10 years ago......
Louis
I huff angrily, while I look at the couple in front of me. And truthfully, I wanted to shout, make a scene but that would just be my downfall. I'm aware that I can't tell anyone the truth.
I'm just a geek, a nerd and if I ever open my mouth I will just make a fool of myself, even though I'm actually telling the truth.
Humans, always believe what they think is possible. Even though they can already see the truth in front of them..
I know that I can just use my father's influence or even my strength as a werewolf but all of those are something I can not do. I'm not a person who will use and extort everything I have just for my own selfishness.
Thinking about it I can't help but laugh at myself because I, Louis Caine Lexus the future Alpha of my pack is bowing his head to a human.. I felt so humiliated and ashamed of myself. And I'm sure if father knew about this, he will be so disappointed of me.
Brushing the long locks of my wavy hair, my eyes lock on Mr. Popular; Kingston Knight, and I can't help but shudder when he wink at me. With blushing cheeks, I abruptly stood up and walk out of the cafeteria..
My skin is crawling with goosebumps, while my mind remember him. The way he looks at me, with so much intensity that makes my spine shiver uncontrollably..
Its creepy..
As I can still feel his disgusting hands all over me..
Truthfully when I first saw him, I just wanted to be like him. To have a girlfriend and become someone who will be respected by everybody. Maybe because I have an Alpha blood, that's why I wanted to be someone like him. But truthfully, I just see him as the right role model for me.
Like him, I wanted to be tall, strong, dependable, responsible and reliable.
But it seems he thinks differently. Because to my utter surprise he deemed me as someone who is secretly gay and that I like him.. Resulting for him to came at me, whenever his girlfriend is not around.
But he changed suddenly....when one time he met my best friend and future beta, Josh.
"Where are you going, Louis~" Kingston states, as he slung his arm around my shoulder.
I pushed his arm away and look at him through my glasses. Seeing him look at me with a cheerful expression just makes my blood boil, and honestly I'm getting irritated with him.
And I don't know what came over at me, but before I can stop myself I already said something outrageous. "My boyfriend Josh, is coming to get me."
Oh God, Josh forgive me for using your name...
But it shocked me when his smile drop while his eyes grew dark. He is about to move his hand but a car honk stopped him. Turning around my face lit up. Josh just arrived and waving at me like a maniac. Without looking back, I run over to his car and hastily hop on.
My eyes grew big when I saw Kingston looking at us with a dark expression through the rear view mirror, while he grits his teeth angrily. But I just shrugged it off, not even giving him a second glance as Josh starts to drive while he talks about the two years that he's been away for his beta training.
I regretted it so much. Because after that, he begins to change. The Kingston that I know completely change. He become more aggressive with me. The playful flirting became full on harassment. The light jokes change to something more serious. And the most painful thing is, his girlfriend knows. But she just turn a blind eye.
I'm 16 when he first force himself in me. And I can't fight him. I'm still small and scrawny, as my wolf is still not mature inside of me. But it doesn't mean that he can't feel what I'm feeling. Because like me he also feel disgusted that someone who is not our mate is touching us. Its so humiliating. I really wanted to fight him but to hurt a human is a big taboo for us, that's why I just took everything without complain...
Remembering it all filled me with so much sorrows as tears start to flow out from my eyes, blurring my vision as I walk towards my car..
When can I finally be free from all of this?
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Two years after...
Its Sunday, and coincedentally at midnight I'm going to be18. There is a full moon, and I can feel my wolf itching to came out.
But like every Sundays, Kingston take me to the old ware house behind the college. And like always he is going to use me again, but not like before I didn't resist this time. I just let him do me. As I my body become tired of fighting.
Suddenly a bubbling heat blossomed deep in me.
"What's going on?!" He yelp in surprise as he jump away from me.
I just smile wickedly at him, then I felf my body starts to morph. Every muscles in my body starts to expand, while my bones grew. Filling my body completely.
"What the fuck?!" He scream, when I stood up looking more differently than before.
I grew from 5'7, to a complete 6'7 tall. My scrawny and skinny body completely transform to full buff, as my shoulders become wider, my arms and legs are full of strong muscles while my once flat stomach are filled with 8 solid packs.
My mind starts to swirl, as adrenaline continue to pump all over my veins. Everything slowly become a blurred while I look at Kingston, as my wolf finally took hold of my mind and body.
When I gain back control over my body, it's already too late. Kingston is already dead... His body parts were scattered all over the place, while my body is completely wet by his blood soaking me from head to toe.
And I can't remember everything that happened..
Looking around I saw that the whole place is painted with red, and when I move my eyes to look at the bloody floor I can't help but to let out a blood curling scream when I saw his head on the ground which is completely detach from his body situated directly in front of me. His eyes were lifeless, as it look up at me with so much fear.
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Back to present....
Louis
Shame..
Guilt..
My heart is full with so much emotions that I can't lift my head to look at Masha while I told him, about that night.
