25th december
ross lynch
the thought just came over me like nothing.
i'm not even sure where it came from if i am honest with myself...
i pauses for a second... "do you want to try for baby?"
her face wasn't what i expected, her face almost went pale in pretty sure
"i uh- i m-mean...what do you think?" she says with her eyebrows furrowed
"i think we should, i-i mean, i know we are still so young and we can wait because i'm willing to wait but-
she cuts me off with something i didn't think she would say "ross, i'm eighteen, i'm going to college still darling, you're going back to touring soon-"
now it was my turn to cut her off "and i don't have to go back" i encourage "i'm twenty soon and i think we have have got this, i don't care anymore i just want a family with you" i boast
she sighs and let's her head drop, i know she's trying not to smile but i see the side of her lips lift and butterflies are suddenly in my stomach
"i mean, w-we could try" she lifts her head up and shrugs
my face lights up, everything became more clear to me, it was her.
i begin nodding frantically towards her, my smile bigger than ever
wow.
it might all work out in the end.
~
kenzie louise
28th december
the day before the boys birthday.
it's currently 8pm at night and i'm once again, rushing around like a bull in a china shop gathering everything for ross' birthday tomorrow like a mad woman
i was at home, with my family for once and not ross, he was spending the night at his house and we were seeing eachother tomorrow morning
very early.
4am to be exact.
he knew it was going to be early but not that early.
my plan is to drive there and be there for 4am, his family were in on the suprise plan too, they were leaving the door unlocked - the front foor.
i was going to let myself in and into his room and wake him...by jumping on him of course.
when he finally wakens we are going to drive to the airport and to thailand for the next 3 days - the 29th, the 30th and the 31st
meaning we were out there on new year's eve.
we left early january 1st, knowing that's when the band go back on tour kind of just hurt me 10 times more everything i thought of it.
so let's not think of it for now.
and let's think of me trying to sort myself out.
ok right, i grab the plane tickets, put them into the envelope i had, i grab his card and take my time writing out what i wanted to say to him.
dear ross,
happy birthday my love <3
everything you've done for me i can't tell you how much i appreciate it, you're it for me.
it may sound stupid and we are young but i want to grow up with you, no i want to grow old with you.
marry you.
have children with you.
buy a house with you.
and do so many more spontaneous things that i cant even think off right now.
i love you so much i cant tell you in words.
i hope you enjoy what you've got coming for you in the envelope.
you mean the world to me angel.
i'm so happy i waited for you, i fought for you and i'll happily do it over and over again.
lots of love
kenzie x
i smiled as i finally finished writing his card, i had a lot more i was planning on saying but couldn't put into words
after i finished placing the card in the same envelope as the tickets i sealed it with a lick of my lips and into the bag along with his presents
i hadn't gone crazy and got him a lot because, trust me, those tickets were enough money so i hope he knows how much he means to me after this.
i hope he does already though.
fuck.
okay anyways, standing up i grab his two bags of presents and make sure you can't see anything over the wrapping at the top, i then get my suitcase and throw my bag on my back, with a struggle i manage to open my door and make my way out to the landing
"kenzie!" i heard one of my siblings shout from their bedrooms
i pause "yes" i say rather fast
"can you shut up!!" when they shout back i am 100% sure that's maddie screaming at me
"sorry" i mutter even though she cant hear me
i mean i was making rather a lot of noise, banging two bags and a suitcase down the stairs.
i swear i'm having deja vu, i'm always here taking stuff down the stairs.
anyways...finally downstairs i leave everything where it needs to be for me in the morning, or a few hours.
i rush back up stairs into my bathroom to get ready for bed, jumping in the shower quick and washing my hair through
i get out after having my little sing song to r5 of course, i brush my hair after throwing a t-shirt and some old comfy shorts on that were far too big - might have been ross'
i do my skincare and brush my teeth before leaving to go into my room, just as i'm about to lay in my bed my phone chimes from my bedside table
i rush over to it like there's no tomorrow, not too sure why but a part of me hopes it was ross, we hadn't spoken much because we were both just purely too busy, and that is perfectly okay.
to my hopes and wishes it is ross, he sends me a message that reads...
ross😎🖤 - i cant wait to see you tomorrow, sleep
well, i love you angel <3
that stupid name.
i feel butterflies almost immediately, i swipe onto my actual phone after putting the password in over a thousand times...at least.
'i love you too, sleep well <3'
this kid.
he reads it almost straight away and replies with a heart, i don't open it so it doesn't look like i'm ignoring him, i'm not that mean.
i get comfy and ready to go to sleep and turning my light off, my heads lays on the pillow as i drift into a deep deep sleep.
~
the alarm sounds crash through my body worse than ever before, i promise you now.
i literally shor up, no night mares tonight, which is good, even though it's literally 3:30am so, not like i had time for a nightmare really.
after five minutes of drifting in and out of sleep i finally get myself up and out of bed, to the bathroom i go to wash my face and brush my teeth, my hair also
i changed into the comfiest clothes i could find, amd yes, believe it or not, they are ross'
his joggers that were too small along with my favourite white hoodies of his, it smelled too.
smelled great.
i must say.
i rush down stairs when i realise it's literally ten to four and i have to be there at four, throwing my shoes on likes theres no tomorrow, i don't even bother having anything to eat because i know i have zero time
i grab my suitcase along with my bag throwing it into my back, i grab ross' presents in one hand and my suitcase is in my other
i rush into my truck after trying not to slam the front door, or my truck door for that sake...
when i get there i park down the street so they don't hear my truck, i have rydel my wingwomen on the side messaging me little updates
update one - ross is passed out asleep
i don't reply because of the rush i am in, i grab his envelope and make my way to the front door, when i get there i'm greeted by ryland, rydel, and stormie all hurrying me into the house to save me from the cold
rydel pushes me up the stairs and into ross' room pretty much as soon as i got there
when i was in their room my baby was so peacefully sleeping, his mouth wide open whilst he was laying on his stomach, and every few seconds he would snore a little to catch his breath
i awe at the view before deciding to do something i probably would regret in the long run...but fuck it.
i jump on to ross' and with a big groan he wakes, he moans and groans until he looks up to see me next to him, rydel and stormie at the door watching
i look over at them and they give me a wide smile with a thumbs up, not too sure how they are that awake at this time of the morning
"w-what are you doing here" his voice rasps out once he's rolled over and throws his arm over me
"suprise!! happy birthday" i whisper shout into his ear as he pulls me to lay down next to him
"i have a present for you" i whisper after a few minutes of laying here
he moves his head from my chest that he had hidden his face in - more buried but oh well.
"what?" he furrows his eyebrows
"look" i say taking and giving the envelope to him whilst he still lays on his stomach
he sits up with a big yawn and i do the same, his face lightens when he opens it, and my heart flutters.
"thailand?" he says in shock
"we're going to thailand" i smile
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a/n
omg
i'm so sorry
finally an update!!
-katie