I woke myself this time go me asf😫 I looked over at the clock
5:34? AM JESUS CHRIST-
I groaned and got out of bed. I didn't dare get out of my clothes that I had on. I felt comfortable in what I was wearing. I decided I wanted some cookies so I'm going down to the kitchens.
If I get caught by Minnie I should be okay, but if I get caught by filch I'm fucked. I quietly slid myself out from the portrait and made my way down to the kitchens.
I got in there and immediately elle the house elf came over to me.
" hi master Hayden Elle is happy to see you again" the elf smiled at me nervously
" hi Elle could you make me a plate of chocolate chip cookies please?" I asked her with a smile
" Elle will make whatever master hayden needs. No one had been nice to Elle the elf before thank you" she smiled at me through glossy eyes
Poor elf's. They get mistreated 24/7:/
I smiled at her and she went off.
She came back about 15 minutes later and handed me the plate I smiled at her and reached into my pocket. I pulled out a chocolate bar for her and she gladly took it.
I quietly made my way out of the kitchens with a plate full of chocolate cookies and tip toed back to the Gryffindor tower.
I surprisingly made it back without anyone catching me and walked in the portrait. I saw Remus sitting there infront of the fire reading.
" oh hi rem" I said closing the portrait behind me.
" hi Hayden- where did you get that?" He asked me confused
" if you're nice to elves they'll pretty much do anything for you" I smiled
" do you want some?" I asked him
" is that even a question?" He chuckled
I sat down beside him and put the plate on my thigh. He took one off the plate and went back to his book.
I sat there looking at the flames of the fire and quietly thought to myself.
Don't beat yourself up about him hayden.
" Hayden?" He snapped me out of my thoughts
" yes?" I asked
" I'm sorry" he mumbled
" rem it's oka-" he cut me off
" no. It's not okay. I should have told them the truth instead of saying that." He said
" what do you mean?" I asked him
" well- erm I didn't mean what I said to them." He said looking down at his hands.
" you just didn't want them to know" I said quietly And he hummed in response
" I get it" I sighed
Just then James potter game down the stairs well more like ran down the stairs.
" hello besties" he smiled
" hi jamsie" I replied back going back to my book but Siruis came racing down the stairs so hard he bumped into James making both of them fall.
" I'm surrounded by idiots" i whispered to Remus which earned me a chuckle.
" alright dumbasses get up we're going to breakfast" I said getting up onto my feet.
Siruis walked over to the plate of cookies and got like seven😐
" lord bless your soul" I said before heading out to the portrait.
The girls came to breakfast about 7 minutes later. Kes sat down beside me and got a piece of toast.
" hi kes sleep good?"I asked her
" I did, what about you?" She asked
" I slept good" I smiled
" oh uhm I need someone to help me with my classes" she said pulling out her time table.
" lemme see" I said grabbing it.
" that's sad. We only have muggle studies together" I frowned
Siruis glanced over at her time table and raised his eyebrows " you have the same classes as me except for muggle studies" he smirked
" oh okay" she said putting it back into her bag.
She smiled lightly at him and returned to her breakfast.
I finished my breakfast and it was time to get to potions.
I sat myself down onto the table and took my seat.
Slughorn began to speak " I want all of you to come up here please" he spoke up.
" this potion right here is called Amortentia. Can anybody tell me what it is used for?" He asked
I immediately shot my hand up cause I know exactly what it is.
" miss Jimenez" he nodded his head
" Amortentia is the most powerful love potion in the world. It is distinctive for its mother of pearl sheen, and steam rises from the potion in Spirls. Amortentia smells different to each person, according to what attracts them." I finished
" well, miss Jimenez if you don't mind what does the potion smell like to you?" He asked
I took a long sniff " I smell, wood, cinnamon, chocolate, tea and books?" I said confused
" very good miss Jimenez 10 points to Gryffindor" he smiled
I stepped back a little and though who could smell like that.
Wait- REMUS! JESUS LORD
My face was probably as red as a tomato right now-
Siruis whispered into my ear " the look on your face tells me that you just figured out who you smelt" he smirked
" yes" I replied
" who?" He asked
" Remus" I said quietly
THIS MAN REALLY JUST GASPED AS LOUD AS HE FUCKING COULD LIKE HE DIDNT KNOW IT WOULD BE REMUS😐
EVERYONES looking at us😐
" Siruis Orion black shut the hell up you're making everyone look at us" I whisper yelled
" I knew it" he smiled
" so the dates off?" He asked
" yeah." I replied.
We made our way out of potions and I made my way to divination. I hate that class😐
I sat beside James in divination which is better than nothing.
I slammed my stuff down on the table which made him flinch
" Merlin woman what!" He asked
" we have a problem" I said serious
" what is it?" He asked
" I smelled Remus in Amortentia" I said stuffing my face into my hands
" you should tell him" he said warmly
" my anxiety wouldn't let me" I said shaking my head.
" you need to Hayden." He said in a calm voice
I sighed " I'll think about it"
Muggle studies was my last class of the day and then we went to dinner but I'm going to skip and then go to the library cause I really don't feel like eating.