"Lo.." Masha murmur, then suddenly he surprised me when he jump at me and hold me gently on his arms. "Its not your fault.. You didn't kill him without reason. Your wolf felt that he is a threat to you that's why he took hold of your body to defend you.."
I shook my head, and pull away a little. "There might be reason, but it didn't change the fact that I'm still the one who killed him."
Masha's eyes glisten when he look at me. And my heart throb when I saw his eyes become sorrowful.
"Everything has its own reason why we decided to commit such things in life. Sometimes, its reasonable but sometimes its not. However it doesn't change the fact that we actually do the act, so we need to be responsible for it." Masha state as he took hold of my chin while he smile gently at me.
"Like me, I'm killing people for a living but it doesn't mean that I love doing this. But still I do it. That's why I don't have the right to regret my actions. Everything that I do is on my free will. I choose to live like this, that's why I need to live through its consequences.."
I breathed painfully as I fought the tears from finally falling down. He is right. I decided to do it. Not just my wolf. I also want to do it. So as a man, and an Alpha I need to suck it up, bear the guilt and held my head high. I just need to continue living proudly, without any regrets and move on.
This is my life, and I need to live through it.
"See, its not that hard right?" He murmur, as he pecks my lips gently.
Smiling down at him, I can feel my insides becoming lighter. Accepting everything makes my conscience clearer, and everything comes to this because he is here with me.
"I'm really lucky to have you.."
Masha giggle and it sounds like a music through my ears. And when our eyes met, I can't help but to filled with desire as I look directly into his eyes. I slowly move my head, and lean down.. Masha blush when he saw me licking my lips as I continue stare at him..
"Ahem!" I snap from my trance, and abruptly move away from Masha. Turning my head, I feel my eyebrows twitch when I saw Josh looking at us with a smug smirk.
"Well, I really don't want to stop you from whatever you wanted to do to the poor boy, Lo. But sadly Justin from the sub clan wanted to challenge you for the Alpha position." I lift my brows at him, as I cross my arms in front of my chest.
"Uh, huh. Justin McDonell, wanted to challenge me for the Alpha position? Are you being serious Josh?" I snort.
He huff, with an annoyed look and lean on the door frame. "Yeah, very much so. And actually he is outside waiting for you. The brat even brag that he can defeat you in just 5 seconds."
"Ohh.. He has balls!" I whistled, while I stood up and stretch my body.
"Lo, are you going to be okay?" Masha suddenly cling on my arms while he look at me with worried filled eyes.
I peck his nose, and wrap my arms around his waist as I lead him outside. "Never been better babe, and you don't have to worry about me. Everything is going to be okay from now on..and I can't just let you see all my bad side eh, at least let me show you how cool I can be."
My eyes swirl with mischief when I saw the young man in front of us who is looking at me with an ugly sneer on his face.
"To think that you are my Alpha is disgusting. A fucking faggot! And a coward! I will show everyone, how weak you are Louis Caine Lexus!"
Everyone gasp from horror when he suddenly lunge at me, while he shift on his brown wolf form in midair. I push Masha towards Josh as I shift to my big white wolf.
I snarl loudly, making the wind vibrate with so much force. The brown wolf didn't even have the opportunity to reach me as I jump fast and bit his tail on midair. He yelp from pain as he struggle but I didn't let go as I move speedily and kick him hard with my hind legs.
The ground shook when he fall, while I landed gracefully not far from him. He remains lying as he whine from so much pain. I saunter over him. I saw his shook his snout while he begin to scoot away from me. But I just bare my canine, and smile evily while I jump and pounce at him.
After a second he is totally unconscious while lying on the ground completely shifted back as human.
Masha run over me and gave me a trouser, and I can't help to chuckle when I saw him blushing up to the tips of his ears.
So cute..
Putting the pants, I wrap my arm around his waist as I look at everybody who is watching us. My face blank, while my eyes are cold.
"Anyone who didn't like my way of leading can step out and challenge me, I won't hide nor decline. But just don't forget that I will not show mercy to anyone and I will fight with everything I've got!" My voice boom all over the place, and I can almost taste their fear on the air.
My wolf is howling deep in me, as my eyes flashes gold while a powerful aura starts to pour out of me. No one speak a word as they look at me differently. I hold my breath when suddenly one by one, everyone starts kneeling in front of me as they bow their head submissive. I tightened my hold at Masha, when he starts to squirm beside me.
"No need to be shy baby, I'm after all your mate and as the Alpha you are my Luna..'' I whisper at his ear.
Looking up ahead, I held my head high proudly. That's right, I'm the Alpha...their Alpha, and their leader..
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My eyes is itching when I saw a lot of people kneel in front of him. What a bastard! A total fraud!
I smirk evilly when I saw the boy in his arms, who is blushing hard.
He's actually cute huh, but too bad. Because I need him to make 'that man' suffer..
Yes, just a little bit more. I started to laugh maniacally as I stare at the man in the monitor...
He doesn't have any clue..that everything is about to start... That his suffering is just starting...
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