby hat for a moment. and he couldn't help but smile. his heart was burning for the small effort y/n had made just for the knitted cloth.
"you knew how to knit? " he asked making the girl nodded enthusiastically.
"hmm. do you want me to teach you? " she then sat down beside him making his heart pounded even more. he already felt weird when he began to catching up his breath secretly.
"sure. i didn't know how to knit since i didn't have time. all i had to do right now is to sew." he kept himself calm and acted like nothing happened but then he could smell her scent making him harder to catch up again.
why is that happening to him?
everytime the girl got closer ...
his heart just couldn't help.
mitsuya wasn't dumb as he know, and that's when he realized the feeling he've been kept for already years.
he already got home after visiting y/n on the hospital and he felt suddenly exhausted when he sees his room full of fabrics, pin, and a sewing machines. he sat down on the single couch and lean in as he gave up a sighed.
but then an attention caught him beside the mana's room. it was the baby hat that y/n knitted for him. it was almost old, but his sister said that she still wore that and thankfully it still fit in. his sister said that it gave her more comfort than it was especially when it is cold.
he swallowed hard thinking about the memory on that hat, and even right now ... his heart still pounded.
mitsuya couldn't know what to think about today. he was confused. he already comfirmed his feelings and he knew being like that couldn't control him anymore.
especially when he's already feeling so enamored.
yeah. he had to admit it.
he stopped it a many times. he did. but nothing happens. it plays him everytime the fate lingers them each other. he felt speechless also after finding out what was happening to him when he discovered that feeling.
he thought the memories that they made will completely faded away their confusion and that's when they need the assurance of his feelings. mitsuya was just 12 at that time and he has just a slight knowledge about love. but to the moment when she did quit their gang without a goodbye, he felt upset ... and his heart felt broken after hearing that.
he couldn't even eat right that and he began stressing onto sewing, hoping that he would forget all of his feelings for her. but it couldn't help. everytime he will made a dress, or something like soft type of clothes, it reminds him of her.
he remembered when she wore the best dress that made anyone's eyes awe at them. he gave that dress to her when it was her birthday. and it fits her perfectly.
but ...
at that moment.
her eyes just find the person who she used to bond lately. the person she was just staring into. her eyes wandered around the ground. but then when they met eyes, the girl smiled at him again.
that feeling he felt the last she gave him the knitted baby hat was also the same on what he feels that time after he gave that dress also for her. he also couldn't forget that day and the same time ...
the girl rushed towards him to say thank you and hugged him tightly.
mitsuya's lips form into a smile, his eyes closed. his heart was beating even more, and millions of butterflies started to dominate his stomach.
it was a soft feeling that he couldn't forget.
up until now, he still acted normal as if they didn't met for almost 2 years again. he was even surprised to see her back when she used to delivered fabric on his club, and that's when all of his memories came back ...
including his feelings.
he couldn't deny the fact that he couldn't feel grief or being angry towards her, because when he saw how she softened, it almost made him weakened also.
mitsuya's chest heave when he saw tears on her eyes the moment they had confronted each other for the first time in 2 years. her appearance became mature, and she looks more beautiful right now.
and when he hugged her again for the second time, his mind went blank and let his feelings go again.
y/n has a big impact on his heart.
even if the girl thought that he was just like an older brother to her. and yes, he didn't dissapoint that role to take care of her like what a brother would do since they're just kids.
and the moment came ...
when he almost lost her on time.
mitsuya's heart suffers more as he couldn't take it anymore.
he wanted to confessed his feelings through her even if she doesn't feel the same.
as long as he already gambled up his heart, he knew nothing will be lost. he wouldn't dissapoint her as she was always been in his heart.
he knew that the girl loves another guy already.
and it was mikey.
for the first time, his heart broke too deeply when he found out that it was also his bestfriend who had like the girl.
but seems the fate couldn't lingers them for a milliseconds.
he both love and care for them. they also had their own feelings for each other suffering also but to the fact that the revelation of mikey had exist ...
he wanted to confront him to talk about why did he pushed her out of toman.
nobody knows it ... even him.
he felt upset again for the second time. the second time he was been hurt. the second time that it felt unfair for him.
but he swore ... he knows how to handle emotions. so if in-case that it was done ... when he feels like it wasn't the time for him already ... he knows that was not the time.
mitsuya will let this feelings flew away until it vanished.
because he respected her a lot.
being selfish wasn't on his own vocabulary. he learned how to let go someone. he humbled himself for his sisters as well as the other people beside him. that was his own morale. to let go of everything.
to sacrifice this feelings was the answer for all.