" kes I'm gonna head to the library you go ahead to dinner" I told she shook her head yes before giving me a hug and heading off into the opposite direction
I got to the library and checked out a book for charms and read it untill I had to leave the library.
The closer and closer I got to the portrait the more I could hear James arguing with someone more clearly.
Jesus Christ what the hell happened
I finally got to the portrait hesitant to say the password at first but I have to see what's going on.
I walked in and immediately got greeted by a very angry James and a just as angry Remus
What the hell😐
" what happened?" I asked going over beside Remus
" you wanna know what happened hayden? YOUR LITTLE BOYFRIEND KISSED LILY" he yelled the last part
My heart sunk.
" what?" I said quietly
James let out a frustrated laugh " you heard me. He kissed the only girl I've ever loved" he said
" I DIDNT KISS HER SHE KISSED ME" Remus yelled back.
Remus already looked like James got a few punches in. By the blood coming from his mouth and nose.
James went to go hit Remus again but Remus ducked and me who was standing beside Remus didn't.
The world stood still as James potter accidentally hit me. It was a punch with such force that it knocked me to the ground.
I got up as quickly as I could not caring the blood that was tricking its way down my nose.
" HAVE YOU ALL GONE FUCKING MAD?" I yelled out.
" THINK BEFORE YOU FUCKING ACT YOU COMPLETE AND UTTER ASSHOLES" I let out a huff
" JAMES GO FIX THAT BLOODY FUCKING HAND BEFORE I SLAP THE FUCK OUT OF YOU. I HAVE JUST ABOUT MCFUCKIN HAD IT WITH YOU BOYS" I turned around to Remus angrily
" AND REMUS IM A LITTLE FUCKING DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. YOU KNEW JAMES LIKEED LILY. AND IT DOESNT MATTER IF SHE KISSED YOU, YOU SHOULD HAVE STOPPED IT" I turned My body to James again
" AND YOU. ALTHOUGH WHAT REMUS DID WAS WRONG YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO MAKE THIS BIG OF A FUCKING SCENE. HE IS HIS OWN PERSON HE CAN KISS WHOEVER HE GOOD AND DAMN WELL PLEASES" I said letting out a breath before punching both of them.
" Siruis go take Mcdumbass to The infirmary. Remus once James comes back go to the infirmary to see what she can do about a broken fucking nose cause that's what it looks like untill then go fucking take yourself somewhere" I said clenching my fist to keep myself completely flipping out.
When they both walked out the portrait I sighed in relief but heard sniffing coming from one of the couches I looked over and it was lily
" do you hate me hayden?" He asked quietly
" no, lils. I don't. I'm sure you had a valid reason for it I just don't want to hear it" I smiled at her
I noticed my head was fucking pounding
" Awh shit" I mumbled putting my hand on my head
" Hayden are you okay?" Kes asked me
" yeah I- I'm fine. I'm gonna go get some rest okay? Make sure nothing else happens would you?" I asked the 5 teenagers in the room at the time .
They all shook their heads
" lils maybe you should come up with me so James doesn't yk get mad again" I said quietly.
" yeah" she said quietly. So quiet I could barely hear her.
She went upstairs first
" Hayden you should probably clean the blood that's coming from your nose" Marlene said wincing at the sight of it.
" oh- yeah" I said before walking up the stairs and going into the bathroom.
I looked in the mirror and winced
That's definitely going to leave a black eye-
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It was now Saturday and that whole incident was Wednesday😐 I've forgiven Remus cause it obviously wasn't his fault although it kind of was but still.
I'm in the library currently checking out another charms book.
Untill I heard footsteps approach me. Ugh I know who that is. James.
" Hayden?" He asked
" yes." I replied looking up at my book with my hood up so no one could see my ugly ass black eye.
" can you look at me please?" He pleaded
I rolled my eyes and took my hood off to look at him. As soon as he saw it his eyes softened.
" Hayden I'm so so sorry, I meant to hit Remus not you." He said looking down at his shoes
" James I don't care that you hit me. I care about you are Remus. Did you forgive each other?" I asked him
" yeah." He stated
" them were good honestly jamsie. No hard feelings" I smiled at him.
" are you sure?" He said sadly
" James. Stop pouting. I said it was fine I don't care that you hit me. Seriously I'm okay" I said looking into his eyes so he can tell I'm telling the truth.
He sighed in relief " good. I didn't know how much longer I could take of this" he said motioning his hand to me then back to him.
I chuckled " yeah me either" I pulled him into a hug.
" have you talked to lily?" I asked him
" no. I don't want to yet" he averted his eyes back to his shoes.
" James maybe you should. Hear what she has to say" I said looking at him sympathetically.
" yeah maybe you're right" he whispered
" how about we go down to the kitchens and get some ice cream would like that?" I asked him.
He shot his head up and gave me a bright smile " really!" He exclaimed like a little kid
" yes James really." I smiled.
Well this week has certainly been interesting🤨